03/13/2010 14:46
lonely buffet....
Menu: Salad, popcorn, tangerine, wine, chips , tootsieroll, mini M&M's, doughnut, guilt...
.I was doing great till I had the wine, and then the whine with my wine...the enemy whispers in my ear, "Go ahead, you deserve it, it will make you feel better..."
Liair! I don't feel better. Feelings follow thoughts...what was I thinking? Answer: I wasn't thinking, I turned off my head for a few monments pleasure, and now I'll add it to the list of today's angst...NO!
FOCUS,FOCUS on what is good and lovely and right, Lord deliver me....let the attitude of gratitude be my companion, protect my heart and mind...
I am blessed and loved. I am so thankful for health, home and family. I have everything I need to succeed. His grace is enough...
03/08/2010 02:18
Back in Action
Where did I go? The time to act is now, prioritize, trade what's good for what's better. Back surgery was a wake up call...
02/26/2009 15:00
sugar substitute...
So what am I substituting sugar in my life for, and why? Sugar, sweet on my lips. Sugar, waits to be invited. Sugar, the same in private, as it is in public.
02/25/2009 14:23
The day after...
First day after my 49th birthday...that means it's the 1st day into my 50th year, or is that 2nd day? No matter, not off to a great start. I did had 3 pieces of cake, small but the number is 3...I never get to have cake, or snacky type things because of the gluten allergy. It's very hard when it's available, so most of the time I do without. That's a trend...doing without.
02/23/2009 11:51
Where has time gone...
Where has the time gone? and why do we let ourselves down? A year later and I'm back where I started. Food is my comfort...and I so need comfort right now. Tomorrow begins the 50th year.. ouch! I should look at it with gratitude, but instead, PANIC! God has my back, but it's my mind I battle. I start looking back, and can't fix the mistakes. I look ahead, I want to move on, but my legs are made of lead. I'm running, but can't move. I've fallen, and people step over me like I'm not there. It's only a dream, but I wake up.... it's real. Cake would help right now..."Not For you!" Dam this celiac disease...look for me in heaven, I'll be at the pastery table
01/28/2008 20:11
Cholesterol blues
Wow, until you look at a food diary, bad habits stay undercover. So, my main staple seems to be dairy....which is OK if your cholesterol is in check. Last time I had labs drawn, mine was 250. I do come from a genetic background of extreme hypercholesterolemia, my Mom was 400 at one point!!, and alll the women in on her side tend to die of strokes...yikes!
I did do my good duty, and went for my annual PAP, tho it had been more like 3 years. Now I have to do the mamogram, sqwish, squash. The doctors told me I drink to much coffee. When they asked about calcium intake, I told them I take cream in my coffee!! Now I'm scheduled for a fasting cholesterol screen. Me and my big mouth, but as I look at the food diary, probally not a bad idea. Hey, my husband works for a cheese company and I'm an excellent supporter. It's part of my wifely obligation!
Fidledy dee, I'll think about it tomorrow...time for a snack! Hot cocoa and yogurt coming up...low fat of course!
01/25/2008 20:14
White out!!
Back to the "no sugar" way of life. I have to say it really pays off, down 3 more lbs. If only I could stay here. Have knocked out white rice, white potatoes, and of course, no wheat flour product (allergic to). So hard with all the goodies at work.
New motivation, my husband's 50th birthday present...a get away to the tropics!! Have been working towards it for a long time, 5 years. Now I have to be in a bathing suit by the 1st of April,scary. Would like to be down 20 more lbs. Aproximately 9 weeks away, at least 2 lbs a week...looks possible, now if I can pull it off.
01/22/2008 09:25
Back from the exile...
Wow, where did my priorities go? Made it thru the holidays with diet yoyo syndrome. Landed at 1 lb less, but does not feel like victory. Have been on sugar high and crash for more weeks than I care to admit. OK, so this is more difficult than the autism trip. Taking care of a loved one...easy. Taking care of me...not. Weeping, this will not defeat me. With God and you on my side I will survive. Today I will be strong, today I will be accountable for my choices.
12/19/2007 09:12
Soooo busy!
Taking time to take care of me is really hard right now. Love Christmas, but puts stress on an already tight life style. Somethings not right here. What's gotta give?
Have redone work schedule to fit in more gym time, that's a start. Would like to sell the big house and hopefully pull out enough profit to rebuild more ecomonically. Husband will never go for it.
It's cold in VT, hate that, makes me ache and comfort is motrin and food, bad cycle. Also makes it hard to get to the gym or even the treadmill downstairs.
Have all my Christmas shopping done since last saturday, no wrapping. My Mom is comming soon, another blessing and stress.
We are all healthy, I am grateful. Many of the people around us have been sick, alot of deaths too. My heart and prayers go out to them. My small problems are eye openers to all Gods grace in my life.
12/12/2007 17:19
back on the wagon....
Home fron Syracuse, long ride. Hard to stay on track with holiday parties. Did exercise at the hotels, had white wine spritzers for drinks. Induldged in peppermint stick ice cream. Now back to sugarless living, not easy. Weigh in shows down 3 lbs. I'll take it
