Well, it all started so well................back in Feb I was going to lose 5 stone by 23rd August and be lovely and slim for my friends wedding.
Did it happen? Did it fack! Instead I was the moosey fat bird surrounded by super slim lovelies in gorgeous dresses.
How I wish I had stuck with the programme.
It is not all bad though...........since January I have lost some weight and, most importantly, kept it off so I am going in the right direction - if VERRRRY slowly.
I have also embraced regular exercise - I train 3 times a week with a personal trainer and I have just started marathon training for a race at the end of November.
I also now have new goals - I want to lose weight before Christmas, a trip to Cape Verde in January and a wedding in May, which will be the next time I see the skinny girls. I want everyone to think my husband has a new wife!
Most importantly I vowed I would not try for another baby until I got this weight off and I want to stick to that vow - as I am getting really brewdy I think I need to be tough on myself!
So back to the diet, keep up with the exercise and seriously limit the booze which seems to be where the wheels keep falling off!
Okay so I was as good as gold yesterday....................Sultana bran for brekkie, lean beef and veg for tea (no lunch but that wasn't intentional).
I went to the pub to my weekly knitting club and only had diet coke (wine and knitting don't mix well anyway).
Then when I got home I had two low fat choc mouses and some fruities and that was it.
I also did 3 miles on the treadmill and contemplated doing a salsa workout but my achey two left feet wouldn't allow it!
I weighed in this morning at 89 kilos which is 195.8 lbs or 13st 13.8lbs....not where I wanted to be but it could have been much worse considering the food and booze I put away over the long weekend.
I have a appt with my personal trainer at 2.30pm and have already power walked 1.75 miles to and from the village to do my errands. Hopefully I can fit in a swim and a little run at the gym either side of the training session and will all of that perhaps I can shave off a bit more weight before weigh in tomorrow!
Oh and I am currently cooking up a vat of no point soup (as my husband calls it as he thinks it is minging) so I am only going to eat that today plus a bit of melon (as well as the Special K I had for brekkie!).
Okay so I have gone over my points allowance by about ten million points as I have drunk wine on every night from Thursday til last night and I had a Thai takeaway on Saturday and a full Sunday roast complete with Yorkshire puddings yesterday.
Daren't even weigh myself! Feel like a complete weak failure. I'm so disappointed with myself!
The only redeeming thing is the amount of exercise I have done - 9 more miles on the treadmill, a personal training session that was hardcore and a swim.
Perhaps if I exercise like hell today and tomorrow and don't eat I register a loss at WW on Wednesday! Who knows!
By the way I am changing my weigh in day online to Wednesday as well............it makes sense to do it that way rather than having two weigh in days.
Right, going to work through my to do list and then hit the treadmill, bike and anyother form of exercise I can do without leaving the house and encountering the storm!
I've a busy day ahead of me today - in an hour I leave for the gym where I am going to do 3 miles on the treadmill (to make up for the 3 miles I didn't get chance to do yesterday), then have a session with my personal trainer and then I am going to treat myself to a nice relaxing swim, dip in the hydropool and a visit to the sauna........Bliss!
I was really good yesterday - loads of fruit and veg, resisted the temptation to drink some wine and I stayed within my points.
I have a friend coming over this evening so I need to think ahead about what I am going to cook and how to avoid drinking too much............although it shouldn't be too difficult as my friend will be driving so she will only have one small glass of wine at the beginning of the evening.
I realise that this dieting malarky is all about planning ahead and setting yourself endless mini goals and tasks: 'I will try not to drink wine this evening', 'I will try to do X extra lengths in the pool', 'I will leave the bread and the butter that comes with my soup in the cafe' etc.
I hope it all adds up!
I was talking to one of the girls who works at my daughter's nursery yesterday and she has lost 1.5 stones in 4 weeks by cutting out crap, watching her potion sizes and filling up on fruit and veg. It is really impressive and inspirational to see her. What she has done is bought a bikini she wants to wear this summer on the beach and she goes and looks at it everytime she feels weak.
At work she is surrounded by skinny girls who can eat a horse without gaining an ounce so she has got together with another girl who is dieting and when the others slip off to McDonalds they talk each other out of it!
At the moment I am doing a lot of self-talking - reasoning with myself every time I want to be naughty and sometimes I even manage to talk myself outof it! I have also bought myself a cheap pair of size 10 jeans from primark just so I can see what size 10 looks like again and as I get closer to my goal, I can try then on and see if I can get them past my knees!
