Wow. I am so relieved. I was so worried about telling my personal trainer that I wanted to take a break until after the Holidays. As I have said before, the stress of the scale going up the day after my workouts with him were getting to me. I need to be as drama free as possible during this journey. Also, when I looked at my calendar for December, I have so many events to go to on the dates that I have training anyway. I still plan to go to the gym 3 to 4 times a week. I also plan to continue to do strength training, just not as much or as hard as when I am with my trainer. I also plan to resume my training early next year as I have several sessions left that have already been paid for, and I know and want the benefits of strength training. I just want to wait until I am closer to my goal weight to resume my training. I think that I will be better able to handle the ups and downs of the scale due to my weight training at that point.
I have always been taught to follow my mind, and my mind was telling me that if I continued like I was, I was going to be discouraged and not as likely to follow through on my excercise and diet program. Glad that's over.
Anyway, I went to the gym tonight. I promised myself and my trainer that if I start slacking off, it's back to my trainer pronto. I have been going to the gym at least three times a week since August 22, 2006 and there is no way that I am going back to my old behaviors.
On a sad note. I found out tonight that an aquaintance and sorority sister whom I have not seen that much lately dropped dead at work today. She was only 48 years old. If anyone out there is reading this and is afraid to go to the doctor...please go. In my friend's case, she had fibroids for years. She was afraid to go to the doctor. About three weeks ago she got so sick that EMS took her out of her home and to the hospital. They gave her antibiotics and told her that she would have to have a full hysterectomy. She was supposed to make an appointment to see a doctor immediately. She did not. Instead, she stayed home from work the past three weeks as she has been very ill due to her condition. Friends kept asking her as late as this past Friday when she was going to make an appointment to see the doctor. She told them that she was going back to work today and would do it then.
She never got the chance. She went to work and dropped dead. They believe that the fibroids became toxic.
I am sad for her. She had a serious weight problem most of her life. Just this year she dropped more than 50 pounds through Weight Watchers and looked great when I saw her in June. She had some more to lose, but was very pleased with her success thus far. She put off doing so much. No husband. No boyfriend. No kids. She only started trying to take care of herself recenlty. Even always put a no good brother's needs before her own.
This has been a serious wake-up call for me. As they say, tomorrow is promised to no one.
Weighed in today and was down another 1.4lbs. That brings my total to 20.2lbs. I am thankfull to have reached the 20lb mark. I was hoping for a bit more since I really tried to kick up the excercise this week, but it was not meant to be. The up side is that I had a loss during Thanksgiving week!! You can't beat that.
I am hoping to get to the gym tomorrow. We shall see. I am babysitting my baby cousins this weekend and I am worn out already!!! LOL Goodness knows what tomorrow will bring.
Well, I made it through Thanksgiving. I even kept my promise to myself and went to the gym yesterday on Thanksgiving!!! I was so proud of myself. That would have NEVER happened before. I ate my normal Jenny Craig breakfast and lunch since we were having a late dinner at 6:00pm and I did not want to go to dinner starving. I ate one serving of regular Thanksgiving food including a small slice of sweet potato pie and peach cobbler It was good though and I enjoyed it. I did not take home any left-overs. Now it's back on track today.
This week started off great for me with all of the excercise that I had been doing. Then, I got on the scale the day after my training session and surprise, surprise, the scale went up. I just can't take it much longer. I really can't. I am seriously considering suspending my training sessions until after the New Year. My trainer is going to have a cow. This whole issue just takes up way too much of my energy and I can't talk myself out of it. I think it's best that I go with my first mind and just stop the sessions after next week.
I was not going to re-up again anyway in the new year due to the expense, but I will still have 6 sessions left plus 2 that my trainer is giving me for free if I stop after next week. My plan has always been to go back to my trainer when I got close to my goal weight anyway. I also plan to still do some strength training in addition to cardio as I want to maintain what I have done.
That's where I am at today. I am just sick of the whole issue and I do not want it to frustrate me to the point where I stop my program all-together and quit out of frustration. I feel that this is where I am headed at this rate.
For all of my excercise this week, I do not think that I will be rewarded at the scale this week and next weigh-in will be TOM, so I am beyond frustrated at this point. Hopefully I am wrong, but we shall see.
It's been a good week so far. I've been to the gym three days in a row!!! I plan to go possibly tomorrow too and for sure on Thanksgiving Day. Tonight I had another personal training session. I told my trainer about my meltdown on Friday when the scale went up 1lb the day after our last work-out. I also told him about my nice loss this week. He tells me over and over again that which I already know...PUT THE SCALE AWAY!!! LOL You guys say the same thing. Hmmnn...time to start listening.
As he says, I create unnecessary drama for myself each week leading to my JC weigh-in. He is soooo right. Like I said, after this week, the scale goes away once again. Let's see how long I last this time.
Anyway, this has been a good week diet and excercise wise, so I am hoping for a nice loss this week too in SPITE of Turkey Day!!
