I am here

some where! I am sorry I havent been around checking on my friends and posting like I should but there has been so much going on that I am at that drowning stage again and I am barely keeping my head above water. I have missed every body and I was so happy when i would get a message from someone checking in on me! I dont know when the chaos in my life will ever go away, or jsut simmer down but I hope it is soon! I feel like I'm 31 going on 70. My son had a major head injury so that had me out of touch with everythign for a while,,now that hes getting better he thinks its cool be cause he looks like frankenstein with a big scar across his forehead. I never knew that boys could get into so much! Now I know how Evel Knievels (sp?) parents mustve felt! Anyways I hope to keep touch a little better and I hope to hear from my friends soon. As for the weight loss.......I'm not even going to go there for now. Love you all and talk to you soon!

T.J.

TGIF!!!!

Yippee!! I didnt think Friday would ever get here. I wanted to stay in bed so bad this morning...but we know how that goes...kids to feed, bills to pay, work to do...and on and on, but tonight should be interesting, the boys have been invited to a sleepover and I might have the house to myself for once...oh the possibilities!! Like I told my neighbor, I'll more than likely wind up in bed or watching tv on the couch but it will be PEACEFUL & QUIET!!! Hope everybody has a great Friday!! TTYL

NO SCHOOL

Tomorrow!!! I will be pulling my hair out!!! Kids are so lucky. I have had a much better day. I have tried to walk every day this week, except for today and I just havent gotten around to it yet...but it makes me feel SO much better. I have tried to really watch what I eat, think, and say this week...I was doing good with the eating part until my son brought home a BIG BATCH of White chunk macadamian nut cookie dough!!!      THe will power that is taking me not to go in there and scarf down all 4 dozen!!! UGH!! I need to start baking them and handing them out to my neighbors that I havent really had a chance to meet yet.  That sounds like a good idea....  I hope everyone has had a lovely day!! I actually used the air conditioning today..I love this weather!!!!

T'NT

Time Change

Is it just me or does everybody hate when the time changes? I have pushed snooze both days this week..I had a rough day yesterday but I tried to get up in a positive mood today. Hopefully the day will breeze by and it will be a good day. I'm going to wait until the end of the week or maybe next week when I'm not so depressed (hopefully) to weigh and see exactly how much damage has been done. I know its not good because my jeans are snug again, they were really loose and comfortable. Makes me feel like a failure, but I'll keep on trying. Hope everyone has a great day , ttyl!!

BLAH!

Thats how I look and feel. I wanted so bad to look good by the time spring got here, but I have been STRUGGLING, BIG TIME!! I feel like crap all the time and I feel like I never get one minutes rest. School is kicking my ass, my oldest son is going through a stage where he doesnt want to turn in his work at school and is in danger of failing, my youngest is going through the "Dont tell me what to do stage" and my middle child thinks the world revolves around girls. I never leave the house since I have started working from home and the walls are starting to close in on me. I know it just depression sinking its teeth in me again and I dont have the strength to deal with it right now. And this yo-yo weight loss is driving me INSANE!! I lost down to 180 and felt damn proud and then I let it come right back. What gives?? Why cant I just be normal? I know I need to get back on here on a daily basis so I can get the support I need from my friends...thank you so much for those that have checked in on me. It means alot. I will be back later...the tears are flowing and I need to chill a minute.Love you all!

BRRRRRRRRR

For the first time since winter started ,today we got a feel of cold weather. We had a wintery mix and schools were delayed...I cant wait until spring gets here!! I am not a winter person and thats why I have been so glad that it hasnt gotten bad until now. The kids are loving it though. Theyre already praying it will be bad tomorrow, NOT!! Its already melting. Thank goodness! I have a question for all parents out there...does any one home school your children and if so are you happy doing it? My son has missed so much school this year from chicken pox and other illnesses that I'm afraid that he'll get held back and I'm really not that happy about the school that hes attending since we moved. Hes only 8 and has to walk by himself because the bus wont run within a mile. maybe Im being over protective but I cant help it. There are too many crazy people out there and I dont know what I would do if something happened to him. Maybe it wouldnt be so bad if he had a buddy to walk with. I dont know...am I crazy? I am really interested in homeschooling him and if it doesnt work out I can send him back to public school next year. He really likes the idea. Gimme some feed back please... have a great night everybody!!!

I believe I can fly

and take a nose dive!! this was SO not funny when it happened but now I can laugh about it. The house I moved in to has 12 ft. ceilings and me with no man around think I can do anything!! Yeah, like change a light bulb that I cant reach unless I climb Mt. Everest or at least the smart thing would have been to go out and purchase a ladder, not try and climb in a flimsy chair...but I did and I crashed and hurt my leg. At least its ok now but I was extremely worried the night it happened because the doc told me it was pretty messed up, after a couple of days I threw the crutches under the bed and hobbled through the house..another lesson learned. Chairs are made for our butts not standing in. I should be doing my homework right now but I have read the assignment 50 different times and still cant wrap my mind around what Im reading, so I've been sitting here watching COPS and surfing the net. I sure hope 2007 is going to be a good year, its gotten off to a rocky start but I'll keep on keeping on.  Night everybody!!!

Saturday at last

Why does it take so long for the weekend to get here and then its gone in a flash!! I was up last night doing a quiz on rhetorical devices and then this morning trying to list the ones that are used in commercials. My brain is on overload. Any minute your going to hear KABOOM!!!!!!! Its funny how I never thought about things that I'm learning now, before now! And yet my kids are doing homework that looks like its written in code! And school starts back Monday!! YIPPEE!! I dont remember ever getting that many days off when I was in school. The times are changing every day!!Well I'm off to the never ending house cleaning duty! Have a great weekend!!!

Just checking in

I had a moment so I thought I would drop by and say hey!! Between the 6 toddlers and the 3 boys of mine I have runnning and screaming I feel like I'm about to pull what hair I have left out!! I got my hair whacked off this weekend, its a short pixie cut and I msut say with the weight I have put back on I look like a boy!! If you've noticed I haven't updated my weight yet....I'm scared what the scales will say. So I'm just staying focused on my exercise and what I put in my mouth and when I feel comfortable I'll weigh. Hope everybody is having a rockin' new year and I'll talk to ya'll later!!!

2007

WOW!! Can you believe another year has come and gone already? I have be so preoccupied with work and school I dont know how Christmas snuck up on me so fast. I made it through my first block of classes with an A- and a B...I was so proud of myself, but with not being faithful to my diet and blogs the pounds starting creeping back on...I know, the never ending yo-yo weight loss...I hate it! But I think this will be my year for big change! In the past few months I have gone back to school, moved into a new (not new new, but new to me)house right  before Thanksgiving, and my business has grown a tad! So things are looking up and I'm feeling good about things. SO now goes the make over of my body..yikes!! It definitely needs some work! But I promise to do my best and stay faithful to my blogs and friends!! I HAVE MISSED YOU ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hopefully this new year will be a new beginning for all of us! Look forward to seeing you all soon! Big hugs!