I am two months away from being 42 years old and just had my first epiphany.I DONT WANT TO BE THE PRETTY GIRLS SIDEKICK ANYMORE!!!!  Right off the bat I want to say that I am happily married...or as happy as a person can be in a marriage when they are not happy with themselves. However it would be nice for once to be the girl that men approach when I am out with my girlfriends. I want to be the one who turns heads..is that so wrong??? that being said I would NEVER cheat on my husband as I have too much respect for him but it would be nice to be found attractive . My husband tells me he thinks I am beautiful and I have two trains of thought on that, either he tells me that because he thnks its the thing to do or maybe he jsut doesnt see the real me, he sees the 17 year old me that he met and fell in love with before the three kids. either way I can't live like this anymore! I am not stupid but am treated that way and I truly believe many people wee overweight people as stupid and lazy, but we all know that is not true...I have met plenty of stupid and or lazy thin people that i can work circles around!! I have decided that it is now or never, I am going to seize the day and whatever it takes I am going to lure the skinny bitch that lives inside of me out!!