UNstaBle WeeK :(
My week has been crazy! 
First of all, on Sunday my dad called me telling me he was feeling very sick and I was worried about him because when he called me, my dad was crying of pain. Listening to my dad's pain, being a strong, tough man, just broke my heart. 
I had decided to call in to work to go and see my dad on Monday. Well, then my bf and I had a fight before he left out of town on Monday morning. I hate fighting with him but he just doesn't understand me sometimes. Well, then on Monday night, while I was here at home, miserable about my dad and then about my bf, I realized that I hadn't taken my birth control pill since Thursday morning. What was I thinking? Oh, my goodness, I was freaking out. 
Oh, my goodness, what would I do if I'd come out pg!!! I'm over here trying to lose weight at 37 yrs old and then I'd gain it all back coming out pg and at this age?!?!? Well, all this just stressed me out. I had to wait for TOM in order to start taking another pack of pills all over again. (Tues 4:30am 30 min treadmill; 7:00pm 30 min Hip Hop Abs video) Still hadn't heard from the bf, which just makes me more anxious and all and still no TOM!!! 
On Wednesday, my dad was feeling better, which was great news and then finally, about 2:30pm the bf called, and I felt even better, hearing from him and knowing he was doing okay out there on the rig. (Wed 7:30pm 45 min Turbo Jam video) Although, I was trying my best keeping on track w/ the exercise and eating and all, I felt fat, big and bloated. Wasn't sure what was really going on with my body but it didn't feel good. On Thursday, I weighed myself -164 lbs and I felt like I weighed 200 lbs. (Thurs 8:00pm 1 hr on treadmill) Ugh! I still felt ugly and big! On Friday morning, TOM finally showed up, YES, YES, YES! And somehow I felt lighter. And I weighed myself in the morning, and sure enough, DOWN 2 LBS! 
What? Like I said, crazy!