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Fast Weight Loss Tip #1

I fell asleep with the TV on last night. When I woke up there was some hot minister guy in jeans, quoting cool R&B lyrics, talking about how to pray. I like to watch these guys sometimes. He was hot, so I watched. After the sermon, or whatever it is they call it, they go to an audience member who talked about how he'd lost 70 pounds after taking part in some program offered by the hot minister dude. Then comes the sales pitch....

The viewer is told that in return for a gift of $30 or more, they would receive the complete sermon/program on DVD, a cookbook, and a creative exercise DVD.

That's how my day started. With a laugh.

A while later I come up here to my computer and on the front page of Yahoo is a link to an article about weight loss, I forget what the hook line was. So, like the idiot I am, I click on said link to find an article by a woman who claims to have invented spinning. Maybe she did? I wouldn't know. Here's something she said:

Our bodies are built to survive, so when you exercise for long periods of time (often and consistently) your body thinks it needs to hold on to fat for energy.

....more here

Diets DON'T Work!!!!!!

I love Weight Watcher’s new commercials. It’s true, diets, as the term is understood by the vast majority - 1200-1400 calories a day, don’t work.

I lost 72lbs doing Weight Watchers back in the 90s. Yup. It certainly worked for me. I was eating a very high processed carb diet and averaging just under - 2lbs a week. Not bad!!

How that happened I really don’t know. I did a lot of cardio - I fairly quickly worked up from barely able to do 10 minutes to 60 minutes a day, 7 days a week and wanting to kill someone if I missed my “workout”.

My staple daily foods were a full bag of “lite” microwave popcorn a day, 3 servings of multi-(processed so they don’t count) “grain” Cheerios, 2 bananas, 4 oz of some sort of meat protein - mostly chicken, pork, beef, broccoli or canned veggies, skim milk, and margarine for fat. On Fridays I might have a slice or two of pizza and two margaritas.

In other words, I ate something like 90% garbage. And I still lost weight. At a fairly good clip. How? How how how? I suppose it had to do with my age, I was in my mid-late twenties. I suppose at that time my metabolism wasn’t as screwed up as it was the last time I tried Weight Watchers nearly two years ago.

Last night I came across my Weight Watchers point tracker. I decided to figure out how many points I typically eat. I should preface though that back when I started in March of 2006 I weighed 213.6lbs. I was allowed to eat 26 points a day plus an extra 35 a week. I have my food logs. Typically that 26 points worked out to be 1300 calories. Over the 8 weeks I have logged I consumed a total of 65 extra points for 3250 calories. So on average, doing Weight Watchers I was consuming about 1360 calories a day.

....read the rest on my private blog

Time flies when you're old!

I can't believe September was the last time I was here!!! Wow!

Anyway, I'm doing very well.  In late September, I guess the last time I was here, I was getting crazy thoughts about starving myself. More. I had kept seeing an ad for this diet e-book called Burn the Fat, Feed the Muscle. Finally I succumbed and forked over my money out of sheer desperation and not wanting to have to start doing crazy things here.

I've been doing that program since September 16th. It's the only thing that has worked consistently for me over the past almost 2 freakin years now!

Since Sept 16th, I've lost 15.5 lbs, which doesn't sound like much, but for me it definately is. Here's the best part though, when I started I was 30ish% body fat. Now I'm 20%!!!!!!!  I am not longer in the overweight category. In fact, I'm BELOW, did you read that BELOW lol,  what's considered (by who I dunno probably some dumb doctor who has zero clue about how to lose weight) average, or healthy.

My scale number has only gone down 15.5lbs BUT because I'm actually eating food and working out with weights (l was b4 but not eating so the weights did nothing for me) I've maintained most of my muscle. Ordinary calorie restriction diets burn a LOT of muscle. A LOT! Even if you do resistance training. I'm old. I need my muscles. More muscle means I burn more calories. And given how long and slow a road this has been I need ever bit of burning potential I can possibly get!

When I started I was carrying 49 lbs of fat and 114 lbs of muscle, or LBM as it's called. Now I've only got 27.5 lbs of fat - and some of that I need to keep lol . I've gained 6.5 or so pounds of muscle. (And no I'm not bulky with muscles, I just curvy in the right places) In fact, one trainer at my gym commented on my nice shape. It wasn't like a pickup/come-on thing. He was impressed with the work I've been doing.

So, I've only lost 15lbs on the scale but I gained of muscle which is freaking awesome!!!! AND I get to eat so much is the real kicker to all of this. In fact, in the beginiing I couldn't even eat all the food. I consume 1750-2000 calories a day. And it works!!!!!!!!!!!! I lose weight eating lots and lots of (healthy) food. 

Here I was getting ready to sign up for anorexia school, I was always under 1500 calories. My average for the 15 months prior was 1350. I was starving myself to fat and getting ready to starve myself some more. Ridiculous.

I have learned so much over the past few months about the right way to lose weight, and workout. The amount of misinformation out there is mind boggling. Truly I swear I think the diet, medical and pharmacutical industries put out misinformation in order to keep our bottom lines big and their's in the red.