I really can't wait to be slim again and feel that rush you get from retail therapy! At the moment I don't go into the nice clothes shops as I know they won't have anything in my size and I think most plus-sized fashion is a big insult to larger ladies - it is so frumpy and quite often made up in nasty fabric. So at the moment I live in jeans, jogging bottoms and hoodies and look like a slob................but not for much longer!
Monday is my blog and WW online weigh in day and Wednesdays are my WW meeting weigh in!
As you can see from the title of this post................I have lost 3.5lbs since my last meeting's weigh in, hoooooorahhhhhh!
I started at 14st6lbs and today I was 14st2.5lbs (I obviously weigh a little more at WW meetings as far as I can tell you are not allowed to weigh yourself naked!)
It is a good start and better than I had hoped for..............I thought I might weigh in the same but no, there was a definite loss! I also won the raffle when I was there so it was a good meeting all round!
I nearly didn't go though. Last night it took me two hours to persuade my daughter to go to sleep and I was so tense and pissed off afterwards I had some red wine to help me chill out.
I didn't have anything else with the wine so that is something at least!
Today is a new week and a new start and for next week I want to weigh 88kilos, 193.6 pounds or 13st 11lbs.............it is going to be tough but I have to have a goal to aim for.
I went on the treadmill yesterday and walked/ran 3 miles (the official start of my marathon training) and I am going to attempt the same today..........I might even fit in a swim later on this afternoon before collecting my daughter but it depends on time.
Phew! Never thought I would be able to use the internet again after everything crashed here. I've been offline for five days!
And I tell you, it is difficult keeping on track without online support such as extrapounds.com and Weight Watchers online!
I still can't get into the Weight Watchers website - every time I try to log in it just takes me back to the homepage, I even tried changing my password but to no avail. I have emailed their techies so hopefully I will be able to track again.
Well I have good news and bad news - I am 89.5 kilos this morning so I have lost a total of 1.3 kilos since starting this.............but I am miffed because I weigh pretty much what I weighed on Wednesday of last week......................Wednesday is my weigh in day at the local WW group and I will be gutted if I don't record a loss in my second week!
Still 89.5 kilos is good if you consider that I have been out for two meals (starters and mains!) in the last week and drank a little too much wine.............I'm lucky not to have gained.
Still, the deadline is looming and I need to get this weight off. I have increased my exercise efforts and booked in with my personal trainer for two days a week instead of one and I start my marathon training TODAY!
Yes, you heard me right! I am going to do the Helsinki Marathon on 16th August so I have something definite to train for! I'm glad we set up a wide screen telly on the wall of the gym at home as I am going to get on my treadmill and pound in front of something trashy like Maury or Judge Judy!
My husband has been a bit negative about the marathon and doesn't think I will be able to train for it with my condition but I am determined to prove him wrong!
Right, going to keep this comparatively short as it is tidying up time in this shithole of a house!
Day Three - A slip up and a step in the right direction
Okay - I will admit it. I was doing really really well until about 9.30pm last night but then I caved in and had not one but four glasses of wine, 4 Thorntons choccies (the bastards!) and 3 slices of Arista Pork Loin.
I'm a bad girl!
But in being bad I have learnt a couple of lessons - I need to make sure I am eating more during the day - when I slipped up I still had 6 points left for the day. Yes, 6 points! And on Monday I had 6.5 left over.
I am convinced now that if I had used up more points in the day I would have felt more satisfied and not felt the need to rebel.
I also blame Wife Swap and Gordon Ramsay's Kitchen Nightmares for my fall from grace as in both shows (which I recorded and watched last night) all they seemed to do was talk about booze!
Ah well! I don't think I have done too much damage - I weighed myself this morning (naughty - very bad habit) and I am down to 89.6 kilos - I'm in the 80s - yippee. It has been a while since I weighed 80 something kilos! You shouldn't weigh yourself all the time but in this instance it was a good thing as I did it first thing this morning before I eat anything and seeing that I was definitely losing weight made me determined to pick myself and carry on, putting my slip up behind me!
And today I joined a Weight Watchers group so I have the added pressure of weekly public weigh-ins to keep me on the straight and narrow!
I weighed in a 14st and 6lbs (91.8kilos) which is about right as I was wearing heavy jeans and a thick hoodie and I had had breakfast and loads of water and tea.