Woo-Hoo...another 2.6lbs gone!!! That brings my 10 week total to 18.8 lbs. I was hoping to have lost a little bit more by now, but I will take it!!! I just think about how bad I felt physically when I first started this journey. I would not want to go back there for the world.
Thanks to all for the comments re: the scale. Although I had a nice loss this week, the scale drove me absolutely nuts. I think that I am moving closer and closer to getting rid of it once again. It's such an emotional roller-coaster for me. I may wait until the next weigh-in as I do want to track my weight this week since it is Turkey day.
My plan is to eat normal foods, but in moderation. Also, no left-overs. None. I also plan to excercise...gasp...on Thanksgiving Day!!! I can't believe I said that. I figure that if I am going to eat a regular dinner, I should go the extra mile and work out that day. Well, that's the plan anyway
Well, my trainer tried to KILL Me yesterday!!! LOL I felt so good afterwards. I even did 35 minutes on the elliptical after my session. When I told my trainer that the scale didn't move last week I think he decided to up the cardio portion of our workout. I jogged and ran up so many stairs that I think I saw stars!!! He knows that in the back of my mind I blame the weight training for when my losses are not so good.
It's so weird. A few weeks ago, I lost 1.5 lbs the day after both of my training sessions. Last week I gained weight the next day after each day I excercised. This morning, the scale went down .5lbs. I am so confused. The only thing that I did differently the week before when the scale really moved after my training sessions was to up my food on those days.
Soooo...that's what I did yesterday. I am going to try that again tomorrow which is when I have another session with my trainer. As it is already, JC said that I should go down from 1,700 calories to 1,500 calories the week I lost 3.8lbs!!! That just did NOT make a lick of sense to me. I excercise 4 days a week and was losing steadily. I know that the body will hold weight if it is not fed enough food. I have stayed on 1700 calories although truly, I probably only eat about 1,500 a day. I almost never eat all of my fruit or milk exchanges. When I realized this two weeks ago, I started trying to eat most if not all of my exchanges and presto, I lost 3 lbs. Last week I was trying to lose the pound or so I gained after my vacation and cut back and did not up my food on the days I excercise. What happened...I stayed the same!! URGH!!
What can I say? I'm going to experiment. Also, I am feeling major aggravation because of my daily habit of weighing myself. My scales WERE in my car but I had to go and get one of them out of the trunk!!! URGH!!! That's another story. I think that after this week I had better seriously consider putting the scale back in the trunk of my car. It makes me too obsessesd and crazed.
Nothing that exciting to report. One small victory was that I had to go to a seminar after-work and did not eat not a single brownie or cookie that was there for refreshments. I just pulled out my low-fat string cheese and ate that. No way that would have happened pre-JC.
Tomorrow I have a personal training session. I know that I am in for a tough workout tomorrow. Still, I'm looking forward to it.
My journey began on September 12, 2006. That was the day I re-joined Jenny Craig. It was the best decision I have made for myself in a very long time. I had previously lost 43lbs with Jenny Craig eight years ago and got down to 180lbs. I was very happy, but unfortuantely, stopped excercising and watching my weight. As a result, I gained back the weight and then some.
Over the years, I have tried Weight Watchers many, many times, Atkins and have purchased just about every diet book that there is. After looking like a stuffed sausage in a bridesmaid dress this summer, I decided that I had enough. I knew that I had to do something. As a result, in late August I got serious about starting an excercise program and hired a personal trainer. At that time, my intention was to excercise for a few months and lose some weight and then cut back on my eating.
Well, that didn't work. My trainer didn't push me, but he told me that I had to cut back on my eating to lose weight. It was so frustrating working so hard and not seeing the scale move, not to mention the small fortune that I was spending. That's why i finally re-joined Jenny Craig.
So far, I ave lost 16.2 lbs in 9 weeks. For approximately 1 1/2 weeks I have been on vacation so I am pretty happy. I would love to get down to 180lbs..I'm 5'5, but set a goal of 170 lbs. So far the program has been great. The food is good and although I am not perfect, I have done pretty good.
What I do struggle with is the fact that I know that I would lose faster if I were not doing strength training. There have been a few weeks where I have busted my behind at the gym and with my trainer and it is not reflected in my weight loss. I know that it is best to do cardio and strenth training together, but I swear, it seems so unfair sometimes to not see the results of your hard work on the scale.
This week was one of those where the scale stayed the same. I was not happy. but know that I must continue my journey. I have a lot of goals. I turn the big 4-0 next month!!! I can hardly believe it. I want to get down to a weight that I am happy with once and for all by next spring or summer. I am so sick of weight being an issue. It's just tiresome.
My immediate goals are to lose at least 25lbs by the end of the year and find a new boyfriend!!!
It was good though and I enjoyed it. I did not take home any left-overs. Now it's back on track today.
I can hardly believe it. I want to get down to a weight that I am happy with once and for all by next spring or summer. I am so sick of weight being an issue. It's just tiresome.