03/27/2009 17:51
Letting Go
Nothing is more difficult to do than letting go, well at least for me in some situations. I remember a several years ago, I had a girlfriend that I thougtht was a great friend. We partied together, joked around together, and talked all the time. I later found out that she was not the person I thought she was. She was lying behind my back and lying to me. I had to let that relationship go. She never came clean about eventhought I completely caught her in her lie. I stopped being friends with her and never looked back. Somethings are more difficult. I dated this guy in college and I can honestly say that he was my first love. We dated a few year back and I was hurt when things didn't work out. Now time has passed and we decided that we were going to be friends. For awhile the friends thing worked out great. It was like we were best friends, now things are not so great. He can be a totally difficult person. When are going great with him, he can be a great friend. When things are not so good, he can be an ass. Right now things are not so good with him. When we talk, it is always a borderline fight. He is rude and nasty at times. Yesterday, we were on the phone and he hung up on me. Then he called back later and I wanted to talk about how I felt about him hanging up on me and he hung up on me again. I understand we people are going through a rough time, I have been there done that several times. This past year was terrible for me. I am sure that there were times that I was not the nicest person. I didn't think that I was just rude because. I decided yesterday that I could not be this punching bag for him anymore. If I was mean to people, I think I at least spread it around 
. It is rough but I am letting go.
. It is rough but I am letting go.This brings me to food. I LOVE FOOD!!! That is easy to tell. When I have a rough day, I turn to food. I love french fries. They are my #1 weakness. I really need to learn to let go of that too. The crazy thing is I like eating healthy. I love veggies. But potatoes have got me like a crack pipe. I need help with that one. My promise today is to be strong. I have did before, I can do it again.
Hang in there kitty!!
Ranetta