10/27/2009 18:51
10/26/09 - Stats
Weighed in on 10/23/09 @243.5
Gym stats:
23 mins on the stairmaster - 377 calories burned, 58 floors climbed
27 mins on the stationary bike - 150 calories burned
220 crunches
Total calories burned that session = 577
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10/27/2009 18:43
New short term goal!!!!
So Christina and I were talking as we always do and decided we both weren't happy with our weight loss within the past few months.
So instead of gripe about it, cry over it or complain about we decided to create a small short term goal.
So my beef with my weight loss is like them all. I've plateaued and can't manage to get out of my size 16 or in the 240s lbs range. I weighed myself last week Friday and I was 243.5lbs. Boy did my 236 come and go. Don't quite remember it!!!!
So I decided by Christmas I wanted to be in my size 14 and to get there I have to loose what I think should be about 12lbs.
So here is me today, vowing to eat right, exercise well and think positive so I can get my 12lbs off!!!!
What's in it for me???? We both decided in order for us to get to that goal we have to get motivated yes but we also needed something to help us strive to reach it. For Christina that was a new expensive designer hand bag that Greg is will to buy her if she gets to her goal. He told her over $1k. Wow right!!! But...unfortunately for me, I don't have any one giving me those perks so I had to be innovative...a little at least :)
For some time now I've been talking to Christina telling her how much I want to take a helicopter ride of San Francisco. The cost is about $200.00 per person. I've been dying to do. So...Christina told me that if I get to my goal she'll pay for both of us to go!!! WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We also decided that we'd take a mini vacation to Las Vegas since I've never been there together. Now that is what I'm talking about as motivation. What a great way for a friend to motivate you huh!!!!!
So here it is!!!!! Weigh ins are every Friday at Christina's desk. This way I'm not catching a heart attack about how every scale is different. We'll continue to or should I say start back with our food journal on google. We'll go back to exercising 6 days a week with at least 30 minutes of something this way we'll stay active. Say good-bye to sweets and temptations. Control portions to the best of our ability. Giving up on treat days/meals until we are a little stronger. And remember to not be our own worst enemy :)
I'm excited already!!!!! No one can motivate me but me but it's always so good to have a special buddy to push you along. I wouldn't have chose another buddy besides Christina :)
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10/20/2009 18:15
Where have I been...
I know you're probably asking where the heck have I been??? Or have you? LOL. Well I've been asking myself that.
So much has gone on in like the past few weeks. Where do I start??? Hmmm...
So just to give you a glimpse of my social life I've been to a few parties, Jamie Foxx concert, Maxwell concert, movies and just hanging out with some friends.
With that being said, as you can imagine it's been hard to keep up w/journalling, eating healthy and exercise.
But...I'm not going to beat myself up about it.
A few days ago I cried my heart out about exercising so much and eating so horribly. Right after the tears dried I decided that was enough beating myself up I can take. LOL
So yes...I've been slipping on eating healthy. I haven't done super bad but it can always be better. And yes, I lost a little motivation in the exercise department but at least I managed to go.
Last week I managed to do 3 days a week of spin class. I had tremendous energy and I loved it. I think my lack of motivation for exercising has come from doing the same old things. Since I love spin so much I think this is going to be my new number one. Ohhh...did I mention I lost 5 pounds??? IDK...don't ask me how. I do know I am my own worst enemy.
I have a total of 6 interviews this week and cross your fingers and pray for me something has got to give. I mean I'm totally appreciative of my current job I just need a different department. Something that will stimulate my mind :)
Ohh...I met a couple of losers as well. Not that that's a plus but at least I'm closer to knowing what I DON'T want in a man!!!! LMAO!!!!
I went out the other day and I was as beautiful as I felt. Never felt so prettier!!! I friend told me, Sandra...you should dress up for you, you should feel pretty for you. You know...she was right!!!!!!!! I did it for me and went out and partied and boy did I have a good time!!!!! I'm paying for it as we speak because I've been struggling with this cold since Friday!!!
Sorry to be gone for so long!!!
BTW...I haven't seen my gym crush!!!! But hopefully I will soon :) A girl can always use eye candy huh :)
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10/09/2009 06:19
Not bad for starting over
I'm very proud of myself today!!!!
Although I managed to eat ok it still wasn't 100%. I'm ok with that though because at least it wasn't a total wreck. I also managed to get in a great amount of exercise done. My next rest day should be either Sunday or Monday.
Today I was a little anxious. I had an interview for a job I really really wanted. It went super well so cross your fingers for me to get a round 2.
