01/20/2012 15:18
DELETE!
Yep I did it. I was going through all the weights I "used to be". I'll admit I'm on a couple weight loss support sites. It just helps to meet a bunch of different people with views on life, ya know? But anyway.. I was going through all the weights I used to be on various sites and I started to get down on myself. I mean... just in 2010 I was down to 160... and now I'm at 204.4. (woo! Lost 1.4 this week!) But I kept going back and trying to think what I did differently. I did everything differently. I was single then. Living the dream. I didn't have many responsibilities except school, and some bills. I could spend hours and hours at the gym everyday because I didn't have to "get stuff done"
So.. it just hit me.. NO MORE! I do this all the time. I look at the weights and think to myself "if only I weighed that again." Well helllllllllloo... I'm working on it. But I'm thinking of this as a new ride. A fresh slate. The egg McMuffins of Egg McMuffins (have you guys seen this commercial? lol) So on my new journey of lifestyle change I needed to start at a new official weight. SO I deleted all my old weigh in's. BYE BYE!
No more dreaming about that weight again. I need to concentrate on the today, the now.. One day at a time. I have lost 4.6 lbs so far in my new journey and I'm proud of that! I don't need myself and my thoughts bringing me down. I'm doing well NOW and that's all that matters.
I know, it's a little sad to think that all that hard work that I did before is gone... but it's not... I keep what I like to call a "fat book". I have been since 2006. Well.. on and off. I think the last couple years Ive only put 2 or 3 months in there. But anywho. The fact book is a scrapbook. I take 3 pictures of myself at the beginning of the month. Side, front and back views. Then I write my weight and date. I write my goals for the month. I write how I dieted, and what I need to change to be more successful. I put quotes in and little sayings. But its a motivator. After I finish my fat book at the beginning of the month, its like a challenge to myself to reach the goal I set, whether it's to lose 5lbs in the month, or drink more water... whatever it is. Small abtainable goals. But as I was saying, I didn't lose all those hard earned weights and years. I have them stuffed away in my fat book, along with pictures, that remind me every month. It really does help me to remember that I've done this so called weight loss thing before. It won't defeat me this time either. Haha.
So.. for this week... Playoff's are on Sunday and we're going to Nana's. That's a danger zone. I think I'm going to bring a vegetable platter. Saturday night might be a danger zone, my friend Kelsey is home from college... and we like to celebrate everytime we see eachother. I think those are the only days I'm worried about. Lot's of exercise this week. And drinking more water. I want my dang 5 pound star this week!! Talk to you all soon!
and it does help getting different views from different people! 