I'm not fat, I'm fluffy!!

Sometimes life just gets in the way...

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  • Name: Crystal2105
  • City: Falmouth
  • Region: Massachusetts
  • Country: United States

My Weight Loss

Height: 175.3cm
Start weight: 228.00lb
Current weight: 228.00lb
Goal weight: 140.00lb
Lost to date: 0.00lb
Remaining: 88.00lb

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week wrap up

Well I think I did pretty well this week. I followed the plan. I tracked everything that I ate and drank... I'm feeling very motivated to lose this weight. I think I finally have the workout bug I was looking for. 

I was orginally nervous about starting back at my seasonal job because I thought it would be a lot of tempations. It is... But because I've been bringing my own food, it's been easier to say to myself. Why would you snack on that if you have a healthier option that will keep you full longer. 

I have no problems there on the weekends. Because I'm busy. During the week it's still soooooo slow that yesterday I had to fight with myself with bored eating. But I made it through. Then I went out and walked 18 holes and burned 1200 calories! Haha. 

Aunt Flow came on Wednesday, so that's water weight central. Otherwise I really think I would have lost more than 1lbs. I'm not feeling discouraged. I feel great. I know I'm heading in the right direction. One pound at a time is fine by me. :) 

Tonight I'm going to Boston with a couple of my bestfriends to see the premiere of the 3 stooges. I'm excited. But my diet and Boston are like oil in water. I NEVER do well in Boston. I'm going to try my hardest to stay on track. I have work tomorrow so I can't really drink too much anyway. We'll see how it goes! I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend! Talk to you on Sunday :)

I hope everyone is doing well! Talk to you soon!

body media armband

Is anyone elses weight watchers website acting up? Everytime I go to a webpage it says there's a script problem... hmm... weird...

So today was weigh in day. I've been weighing in on Saturday's just so that I can squeeze the last little out of my weight loss. I always weigh less on Saturday's. But really.. it doesn't matter what day you do it.. does it. If you lost, you lost. You'll see the changes over time. 

So this AM I weighed in at 197! That's .8 weight loss. Which is fine by me. I busted my butt in the weight lifting department this week, so I knew the scale wouldn't be the numbers I would like to see. But they will be... because I'm going to keep doing what I'm doing! 

I was web surfing this morning and I found an add for a body media arm band. Has anyone tried it? It looks interesting. I'd love to try it but it's $179... and do you have to wear it all day and night? I don't know I have to do a little more research.... it claims to be very accurate though... I'll keep you posted!

I'm starting at my seasonal job today. I'm a little nervous about all the tempting food. I love the chili there. But not only that... but coffee is a big issue for me. My seasonal job is the reason I have a caffenine addiction. I just drink coffee all day... iced coffee... if you think about all that cream.. That's really what packs on the pounds. I think if I go in with the right mind set I should be fine.

I need to make a chart that I can visually see everyday for my weight loss. I need to bring my own healthy food to work. I can do it...

Then I'll bring my gym clothes to work with me. PLus I have all you wonderful people to keep me inline! Haha! I hope you all have a good day!

Rome wasn't built in a day..

I need to realize that I can't just go back to working out like I was back in 2010. I was in the best shape of my life. I was working with a trainer 3 days a week, going to spinning classes... and actually "working out". I was so strong... And my favorite part was that I didn't care what people thought of me while I was working out. I was so confident. I could walk backwards on the treadmill and have people stare at me... and I just said "this is a great work out for the legs"... 

So what am I so afraid of now? I can't even do sit ups in the gym.. I feel like everyone is looking at my "rolls". I'm better than what I was in 2005. I couldn't even jog on the treamill... but really? I went backwards. It's going to take me a long time to get back my confidence I had in 2010. 

I want to be able to look at myself in the mirror and say.. "im beautiful". I'm sabotageing myself for letting myself go... again. I'm still strong. I know what I need to do and I'll do it again. There's just a constant voice in the back of my head that says, "you're an idiot.. now you're starting all over... again"

Oh well. Nothing I can do about it now except perservere and become stronger than I was in 2010. It's happening. Slowly. Rome wasn't built in a day. I didn't get fat in one day.... I'm certainly not going to get lean in one day either. 

