Well I havent blogged in awhile and I apologize. I have been super busy with work and walking. By the time I get home I just crash. I am still doing good on my diet and with the exercise. Last night it was raining here so I walked 2 miles on the treadmill and then 20 minutes of my bowflex. I have been going to the tanning bed too...I am a firm believer that tan fat looks a whole lot better that ghost white fat. Plus a tan always makes me feel healthy.
I am starting to feel good about myself which is something I really havent felt in a very long time. When I get dressed in the morning I think dang devon you are looking good and I actually feel comfortable in my clothes.
I am just so happy. I want to lose at least 15 more pounds and I know I will have to pick up on my exercise and eating habits in order to get that done so I am. I will never go back to the way I was before. I am not skinny now by no means but I feel a whole lot better and alot healthier.
Thanks for the support and everyone keep up the good work.
How sad, the weekend is over and tomorrow I have to go back to work...yuck.
I did good this weekend, I even went walking at the park on Friday. Alton and I went shopping on Saturday and today. I discovered I can wear an XL Shirt which is AMAZING because I was in an 18/20. Alton said all my boobs are gone..which is okay with me. We went and saw The HIlls have Eyes and if you like horror movies, this is the best one that I have seen in along time.
Everything has been good. I just got out of the shower and I am going to bed. I didnt get much sleep this weekend and tomorrow morning will be here quick. I hope all of you are doing well.
Yep I lost a pound...I had TOM visiting and I didnt exercise a lick but I lost a pound...Thank Goodness! Today I wore a size 16 Levi's that I bought a month ago and they were baggy on me..yipee! People even commented that I looked like I was losing..Yipee! Plus today I got a 10% raise. Woopee! Woopee! That is unheard of, everyone got 3.5% but I got 10% I must be doing something right. Well I am just tickled.
Today I had two granola bars, an apple, and a chicken burrito with sour cream and water. I walked at the park this afternoon and it was so nice. I walked a mile. Now I am downloading music for my MP3 player. I have had a good day.
Yeah, It's Thursday...almost completed another week. I am feeling better. I have just been so danged exhausted lately. My mom says I am not getting enough protein so I am taking a multivitiam and exchanging my granola in the morning with a sausage biscuit or something like that, then I skip lunch. I ate a veggie salad today at lunch because I have to work late tonight and probably wont get home until 7:30 or 8:00 and I am trying not to eat after 7. I havent exercised in a few days, I know bad, but I just havent had the energy. I appreciate all the comments and support I have gotten. Every little bit helps. Tomorrow is weigh in day. I dont think I have lost any this week with TOM here and all but we will see, just hope I didnt gain. It is amazing how freaking hard it is to lose and so quick and easy to gain. Anyways I have to get back to work. Oh, and good news...My parents sent the finance papers off so they didnt have any late payments last year...(amazing) So the tenative closing date (if everything works out) *oh I hope* is March 20th. Thank you for your thoughts and prayers.
I have just felt Blah the last couple of days. Maybe it is because of TOM. This morning I went to McDonalds with Alton and I had a sausage and egg biscuit and a small sweet tea. I skipped lunch because of that and we are having salads tonight for dinner. I will exercise tonight but I definately dont feel like it. Work is stressful as usual but what's new. I weigh 189 and I should be just freaking estatic about that but I am just like hmm. Since the first time I weighed I have lost like 17 pounds but I dont see it or feel it one little bit and I guess I am just discouraged. 17 pounds is alot, I should be able to tell by now but I guess when you have so much to lose it takes alot to notice it. Oh well. I could use a nap. I guess TOM has got me down. Damn you TOM, Damn you!
Thank you everyone for the comments...I know I should be siked about losing all the weight but I just cant see it yet. Anyways, I need everyones prayers (wishes, hopes, etc) My mom and dad are trying to buy this land up close to me and well the finance place is giving them the run around. They said if they have had one late payment in the last 12 months that they wont be able to get it. Who hasnt had at least one late payment in 12 months? Well, I know that I have and I am sure there are alot others. So my mom is completely stressed out (she does that alot, get stressed) and is just sure they arent going to get it. She is going to have a stroke before she even gets up here. I tell her she needs to calm down but of course she cant...I guess it is just in her nature to stress. Anyways, she has got to chill out or her future grandchildren wont have a grandmother...If you cant tell, I worry about mom and dad alot. I guess I should take my own advice, huh? Well Keep them in your thoughts, say a little prayer, I know I have been.
