This has been a tough weekend for me. Last week I found out that my grandfather's prostate cancer has returned and has spread. He doesn't have long from what the doctors say. It has been tough on my family and me especially. I am really close to grandfather. Both of my grandmother pass away about 20 years ago and my other grandfather died before I was born. So Pop (as we call him) is the only grandparent I have had in years. I would go and visit him and we would talk and gossip about folks for hours. We talked on the phone. He is a great friend. To give a little history, we found out about 8 years ago that he had cancer. He broke his hip. He was always really active but after that he just sat down and didn't try to get back up. He was on a walker. Anyway he had been in remission since then. Right before Thanksgiving he fell in the bathroom and broke his thigh bone. He had to have surgery on his leg. While in the hospital he could not go to the bathroom (or as his very southern nurse said make water). They went in to check out his prostate and they found it to be enlarged. They did a biopsy and found that the cancer had spread. I have been completely devastated. Now my grandfather is 98 years old. And I know that he is not going to live forever. It is just that over Christmas me and one of my cousins stayed over at his house. He has to have someone with him around the clock because he would not put any weight on his leg. He was up cracking jokes, we played checkers (which he loves, he cheats by the way), had some drinks, and just had fun. And now 2 weeks later I find out that he is going to die and the doctors are only giving him two weeks to live. I can't believe it. It was the worst day of my life. Some needless to say I have been doing alot of crying over the past almost week. I went home to see him this weekend and he is not even there. He mostly sleeps because of the medicine. He is not talking and I am not even sure that he knows that I am there. I sat and held his hand and talked to him. On Saturday, me, my cousins, and my aunts sat around his bed and sung traditional gospel songs. He seemed to respond to that. It is killing me that I am going to lose him. I am just not ready to let him go. But I don't want him going through pain, so I am trying to make peace with the fact that he is dying.
On that Friday I lost my appetite. I didn't even eat dinner. On Saturday morning I got up and went for a walk. I went in a hilly neighborhood. It was tough!!! Then I came home and did arms and abs. I did want food on Saturday but not 3 meals. Now I have a cold. So that is not helping me with wanting to eat or drink. Hopefully I will start to feel better soon from this cold. I hope to start back working out tomorrow. I can't breathe out my nose.
Please keep my family in your prayers. Have a great week!!!
Where to begin. We got polo shirts at my job with the company logo on it. We actually got them months ago. I always try to get mine first to make sure that I can get my size because they never get enough larger sizes. Well anywho I ended up gettin a 2XL, I wanted a 3XL. But luckily these were the sketch type of polos. So I could wear it but it was fitted. So today I got up and decided to wear it. I got it out and ironed it and guess what???? It was not as fitting as it had been. What?!? I just put on a clean shirt and it wasn't tight. Yeah me.
Today I did not want to work out. I came home and saw my dog and changed my clothes and hit the pavement. On the last street, I said I think that run to that stop sign. So I started jogging and I made it to the stop sign. Then I decided to jog home and I made it. I think Reese liked it too. I was so proud. I just went on my first run (well jog ) .
Food was pretty good today. For something sweet I had some sour patch kids and I had some wheat Rtiz crackers and laughing cow cheese. I was good.
I hope everyone is having a good day!!!! Keep it up!!
Okay yesterday I was over my points. I was actually 3 points over because I forgot my salad. Today I am under my points, Go Figure! I am going to have some pineapple and ff whipped topping later. Tonight I had fish tacos for dinner. I used cumin as a seasoning. It was really good. This was my first time using it. It you have never tried it, DO!! It adds a really good spicy favor. I am trying to buy new seasonings and spices every week. This a suggestion from my WWers leader. It is a easy way to stock up you spice cabinet, since some recipes call for spices that you may not have on hand.
Exercise today was a blast from the past. I broke out the Taebo video. And when I say video, I mean VHS. This was like the first Taebo tape out. Now he has like a hundred videos out. I forgot how hard he worked you out. I was sweating like a little pig.
Do you know what I hate and love about WWers? Journaling. It is the greatest and worst thing in the world. On one hand it really makes you accountable for the food you eat. This week my goal is write down everything that I put in my mouth. I am truly guilty of that. Today was a rough day for food for me. I was so hungry at the end of the day. I got some pretzels (1pt) and I had some sour patch kids (2pts). I did not have a full serving so I would normally would not write it down. So today I wrote down everything and guess what I was over my points. I was over by only one point but still over. I did workout today so that helped me out. What I hate about journaling is just that writing down everything, having to keep up with everything, calculating points. I am tired of that. But if I didn't I would probably think that I am not eating that much, when actually that handful of whatever counts and makes a difference. Whether you are doing WW, JC, or whatever it is that helps you get the weight off; just stay true to plan, you will see the difference.
Tonight I walked 25 mins and did a 30 min video. For dinner I had a Broccoli and Mushroom Alfredo, which was really good. I added a few cloves of garlic, what is alfredo sauce without garlic. I added a salad to my meal. I also had some grapefruit juice. Have you send the ads for Indian River? They say you can lose up to 19 in 13 weeks. I decided to try it. Hey it can help. You can fill out a form to get a coupon.