So.. I'm going to strive to make the gym my bestfriend. I need to go everyday. Not a hard workout everyday, 5 days weight training and 5 days of hard cardio. two days of light cardio... I can do it... At least I'm moving in the foward direction! 

On the brink

I'm on the brink of being in the "regular" sizes. No more plus sizes... On the brink... I have probably 10lbs or so until I'm comfortable in them. I can do it. I want to do it. The 14 size pants are getting a little big, but the 12's are still too snug. I told myself that I wouldn't go on a shopping binge until I was at least at 180. 17.8 more lbs... and then I can spend spend spend! 

My favorite part about losing weight isn't just the feeling great part.. it's the "I know I look great in these cute clothes" part. Being able to shop and find my size is also a perk!!

I can do it! I know I can. One week until Easter. No drinking during the week. Stay within my points, and keep track of everything. That's all I have to do. 

This week I start working at my seasonal job again. I have absolutely no will power there... and I'm a little nervous about it. Clam chower, chili, chicken salad, cookies, scones, muffins... the list goes on and on... 

I'm hoping this year will be different. I'll be working at the gym 3 days a week still. It helps keep me motivated.. that's why I wanted to stay here. If I have to come in and see all the exercise equipement... I stay on track. Must be a mental thing... 

Let's make some goals! 

Easter goal: was to lose 10lbs.. but if I get to 195 that'll be 5lbs lost... 1 week to go! I can do it!

June 1st goal: 20lbs... 8 weeks away! 197.8- 177.8 :)

Let's do it! 

March recap

I stayed the same this week. Which I expected. I didn't really "worry" about my plan this week. I was kind of on auto pilot... just in a fog. I think it's the weather. Everyones blogs have been about how they're in a slump and getting aggrivated. I feel like this happens every March/April. I think it's because we always get a great week in March where we say to ourselves... yessssss summer is here!!! and then the week after it's cold and miserable again.

But don't worry! It'll be summer soon! Everyone will be in a good mood again and you'll be back on track and losing weight like it's nothing!

So with that little pep talk being said... I only lost 3.2 lbs this month. But hey... I lost weight! yay!! And here are the ending measurement numbers from Feb 29th to March 31st..

Waist- 44 to a 41.5 = 3.5 inches
Hips- 44.5- 43.5 = 1 inch
Bust- 41- 39 = 2 inches
Arms- 15- 14.5 = .5 inches

That's 7 inches all around that I lost... 7 inches. I don't care if the scale doesn't budge an inch... as long as I keep losing the inches! 

My bestfriend is coming home today. We've been bestfriends for... 7 years. She's an amazing person... but OMG can she eat. She's not healthy in the least bit. Actually... none of my friends are at all. But I'm the "biggest" out of everyone. So needless to say... I have will power trouble when I hang out with them. I've been trying to tell them over and over... "hey listen... I'm trying to lose weight, so don't bring that stuff around me." But they don't even think about it..

We're all getting together for dinner tonight. And I thought "sweet, I can make dinner... so I know what goes into it.." but they're all insisting that since we're all going to my house, that they bring dinner. I said... "well can we be somewhat healthy?" And my friend says.. "yea, I was thinking of making chicken pot pie or maybe some pasta and meatballs, then we'll have a side salad... that's healthy..."

Now... if I was a normal person... it would be no bigger. I would say whatever I'll eat it in moderation... I have never ever evvvvver evvvvvvvvvvvver been able to conquer eating pasta in moderation... I just can't. 

SOOOOOOOO I was thinking.. to avoid this all together.. I was going to suggest that we just go out to eat. I know my best options at all the local places that we go to. Then I can eat healthy and they can eat what they eat and we'll all be happy!

But last month, I would not have been "planning" my little get together with my friends. It just would have happened... 

I think as long as I'm always prepared, I go to the gym, and I blog and track what I'm eating... I'll get to goal weight. It may take me forever... but I'm not in any hurry. I'd rather do it the right way than do it the short way. 

I hope everyone has a good weekend! Talk to you all on Monday!