Yeahhhh! It's Saturday and I didnt have to work, which is good but that means I will have to work Thursday night...I had rather do that because I am already there and I would have ruined my whole day if I went to work today. It is an hour drive each way so that sucks. Anyways, TOM is visiting which is great because that means I am not preggers! I do want to have a baby eventually but I want to finish my house and graduate first. I am going back to college, by the way to get my Bachelors. This morning Alton and I went to meet a guy about a job for him in Toccoa, then we went to the thrift store to see if I could find some "product" (I sell on ebay) Then he took me to wally-world and I got a pair of socks and a tshirt and I ironed on my poodle decals...they look so cute. Oh, I am having to wear a poodle skirt to the Remember when Theater in Helen when I go with the red hat ladies. I am going to look so cute...except for the fact that a poodle skirt has got to be the most unflattering thing you can wear, it makes everyone look huge and on my 5'3" frame I look like an oompa-loompa.Ok, got sidetracked....then we came home and took a nap. I got up and took a shower and straightened up the house. Tonight Alton wants to go to the chinese buffet (he loves crawfish and they have them there) so I guess we are going to do that. All I have ate today is a half of a peanut butter sandwich and some carrots, so hopefully I will be okay.
Now For the Great News....I weighed after my shower and guess what... 189.2 WOO HOOO WOO HOOO yeah yeah yeah...and keep in mind Uncle Tom is visiting so that is incredible!!! Yeah
Well Good news - Mom and Dad's offer to the bank for the house they want was accepted. Yippe! One step closer! I cant wait for them to move up here. I am so HAPPY!
In other good news - I was in the hall today and one of the men here said "Devon have you lost weight?" I said yes just a little and he said "Looking Good!" Ahhh a man noticed! That is something spectacular in itself because men never notice anything.
Food related: this morning cereal Special K and at lunch Lean Cuisine (210 cal) Alton is going to play poker this afteroon so I guess I will just eat a salad and then tomorrow we both have to work.
March 18th I am going with the Red Hat Ladies to the Remember When theater. We always take a limo and dress up, act silly, it is alot of fun. Now I know I am 25 and should be hanging out and going to the club with friends or what have you but to me that is so average. Being around older women gives you such a good feeling and makes you feel hopeful for the future. Everytime I get insecure or down on myself I think of them and how at 40,50, 60, 70, and 80 they couldn't really give a damn what anybody thinks.
Well it is 4:00 I am going to finish up my work and leave.
Today was a hectic day. Cereal for breakfast, salad at lunch, one slice of left over pizza and then a shower. I am going to bed. My head hurts and I have to be at work at 6 am which means I have to get up at 4:30.
Okay I said I was going to bed but I have seriously slacked on the walking thing so I did. I walked 1.5 miles on an incline. Woo Hoo!
Alton is sick and I am sure all of you wives know that when a man is sick it is like they are dying of tuberculosis. It is the end of the world! Hacking, coughing, spitting, whining, ahhhhhhH! get over it, I mean I dont mean to sound harsh but so what your sick. When I am sick I still have to go on to work and clean, wash clothes, whatever..Men are such pansies sometimes. Alton said he was going to go on the diet with me (much like he was going to quit smoking with me) "If you wouldnt smoke, I wouldnt " "If you would walk I would" he would say...um, yeah. Alton is still smoking - my quitting had no affect on him what so ever. Alton is not exercising, his excuse "I walk back and forth all day" and he is still eating...pizza, mexican, etc. Which by the way, makes it alot harder for me to make healthy choices. I am aggrivated tonight I guess. Hopefully it is coming up on TOM because I cant remember if he visited in February in not. Oh well...we will see.
This morning I had a bowl of Special K red berries (190c) and for lunch a lean cuisine (270) Tonight I have got to pick it up in the walking area. I skipped last night and the last few times I have only been going a mile. I have to do better than that.
Well back to work.
For dinner I had 1 and 1/2 pieces of meatlovers thin crust pizza hut pizza and at work I had 1 small chocolate covered pretzel. I have slacked big time on the walking. I didnt walk last night or tonight but I will tomorrow, no matter what.