I recommend the Burn the Fat, Feed the muscle program to every and anyone. You can find it here:

http://ftgdotcom.burnthefat.hop.clickbank.net

Because of that program and what it's done for me, I'm now studying for the NASM-CPT. It's a personal training certification. I love being fit , well, pretty fit lol I still have work to do, and healthy. I feel awesome. Happy. I have energy, I'm excited about life. I deal with stress MUCH better now.

I want to help people learn how to treat their bodies right. I want to help people unlearn all the crap so many of us have been taught. Crap that's killing us, physically, emotionally and mentally.

I'm also toying with the idea of entering a figure competition. It's like a body building competition but not with big muscles, just pretty ones. I was looking at a picture of a recent national winner, and, well, I'm no where near where she is but for the first time my first thought when I looked at her was, pfft, I could look like that. I'm starting to see that it's actually a realistic goal. I'm 42 years old. I've never, not even when I was 19 and thin, I've never thought my body could actually look like that. Now I know it can! And it will! And I am psyched. It's gonna be a wonderful year!

Now if I could just find someone to pay for some surgery for these stupid stretch marks courtesy of my children!! Maybe next year?

All I can do is laugh

It's been a hell of a month.

On 8/27 I was 152.5.

On 9/2 I was 164.

I gained 11.5 pounds in 5 days. And then some. I got as high as 168 though I think some of that was water from the 800000 beers and shots I did last weekend.

No my scale is not wrong. I had a Dr's appointment on the 27th and my scale said the same as his scale.  When my weight went up and wouldn't come back down I bought a new scale. I was convinced it was broken. How do you gain that much weight in 5 days.??  You don't!!  Physically impossible unless oh I dunno you ate ALL the Ben and Jerry's in the state or something -  right?  uhm wrong. It's all lies. Don't believe them when they tell you eat less exercise more, expend more than you input and you'll lose. BS. BS designed to make you spend money on all sorts of crap to magically turn a lie into truth.

So, my new scale says exactly the same thing. Way too much.

What happened?

Well, I met a boy. He smokes. I decided it would be a good idea to smoke too.    I smoked for nearly 3 weeks and then got tired of poisoning my body. The first 2-3 a day are nice. After that you're just feeding the beast. They don't taste good.  They don't feel good. They just made me tired, smelly, and just lousy feeling. I could feel it in my workouts. I still feel it and I haven't smoked in over a week.

When I quit 2 years ago I gained 40lbs in two months - or less.
This time I gained 11.5 in 5 days. Sounds about right!

Obviously smoking does something to my metabolism. It did seem to kick start things a bit. Though I wasn't eating as much either because I wasn't home a lot. Perhaps I put myself in starvation mode? That's entirely possible.  That and the extra physical activity with the boy didn't hurt I'm sure.

But it's the quitting thing that REALLY seems to mess with my metabolism or something.  I didn't eat 11 pounds of food in 5 days. I couldn't physically eat that much even if I wanted to. I have issues getting to 1489 calories some days!!!!!!!!!!  What really gets me is that I was only about 158 when I started smoking again. Why all the extra weight on top of where I was???? I DON"T EAT LIKE THAT ANYMORE!! I just don't. I can't!!!!!!!!!!

Something with quitting the nicotine. I wish I knew what the nicotine was doing. Not that it matters. Once again I vow to never smoke again. I've said it before - if I smoke I will die of obesity.  And I will. Obviously. Well, unless I keep smoking. But I don't LIKE smoking. I don't wanna smoke!

/ramble off

I think I can!

For the first time this weight loss thing actually feels doable. I'm over halfway there. Wow.

Though I haven't tracked what I eat in 2 weeks - which is bad because if I don't track I go over. Yet I'm still losing. Well, I am provided today's number isn't just some fluke. Bah, maybe I spoke to soon and just jinxed myself? Well, nothing to jinx. I haven't been tracking and so very likely have been going over to like maybe 1500 a day lol. How sick is it that 1500 is going over? I'm just excited that I haven't gained. Exercise has been sparse too the past two weeks. Only once a day and not everyday either. Gotta get back on track here before the numbers start going the other way as they always do.

It was that damn snow storm we had 2 weeks ago that messed me up. I spent 6 hours shoveling. Then I was too tired to care about food. I just ate because I was hungry. I felt like I had a right to need a bit extra. Then I couldn't work out for 2 days because I was so sore. The whole back of my body was sore. My elbow is still not right - whenever I lift something it hurts. :(  Then after that came PMS. I have to let my body do what it wants to do with PMS pretty much. And what it wants to do is sleep and eat. I even had chocolate. I had been craving it for 3 damn days and finally said FINE damnit. I bought one of those cadbury cream eggs. Probably my favorite food aside from hostess cupcakes.

I smoked this weekend too. And drank. And lost weight. I dunno what is going on. I'm not a smoker anymore. I know that. This was the first time I'd been in a bar since I quit smoking 1.5 years ago. I just kept getting the urge. So I did it. It tasted like crap so I put it out. Later I figured I'd try again. Still tasted like crap. And smelled. I tried that about 7 or so more times before I started losing my voice. Smoking sucks.

knock on wood

After losing the same stupid 5 pounds from August till xmas I'm finally losing again. The day after xmas I was up like 7 lbs but I think some of that was something else - cause I'd gained 7lbs in two weeks and well, yeah I ate the cookies, like all the cookies...but still!