I need to do something about this... apparently this week I thought it would be okay to have a lazy week and still lose weight. Well tomorrow is weigh in... and I haven't lifted a finger. It's been windy crappy and cold out. I just wanted to stay in and read my book...

I thought real real hard about going to the gym... but then I kept saying to myself, well maybe I'll get some yard work done instead. And then it started raining. I should have said to myself, "well, I'll go to the gym them." But in my brain... rain equals time to relax and read...

Summer time is right around the corner. My busy time. Which is good. I'm on the go go go. But I work in a restaurant so I'm also surrounded by food all day. I'm really hoping that I can stick to the plan and still work there...

This year I'll be working at the gym in the mornings. Which will be great. I won't be making any money there... but I'll be motivated. I'll be constantly at a gym and constantly surrounded by people that are working out. That's all I need. When I'm surrounded by people that aren't healthy (my family, friends..) I don't make great food choices. It's something I need to work on. 

Everytime I go out to eat with nana she does the guilt thing. We all have someone in our lives that does it. 
Nana: "Crystal, want to get a fried calamari appetizer?"
Me: "No Nana, that's okay, I'm gunna stick with the salad."
Nana: "Why can't you just have something good for one day."
Me: "I'm trying to lose weight nana."
Nana:"Yea, I know I know.." Then she turns to Lisandra. "Lisandra, want to split an appetizer with me?"
Lisandra: "Sure"
Sooooooo the appetizer comes, and nana tries putting some on my plate. I put back some... but I end up having one!! How does everyone else go about this?? I love nana with all my heart. The whole family knows that I'm trying to lose weight. I think it's just to the point of giving them a firm "no" and that's that.

Today: I'm going to the gym today. No ifs ands or buts about it. I need to... for my mental health. I hope everyone is doing well... If I don't get my big butt in gear it'll be a gain week. TTYS!

It's all in the numbers...

Well, I was thinking... you guys are right. That's exactly the reason I blog is so that I can get the feed back. I don't know what I would do without my online community. Thank you, to everyone that has supported me. You guys are right about the activity points. I know that's what they're for. I just can never utilize them properly. I never plug them in. It's easier for me to think, "oh I used 800 calories at the gym... and incorporate that into how many calories I can eat" 

Whatever works right? But trust me... I'm not ditching weight watchers. I need weight watchers in my life as a constant. The last time I was losing weight  I said hey, I'm gunna just count calories. Eventually I stop counting calories and that's when I get the weight gain. I need weight watchers. 

So, with that said. With my new diet plan... I weighed myself again this morning just for the heck of it. I lost 4lbs this week. Woo! I feel so much better. I really do. I'm motivated. I'm being active. Even on my "bad days" I'm making good food choices. 

The biggest reason for my motivation though is my measurement numbers. Just from 2/23- til today here are my results....
- Waist- lost 2.5inches
- Hips- Lost 1in
- Chest - Lost 2inches (figures... )
- Arms- lost .5 inches
- Legs- gained .5inches... (interesting)

In all I'm just really excited that I lost 2.5 inches from my waist. That's 4inches since I started weight watchers. I think the biggest contributing factor has been weight lifting. I haven't been losing the lbs on the scale until this week... but losing in inches is even better. I don't care how much I WEIGH as long as I'm losing fat :)

I hope everyone has a great day! Stay motivated!

figured it out?!!

Finally figured it out??!?!!? maybe... maybe.... I guess we'll have to see if I continue to lose in the next couple of weeks... But holey moley hallejulah! (sp?) I lost 2.2 lbs this week. It could have been a water weight loss from having my period. But I'm still really excited.  I feel WAY more confortable with keeping track of calories during the week and using points on the weekend. It just makes sense in my life right now. I did a test and I think that for my lifestyle I just was not eating enough calories on weight watchers...

 I love weight watchers. I really do. But I'm a fat active person. I don't think the program really considers fat active people. Plus I have a ton of muscle underneath all this fat...  So this is my thinking. According to my height (I'm 5ft 9in) and my muscle mass... I forget the exact calculation but I have it at home.. I think I need more calories per day.  It always comes down to what works for YOU!