Next week, I won't let a drop or crumb pass my lips until weigh-in and will wear super light clothing - instant loss!!!!!!!!!!!!! Just kidding, but it is tempting some weeks!
The room where the group is held was packed out! I reckon their must have been about 60 people there! And I thought it would be a really small group as it takes place at 10am. Wrong!
I got talking to a really nice lady there and all the others seemed quite friendly so I think I can see myself sticking to this.
The leader was very enthusiastic and helpful and I can see she really inspires members but she did say one thing to me that I'm not sure I agree with - she told me not to count exercise points. In the past I used to not count all but found if I didn't use some of them up I would have weeks where I felt mega hungry and would end up falling off the wagon so to speak. I also like the idea of doing a work-out with the view to earning points for a night out. It is a little extra incentive to get off your arse. So we shall see................I walked to and from the meeting so that is a bonus and I am hoping to do a bit of cycling later.
Right off to do my chores and sort out this tip of a house.................by the way, am I the only person in the UK to sleep through last night's earthquake? It must have been the wine!!
Day Two - OMG I managed a booze free day yesterday!
And booze is definitely one of my weaknesses!
I'm no alky but I do like a glass of wine in front of the telly after putting my daughter to bed.
I weighed myself this morning - 90.1kilos! But, yes, I know, you shouldn't weight yourself everyday, but after being so virtuous yesterday I couldn't resist it!
I did have a few moments of weakness around teatime though......I was preparing tea for me and my husband and came across a load of Thorntons truffles (gorgeous stuff) and we currently have loads of really nice red wine in the rack. I thought: "Bugger it, just start the diet tomorrow and spend this evening finishing off the truffles with a few glasses of wine." That voice in my head went on and on and on!
In the end, I came upstairs to my computer and went on the Weight Watchers website and pointed the food I was preparing for tea - grilled skinless chicken breast, broccoli, cauliflower, peas and gravy and then saved it all for the day so I couldn't add anything else later. I also spent a few moments on the message boards for encouragement!
The only things I had last night after my tea was some Dr Pepper Zero and water. How good am I?
I do wonder though - how successful I am going to be in the future when it comes to resisting temptation? Should I try to factor in treats or should I be strict and get used to going without them? Normally I would say that a little of what you fancy does you no harm BUT with me it is never a little rather a lot! And I do have a very big target ahead of me and not much time to reach it.......................I have successfully given up alcohol and chocolate in the past - for Lent or during pregnancy and I didn't die as a result of it!! Maybe I should try and find alternatives? What do you think? Any suggestions would be most welcome!
I also haven't do any exercise yet. Not because I am a shirker - I actually rejoined the gym a couple of weeks ago and had really been getting into going there after dropping my daughter at nursery. The reason I have not been exercising over the last week or so is that my husband and I have had the worst throat/chest infection ever. I called my personal trainer up last week (yep, signed up for one of them as well!) and asked his advice. He told me under no circumstances to exercise when I am in this state. I thought I would be better by now but I still feel as if someone has been grating my tonsils and I ache all over.
Still I think it is better to wait and when I do start exercising I can go for it 100%. But then again I am also thinking perhaps I can go for a little swim this afternoon before picking my daughter up!
I really can't wait to start my cycle challenge - I am going to cycle the equivalent distance between my house and the location of the wedding I am going to on the 23rd August. And then cycle back again. I have plotted it on a google map and I am going to put little pins on the map to show my progress!!! Sad I know but I need something to keep me motivated!
I was going to sign up for the Reykjavik Marathon but it happens to be on exactly the same day as the wedding so I'm looking for a different marathon to aim for - this is not so nuts - I used to be a marathon runner before I had my daughter.
Realising that I need to be motivated to do this I am thinking of joining a Weight Watchers group and not just pointing online. I think there is a lot of good that can come from weekly weigh-ins. There is a group near my house that meets on Wed mornings so I may go along and sign up!
Well, this has been a long ramble - but I suppose that is why I have created this blog - I need to get it all out!!!! Laters!!
Well, I thought I'd better take some before pictures to illustrate just why I need to diet - if any of you are about to have your dinner, you can thank me as these images will put you off your food completely!
I will be posting regular 'progress' pics which should make for slightly better viewing!
Oh by the way, if you are wondering what the weird circular marks are on my back were- I had cupping done last week at my local Chinese medicine clinic - it doesn't hurt but it looks evil!