I have a pretty packed weekend coming. Today started Fleet Week so tomorrow I will be leaving work early to see the Blue Angels Air Show. Can't wait for that. It's always so cool to see the blue and yet jets taking over the sky. Then Jenee (my really good friend) is going on a first date with some guy she met the other day. She asked me to go along with her. Since I'm single, have no plans and sure bets staying home, I'll take along with her and her date. Lord...I don't know what sounds worst, the thought of her asking me or the thought of me accepting. I haven't been the 3rd wheel in FOREVER. Oh well...beats staying home on my favorite day of the week. On Saturday, I'm taking my niece to Fairfield where their putting on a candy festival in the street. Sort of like a Candy Land fair. On Saturday evening Shamisi (another friend of mine) and I are going to see Jamie Foxx in Concord. Can't wait for that!!! On Sunday I'll do my normal routine. Church, Sunday school, come home to cook Sunday dinner and watch FOOTBALL...MY FAVORITE. Of course working out in between all of that is on my agenda. Tomorrow I'm going to take my Zumba class at the gym at work during lunch time. At least I'll manage to squeeze in my 60 mins of cardio. I'll skip the weights since I did a lot today. I'm feeling the burn as I type and because I have plans tomorrow.
I'm starting to feel the weather change which I can't stand. It feels like its about 50 degrees outside. That's a bit cold for California. Boy do I hate being cold.
I'm a little sleepy but its Thursday and so much comes on. Right now I have Trauma pause. I can't go to bed before I see Grey's Anatomy, Private Practice and Housewives of Atlanta. YIKES!!! That's a full line up.
I'm planning next week to have a great food week and guess what? It's my first weigh in since joining EP. I'm excited!!!
There's this guy at the gym that I have the hots for. I never speak to him and he never speaks to me but I notice the stares and the lookaways and I'm sure he notices mine. I wonder if I'll ever have the guts to talk. He's super handsome and such my type appearance wise. Maybe one day, we'll say hi. Stay tuned for more of that story. LOL
I haven't heard from Lamont since the day before my birthday. That's a good thing. I've been thinking about him less and less since he broke my heart. It's been almost 4 months since he broke my heart, packed his things, and moved to Indianapolis. I still love him very much but it's getting better. Lamont left me because in his eyes I wasn't loosing weight fast enough. I was over 300lbs when I met Lamont. While being with him over a year I managed to loose a lot of weight. When he finally left me I was around 250ish (give or take some lbs). I'll never forget some of the mean things he's said to me. The way I cried when he told me he didn't want to be with a fat girl anymore. And the day I begged him not to throw our relationship away. 4 months later, with ever pound I loose, I laugh at him!!!!! Because when I get to the new me, he won't recognize me and I'll stand there and tell him "you threw me away instead of stuck by me". I know every day he tells himself she'll never loose it. But he'll see :) I'll show him. I'll show him don't EVER underestimate me!!!!!
Ohh...I forgot...I managed to do another great thing today at work. I managed to buy my sexy halloween costume online. Shucks...I'm celebrating the new me. I haven't dressed up for halloween since I was a kid furthermore in anything sexy. Last time I dressed up for work and I was no other than...FAT OPRAH. LMAO!!!!! So...I ordered my costume online and GOD willing it fits. I ordered 2 different ones. One 1x and one 2x. Pray for me guys!!!!! I can't wait :)
Well...I should be going so I can catch up on this stuff on Tivo. It's 9:15pm and I should be getting to bed around 11ish.
Before I go, I'd like to say a quick pray:
Dear Lord, you were there for me when no one wasn't. You know me better than I know myself. Thank you for allowing me to see my self worth after so much pain. I know you won't give me more than I can handle. I pray for continual strength and guidance. I say thank you for allowing me to be me and loving me and constantly forgiving me no matter what. Lord I know I am nothing without you. So thank you...for EVERYTHING. I exist because of you and I breathe my next breath for you!!!! I love you so much, always and forever~Amen!!!
Remember...tomorrow is just a grasp away :)
Nite nite everyone!!!!!
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10/08/2009 09:07
A little better than yesterday and happy
Since it's late, I'm exhausted and I have a few interviews in the morning, this blog will be short but not to worry, I will fill you in tomorrow.
Today was way better than yesterday...phew!!! BUT...not 100%
I'm satisfied with that though.
I managed to get in a good work out at the gym today. I'm very happy about that.
Ok...I'm tired. I'll fill you in tomorrow :)
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10/07/2009 06:06
I thought today would be different...
Today was a really bad and rough day for me diet/exercise wise.
I swore this week I was going to get back to it and get it together and today, I don't know what happened!!!
I did really well yesterday. I mean as well as I could for getting back into things. Ate good, exercised and was feeling good.
Today...I don't know what happened. I woke up, took my vitamins, time got past me at work today so I didn't have a chance to eat breakfast (mistake #1). I totally missed my spin class (mistake #2) and was pissed. I started getting a little hungry so I had some crackers (about 140 cals) around 1pm. So by the time my day started to get a little light I had a chance to eat lunch. That was around 2:30pm. So I had some leftover dinner that I had packed for lunch (12 spinach ravioli w/some marinara sauce, about 8 spears of asparagus, and 10 shrimp), not that bad right?! Instantly after I ate that, I started to feel super super hungry still. So I started eating peanut butter straight from the tube (mistake #3). Thankfully my hand couldn't fit in the tube after about a minute but managed to get some good finger amounts. I got home around 5:30pm and struggled with should I go to the gym or not. My motivation was totally shot. My 7:30pm I established I wasn't going (mistake #4) going. I still hadn't eaten dinner by that time (mistake #5) and couldn't decide what to eat. Instead of eating a healthy dinner like I should have I opted for eating bread w/butter (mistake #6). King Hawaii bread I HATE YOU!!!!! Each square is 100 calories. There's 4 square's in a package. And yes while I didn't have much to eat during the day and the bread is not that bad and the butter was really vegetable spread of I can't believe it's not butter light, it still was NOT good.
