| Height: | 165.1cm |
| Start weight: | 227.00lb |
| Current weight: | 217.80lb |
| Goal weight: | 125.00lb |
| Lost to date: | 9.20lb |
| Remaining: | 92.80lb |
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So today wasn't the greatest. I managed to back into a pole in a parking garage 
. It was awful! For the rest of the day I tried very hard not to over over eat, but I still managed to do so. I'm trying to stay positive and remember how much I've lost thus far. I will and can go back to my calorie counting tomorrow. I'm not going to weigh myself tomorrow and hope for the best by Wednesday.
I did it! I lost 7lbs! I'm really proud of myself! It was all worth it -- all the calorie restriction, tons of salads, zero sugar-- all worth it! I feel some much better and lighter 
.
Now that most of my major stress is gone my energy levels have been through the roof! I love it! I'm working out around two hours a day! Now that I'm no longer in an apartment (concerned about jumping over someone's head) I'm able to do all my workout videos WHENEVER I WANT! I understand that that doesn't seem like a huge deal to most, but to me it's like the most amazing thing! I should mention I'm kind of addicted workout DVDs (If you're wondering...my favorite collections are through Beachbody); and now I can do them whenever I want without looking outside to see if the neighbor below me car is there.
The best part about all of this is the more I workout the more my energy levels go up and the better I feel. I have a bodymedia/bugg thing and it is incredible how much higher my metabolism is when I workout consistently! I'm feeling a new level of motivation and I wanted to share this with everyone!
Sorry about the rambling! I'm just so excited to gain my MOTIVATION back! Watch out fat, I'm gonna sizzle you!
These past two weeks have been incredibly stressful; I just purchased a town home. I was a mess and only ate out for over a week. The craziest part about it is that I do believe I've lost weight! My bf and I were so busy and constantly on our feet that I was forgetting to eat meals or really recognizing my hunger ques. There were times when I was very hungry and I could feel that nawing feeling in my stomach, but I was so determined to finish things that I wouldn't eat for another hours. To me this was a big deal because I think I'm afraid of being hungry. There was something very comforting knowing that I'm not going to die if I miss a single meal! Hunger isn't the end of the world.
Any who my main point here is that I realized I eat a lot when I'm bored. I'm going to take action to focus on my emotional eating.
Today I focused on what my body was telling me. I tried to mentally amp myself up for a workout -- saying a ll sorts of positive self talk -- but nothing was working. My body felt heavy, my stomach queasy, and my sinuses filled to the brim...long story short I listened to what my body was saying. Today I took a rest day. Two points for me for listening to my body!
My only downfall 
when i feel like crap I tend to eat crap. Oh well. I'll just make up the difference the rest of the week and weekend...no biggie!
Right after you complete a REALLY tough workout your body produces endorphins that create a high affect! I'm writing to influence everyone to get "high" with me! I'm here to support you and your new addiction!
Anytime you're feeling sluggish just remember how good you feel when you're done. If you focus on the rewards you reap you'll learn to get addicted to exercise just like I have!
Also I must say eating nutritionally and sleep makes a huge difference! It can make the difference of waking up revived and full of energy (fueled) or sluggish and like a big blob (deflated). Can you tell I feel phenomenal? Ha have a good day everyone! Remember to get ADDICTED!
I cheated on my diet this weekend. I feel like crap: emotionally, physically, spiritually. I don't know what it is, but once I get out of my "natural habitat" its like I have a free pass to eat whatever I want. The truth however -- the one I really am trying to get into my head -- is this is my body. This is the only body I have or will ever have. No matter where I go my body will be with me. I'm just feeling so bogged down. Why do this to our bodies? There are no "big boned" skeletons. No matter how heavy we get our hearts, lungs, gi tract, etc don't really ever change (within reason). I'm going to set a new goal. I'll start off with only one day, but I want to practice treating my body like a temple.
First I want to say thank you to those who commented on my previous blog...It really had me thinking. I read the first comment this morning and to be quite frank I was floored. There was something about hearing that I'm substituting food for a void that was upsetting. I'm pretty sure I know what my void is; I lack support and friendships. Its sad. I push people away because I don't want them to see my imperfections/weaknesses. I do realize how crazy that sounds because there truly is no such thing as perfection, but I think I continue to have an unhealthy relationship with it. The worst part is the psychological havoc I place on myself. I'm so exhausted! Every week it's I CAN DO THIS...until I realize I'm not doing it perfectly. I know perfection dieting is really common...and I know there are tons of people who can relate to what I'm saying on this website. Do any of you have any suggestions? How did you overcome it?
What is it about food? I tend to be a slight control-freak in every other category, but when it comes to eating I can't seem to be able to pull in the reigns. It's embarrassing! My whole life my family remarked about my intake; now my boyfriend is commenting :-(. The most pathetic part about it is I'm concerned there won't be any food left for me... Despite my ability to walk to three grocery stores, three plus restaurants, and a 711 I'm worried I won't get my fair share. What is it about food? People can survive over a week without eating anything; so why do I stress out about the last piece of, well, anything?
Am I alone in this? I like to think I'm not...little more comforting