So, 2 workouts a day and 1200 cal max seems to be doing the trick. I just don't know what's going to happen once it's all gone. I'm afraid to eat. I have zero metabolism. Another 10-15 pounds and I plan to replace one of the aerobic sessions for yoga/weights or something of that nature. Something to give me some muscle so that maybe I can get by BMR up over oh what's it at about now? 2????

16 pounds in 6 weeks! I'm happy. Kinda expecting another long stretch of no losing though. That just seems to be my pattern. Lose. Stop for what seems like forever. Hey 5 months IS forever!! That's how long the last stand still lasted.

whatever

Another month. Another pound. 'Nuff said? I only come here to bitch I guess.

Though I did lose 2 inches from my hips. 1lb = 2inches? I don't get it.  I'm on week 32. I've lost 35.1 so that's just a smidge over a pound a week. At this rate I'll be under 1lb a week very soon.

I was just at some calculator website that said I should be eating 1700ish calories a day to lose 2lbs a week. I eat 1100-1400 and I lose barely a pound a week. Actually less than that since August. Much less. More like .25 a week or something.

I go back to the Dr. Nov. 1. Of course Dr's look at the number, say "eat less and exercise more."  No shit. 

I've done this before. I lost 72 damn pounds. I know what it takes!!!!!!!!!!  I'm doing it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's NOT WORKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Well, not really. But what's gonna happen when I get closer to healthy weight. I'm going to have to stop eating entirely to lose! This isn't right but no one will listen to me because I'm fat which apparently means I'm stupid, lazy, and a liar. wtfever

Frustrated as usual

So, I've lost a total of 1 pound over the past month. Go me? LOL!

A month of maybe 2 days over 1400 calories the rest 1100-1400 and 5 days a week of 60 minutes of exercise and I lose 1 whole pound. Yippie! Hip Hip hurray? Not exactly.

Since I started on March 2, I've had 3 plateaus. No I'm not gonna go look up the spelling for plateau.  The first one was 3-4 weeks, the second was 8 weeks and the most recent was another 4 weeks.  I guess I shouldn't complain. At least this time I lost a friggen pound.

So, over the past 28 weeks I've lost 33.6 pounds. That's OMG still average 1.2 pounds a week? Jeez. I thought it would be less than that and I could go to my Dr and complain and tell her I want to see an endocrinologist. Nope, not spell checking that word either.

Why does this seem like it's taking forever?  Why was I once able to lose 72 pounds in 9 months and now I can't lose more than a pound some months?

Nope. I don't like this.

Well I guess if I minus all the weeks where my fat gene said, "Lose weight? Me? Uhm NO. No way in hell. Never" I'm actually averaging 2.8 pounds a week. LOL I really stretching things huh?

I guess I should be happy that I'm still losing - if you can call it that.

I'm still doing South Beach - mostly phase 1 though I do have fruit and bread maybe 4x a week. No sugar. I haven't had sugar since July I think. Still, only 1 pound in a month? What's wrong with me? I seriously think something is wrong with me!

The sucky thing is that I supspect the more I lose the slower I'm gonna lose. How much slower can this go? Will I ever be normal? I'm approaching the weight I was for several years - what I suspect to be my bodies so called set-point. I'm wondering if my body isn't going to protest when I get there. Maybe a several month long plateau? Screw that. Maybe it's there that I'll have to turn to the pills/not eating thing. Just to get past it.

We'll see how it goes.

The Scale

I used to think weighing only once a week was the way to go. For me now though, this time 'round it simply isn't.

I've been weighing myself everyday. Yesterday I was up 2 pounds from the day before. Today I'm down 3 from yesterday. Tomorrow I'll probably be the same or up. That's just how my body seems to do it. There is no steady loss for me. Some weeks, if I were to only weigh once I week, I stay the same or gain!! It's simply because of my daily weight fluctuations. 2 up, 3 down blah blah. It SUCKS getting on the scale once a week and not seeing a loss for a week never mind 2! Or even a gain! OMG!! Then I get depressed. I hate being depressed.

For me, I like the everday thing. I don't expect to lose everyday but I DO like to know that today I am 183 even though tomorow I could be 186. At least I know, from doing this for several weeks that the 3lb gain is NOT a fat gain. It can't be because I simply did NOT eat enough to gain 3lbs of fat! LOL nor could! if I were to only weigh once a week and just happen to be showing a gain I'd be questioning myself - did I do this right, did I do that right, maybe I fmessed this or that up. I get the voices - you didn't do this good enough or that good enough, you didn't work out enough, you are just bad bad bad. you're just a no good failure blah blah blah.

Simply put, when I weigh only once a week there's no way for me to know that I actually did lose weight but it's just not showing on the scale today.

I'm comfortable knowing that so long as I keep getting the down spikes along with the up spikes I'm doing good. You don't get to see this when you weigh only once a week.