 I've made so many lifestyle changes in the past 5 years that I've lost track. There are a couple things that I do know..
1. Extreme dieting turns into extreme bingeing
2. Strict diets turn into binge eating (Atkins) (lost 12 lbs in 2 weeks... and 2 weeks later I gained 20)
3. Not everyone is the same, just because something works for one person it may not work for you ( I get the..."you should try this" alll the time.)
4. Just because something worked years ago doesn't mean it'll work now, you change and so does your body.
5. you can't give up on yourself, you're all you have! 

Losing weight is like a big giant science project you have to try all different equations to find the answer, while changeing all different variables.  I give my "projects" usually about 3 weeks. If I don't see any improvement after 3 weeks, I'll change something. 

 So, week number 2 of this little project... I'll stick to counting calories on the weekdays and using points on the weekends. I slacked on the weight lifting this past week. I usually lift at the gym I work at while no one is here on Monday's Wednesdays, Fridays and Saturday's.. but it's been busy in the morning so I haven't been able to. I need to start lifting at my other gym instead, now that summer is coming.. more people will be here... 

2 weeks until my little easter mini challenge is over. I started at 201 on March 4th. I wanted to lose 10lbs. Unfortunately... I don't know about THATTTT but I'm gunna shoot for at least 5lbs. Anything after that is definitely a bonus. Anything lost is good. But I want 5lbs! 

 Keep your chins up! I know it's a long battle! But take one day at a time. Everyday is a learning experience! Have a good day!!


I knew all I needed was a little warm weather boost to get me motivated!! Yay! Monday I stayed on track and ate welll and went to the gym! yippy! Yesterday, I woke up and instantly went to the garage and got out my rake... and started dethatching my lawn. I'm not sure when I talked myself into doing that chore... but I did. Has anyone else dethatched there lawn? With a rake? lol... not so fun. BUTTTT I wore my heart rate monitor (because I'm a nerd and I wanted to see how many calories I would burn.. maybe it would give me a new insight on raking). 

It literally took me a little over 4 hours to dethatch my front lawn... just the front lawn. Yowsa's!!! I burned 2100 calories. HOLY MOLEY. So I guess raking was okay... maybe... sometimes. 

So the past 2 days have been great! I'm actually excited for my weigh in on Friday. I know I'll keep up my motivation and I'll stay on track!!

My plan for today... to detatch my lawn in the backyard... My whole body is sore from yesterday so hopefully I can get done what I need to today. 

I hope everyone is doing well! 


This week I decided to do a test. This said "test" will last until Friday the 30th. I think that's long enough to discover if it's working or not.

My mind works in mysterious ways. I've been on and off WW for the past 6 years. I think I know everything. I think that I don't have to count a lot of things.... You know when you first started and you did everything PERFECTLY... yep. I miss those days.

I've tried doing new things to get motivated about weight watchers. I mean it works. The plan works. It's a great plan.... if you do everything perfectly...

So my test for the next 2 weeks is to try something new. I'm going to keep track of calories, fat, carbs, and protein. I know... sounds labor intensive. That's why I like weight watchers, so I don't have to do all the counting, counting, and more counting. But I think this is the little switch up I need to get out of my rut and see the light. 

I know for a fact I can lose the weight. It's just wanting to work for it. I have this mentality right now that if I just eat a couple salads here and there I'll get down to goal weight. Yep.. maybe in some magical land but not in the real world pal!!

For example. I started my calorie counting this morning. I wrote down my yogurt, unsweetened apple sauce and then I looked over at my dunkin donuts cup.... Then... a discovery... for some reason in the past month, I've just stopped tracking my coffees. Apparently my brain thinks I'm entitled to 0 point coffee... but my non shrinking waistline thinks otherwise. 

So, that was a great discovery. I think that I'll find a lot more little discoveries today! 

I'm not abandoing w.w. all together. I love the support. Plus on weekends I'm thinking that I'll just use points instead of counting calories... I always end up way too busy to sit and write down everything I eat on the weekends...

The plan-
- no alcohol until next Friday
- count calories for everything I eat
- work out at least 4 days this week
- watch carbs

Good luck this week everyone!