stressed and no will power
I thought I was going to maintain myself while my dad was going through his bypass but I just started eating everything in sight. I don't know why my hope to lose weight and will to keep strong just flew out the door during this time of surgery and waiting while he was in ICU. I was nervous and I was scared. 
My boyfriend came into town on Monday morning and he got to see my dad right before surgery and he was there trying to make my dad laugh about life a little and trying to make him feel better as if there was really no worry because everything was going to turn out fine. I'm glad he was there with me and I'm glad all my siblings were there, too. 
It was so nervewrecking, I ate breakfast tacos for breakfast and I ate a lemon chicken plate at a chinese restaurant. And while waiting, I ate cheetos, chips and chocolates. Nothing I ate today was healthy and good for me! I don't know what came over me! I guess I'm an emotional eater, and I don't think that is good for me at all, either. I need to have more control of myself but this emotion I had while waiting to see how my dad did during surgery was really strong, so strong I felt weak in my heart and my legs felt shaky and jittery. Well, the worst was over, my dad came out strong and he is doing so much better. I took him for his 1st follow up and his blood pressure was perfect and his stitching on his chest was healing beautifully, his blood sugar is steady and he is not having any complications right now, either. 
I thank the Lord for listening to everyones prayers for my dad!
Now I need to get back in line. For the sake of my life, health, love and family.