Today was a weird day. I got in early to work to talk to my boss about Friday. I had sent him a details email about the whole day. He was very shocked about how everything had went down. He was disappointed in the people that he had in place to handle the whole situation. It really felt weird at work. They just let go 3 people and they have yet to come and talk to everyone about it. I mean people will get nervous when you see 3 people walk out the door. Then they are walking around the office to make sure that everyone is working and not goofing off. It is crazy.
On a positive note I did good on my food today. I have a meeting after work today. My plan was to get up this morning and workout. That did not happen. I can not break myself from the bed in the morning. I got home late I took Reese for a quick walk and that was it. Tomorrow will be a better day on exercise. I just can't get up in the morning. Maybe one day (hopefully) .
Today was busy day. Typically my Sundays are pretty laid back and relaxing. Today I had some running around to do. I got up and went for a 40 min walk this morning. I was so proud because I actually ran out of music on my IPod. How you ask? I have 2 walk it out playlist. They are each almost 40 mins long. This morning I was listening to the longer one and before I made it back home my music ran out. I was too happy. I came in and ran back out to hit up the grocery store and gas station. I came back home and did the Biggest Loser workout video. I was still rough. It is low impact but still it gets me. I know it will get easier.
I have to make myself get up early tomorrow and workout. I have a meeting after work so I will be late getting home and won't be able to workout. I have got to keep this momemtum going.
Today was a good day. I had my first weigh in and I gained weight from my last weigh in. I am not surprised. I am lighter than I was when I weighed on the 1st. Well I have my starting weight for 08. It is not as bad as it was in 07.
I got up this morning and went on walk. I took Reese with me. I had a good long walk about 40 mins we probably did between 2 - 2.5 miles. I have a walk it out playlist on my ipod and I ran out of music on it. So it was good. I hope to do the same thing tomorrow.
Me and one of my friends hit up some farmers markets. We are trying to do the organic thing. We did find one outside market that was organic but they did not have much. I got some organic pasta. It looks good, but it is not whole wheat.
I got all my water in today, which is a miracle on Saturdays. We went to this restaurant for lunch. I had a soup and salad. It was not good on calories. I had the bisque (which was great) and the house salad. I am pretty sure it was too high in calories. I had leftovers for dinner. So I would say today was not that bad. I need to get in more fruits and veggies.
I am feeling better about my Friday. Today was a good day!!
I love Fridays. I live for Fridays. This was the worst Friday in the history of Fridays. Today I had to layoff two people at my job. My director was out sick today and called the VP to take care of it. Well our VP is totally non-confrontational. So he left and called the senior engineer to take care of it. Well the senior engineer did want to do it, so he calls me into his office and tells me to let these people go. I was like Hell No. He pissed me off so bad by not doing his job. So one guy was leaving early so I had to track him down before he left to let him know that he no longer had a job. The next person was a little harder because he is actually a friend of mine. I feel like crap. I have laid off before and it sucks. The time that I got laid off I knew it was coming. We were super slow and had been for weeks. This probably caught this people off guard. I hate being the bad guy. Being a project manager sucks.
So with my terrible day I wanted to run to my comfort: FOOD . I did need me a drink. I skipped dinner and I am about to have me another cocktail. In the morning it is supposed to warm up. I am going to get up and take Reese for a walk to clear my head. It is freezing here now, it was warmer tonight I would have gone then. Tomorrow is my weigh in day. I need to hear some good news, even if it is one pound.
I hope your Friday was better than mine. Have a great weekend!!!
I went out to lunch today with my co-workers. We went to Applebees and I got one of the WWers meals. So I am proud of myself. I did bring my lunch but everyone wanted to go out so I gave in. But I knew that going to Applebees would be a safe choice. I came home today and get the Biggest Loser workout. My arms are killing me. I hope everyone is having a great week!!
And today was a good day. I am doing WWers on my own. Which basically means that I am using my old material. Today I packed my lunch and took some healthy snacks. I stayed on task and skipped going out to eat with my co-workers. I think that it is important for me to get back focused first before going out to eat. Don't get me wrong, I am to start back eating out, I just want to get my eating habits under control first. I got all of my water in and ate plenty of veggies, even had 2 servings of milk. Yay Me!!!
Yesterday I got up to workout. I took my dog on a 25 min walk around the neighborhood. I was going to get up this morning and take her for a walk but it was too cold. I just could not get up and go out there. My plan was to come home and take her for a walk but I promise it was colder this afternoon. So I hit the treadmill (I hate it). I was going to warm up for my exercise video. I did 10 mins on the treadmill and came down to do my video. I have rented The Biggest Loser exercise video. Okay I did not need the warm up. I was tired!!!!!! I am doing the 6-week plan. You only get one day off a week. Sunday will be my day of rest.
Saturdays will be my weigh in day. I weighed myself yesterday, but I will wait until Saturday to update my weigh.
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Ranetta
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Today I had to layoff two people at my job. My director was out sick today and called the VP to take care of it. Well our VP is totally non-confrontational. So he left and called the senior engineer to take care of it. Well the senior engineer did want to do it, so he calls me into his office and tells me to let these people go. I was like Hell No. He pissed me off so bad by not doing his job. So one guy was leaving early so I had to track him down before he left to let him know that he no longer had a job. The next person was a little harder because he is actually a friend of mine. I feel like crap. I have laid off before and it sucks. The time that I got laid off I knew it was coming. We were super slow and had been for weeks. This probably caught this people off guard. I hate being the bad guy. Being a project manager sucks.