Yea...I'm beating myself up. What I tend to do so very often. And yes, I can get back on it tomorrow I'm just so mad!!!
I managed to get down to 236lbs and within 2 weeks of not working out and not eating well I've climbed back up to 245lbs. I'm sooo mad at myself for that.
Where do I find the motivation? How can I get it back? Help me from going backwards then drowning myself in my sorrows.
Maybe...when I get a little more comfortable with extrapounds.com I can blog about why I'm a little obsessed with my weight and why I'm obsessed with being stable but not gaining. I don't know...
Besides all of that drama, I found out at 7am this morning that my friend from NYC (where I'm from) stabbed her 6 month old baby in the neck, then stabbed herself. All day I cried at work and couldn't concentrate. All I can do is pray Pray for the baby, my friend and all the families involved.
So I'm home watching one of my favorite shows, The City and I'm having faith that tomorrow will be a better day. Tomorrow I'm going to try and be better. Tomorrow will be better!!!
Right about now is when I wish I had a gym buddy. Someone close to me who knows what it's like and can help me :(
Until then, I have tomorrow. And tomorrow will be better!!!!
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10/05/2009 21:38
Getting back to my grind!!!
Since I've had a crazy past 2 weeks with not exercising and eating poorly today is the start of me getting back to my grind.
I have a wedding to attend on November 7th and I already bought a dress. Size 16!!! Wooo hooo. I haven't gone dress shopping in YEARS and to see that a size 16 fits was tear jerking.
My mission was to have that sweet size 16 be big so I can return it for a 14
but that didn't happen and that's ok. My mission now, is to make sure the dress FITS!!!!
So back to my 6 days a week work outs and my eating healthy.
I can do it :)
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10/05/2009 21:01
The start of something new!
A few days ago I told a friend that I currently blog my weight journey on a blog site but wasn't too happy with it because it didn't provide me with exactly what I wanted. I was asking her if she knew of anything else. She had no clue.
To my surprise, this morning I come into the office and she sent me an email and told me her friend uses this site.
So here I am!!!
My first entry!!!
I'll start off with a little about myself and what brought me to this point and where I'm heading :)
My name is Sandra and I'm 33 years old. My birthday was yesterday!!! Yay for me!!!! In Feb 2008 I went on a cruise to the Bahamas with a really great friend of mine. When I came home I started going through all the pics we took. In the camera I found this one pic where clearly I'm a pretty girl but I was huge. I had rolls for days and my face looked like I was a hamster with food packed in it. I was not a happy camper when I looked at that picture and was even more anger and sad that my friend took that pic and didn't tell me how I looked. After seeing that pic and thinking I looked great on the cruise I vowed I was going to make a change.
Of course change didn't come right away. In April/May I went to see a family practitioner for a regular exam and we went over my age/weight/height stats. She started going on and on about how big I was for my height. I was 5'3" and I was 314lbs. I was mortified. I mean...I knew I was big but I surely didn't think I was OVER 300lbs. She gave me a series of tests and took blood work because she fear maybe something was up with my thyroids. A couple of days later I came back for the results. She couldn't understand how someone of my weight showed no signs of high blood pressure, diabetes or any thyroid problems. I was so embarrassed and hurt because she made me feel like I was the fattest person in the world. She went on to tell me that just because all the results came back ok didn't mean I wouldn't get something in the future. I vowed 2 things when I left that office. #1 - get that weight off & #2 - never go back to that doctor. As of today...I've managed to do both!!!!
My weight loss has been a rollercoaster. I've lost about 78lbs so far but in the past 2 weeks with birthday plans gone up a bit yet again. So as of today I currently weigh 245ish.
The main reason I decided I wanted to loose weight because I wanted to prove people wrong. I have been big for many years and haven't seen the weight that I'm at in I don't know how long. People didn't think I could do it but with a lot of prayer, heard work and change I did it!!!
I still have a long way to go as my overral goal is to be 175lbs. I started in April/May of 2008 and was a dress/jean size of 24. Currently I'm a size 16. I set a small goal of by the end of the year to be 200lbs but...I haven't made it. That's a different blog on how I'm feeling about that.
In these upcoming blogs you'll read a lot about my struggles. My demons. Any my joys. You'll hear about the people who are my biggest supports and someone who till this day still makes my loss as nothing because I'm still so fat.
What I want you to always remember is this is my outlet. So when there are times when I want to just keel over because I'm trying so hard and not loosing a pound and crying myself to sleep and wanting to hate myself and others please know, I love myself soooooo much!!
I'm glad I found this and looking forward to share, change and meeting some goals :)
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