Why.. WHYYYY do I do this to myself? I was actually doing pretty well. I went to the gym. I was eating pretty well. I made my boyfriend a sausage and tortellini soup. Which I thought to myself.. no way could I have any of that. But before I "tried" any.. I plugged all the ingredients into the recipe builder. It came out to about 10 pts per cup. Which I guessed anyway.. but on top of having the soup (which I told myself I wasn't going to have anyway..) I had to have a couple drinks. Really? WHY? On a Tuesday? 

 I'm blameing my over eating on them. They played like pansies. I was looking through everyones blogs and I think I may be the only person that had a rough time.. maybe because I'm a Pat's fan.. Idk.. but Superbowl day was a tough one. I wasn't the worst, but I wasn't the best. I didn't eat a lot.. but what I ate did not include vegetables if you know what I mean. I should have brought my carrots over like I did the last time... but I just wasn't thinking. 

Weigh in day stresses me out. The reason I have it on Friday's is that I feel like I can use extra points during the week and get back on track for the next weigh in.. Maybe I should switch this up? 
SO. I lost .6lbs. I wasn't expecting that. Welll. I guess I should have been expecting that.. I think I felt that I should have lost weight because I feel better after joining the gym again on Monday. 
I know where my problem areas are. I guess that's a good thing. I need to say no. I know when options are "not a good idea for me" and I should ust be able to voice my opionon about them. Like for instance, a friend of mine likes to make dinner and bring it over to my house. I could say to her, how about a healthy option? Since she's dieting as well. But she'll make chicken pot pie, and stuffed manicoti... and lots of other delicious things and say "well, it has chicken in it" or "as long as we have a salad on the side" lol. I need to just avoid the situation. Instead of her bringing food over once a week maybe we can switch off and I'll cook dinner. Then maybe she'll pick up on the idea of a healthy option. I don't know. 
The next problem I have... and I've always had on weight watchers. I have never once actually followed the good health guidelines. I have never counted my oils, my dairy's, my waters... maybe I should? It sounds stressful, but maybe it will help.
Another thing that went wrong this week.. there were brownies in the house for most of the week. And of course they called my name everyday, and I took a little "sample" everyday. Hello. Those samples add up! 
Today was my monthy "fat book" day. Where I post in a scrap book pictures (Side view, front view, and back view) and put in my measurements, write what I did wrong and what I did right. So in the beginning of January I weighed 209. I lost 4lbs this month. My goal was 5. But I'm okay with that. I also checked my measurements. Almost everything stayed the same, except I lost 1inch in my waist and .5 inches in my breasts. I guess that's good. Plus, for most of the month of January I wasn't working out at all.... (Stupid money) So I think this months goal is going to be 10lbs. Putting me back to onederland. I need to do this. I can't keep yo yoing back and forth. I know 10lbs in one month is crazy.. but I think if I push myself I can do it. 

I need something. I need some kind of motivation. I need to be pushed. 

So here are my goals for the month:
1. Lose 10lbs
2. Gym at least 6 days a week (sounds excessive.. I know.. but I need to to stay on the bandwagon)
3. Follow the health guideline for weight watchers
4. Drink all my waters
5. This is a big one.. I'm going to try this week... I'm going to try and eat nothing perserved. No more fiber one bars, no more frozen dinners, no more arnold sandwich thins. Just meat and vegetables. And I think I'm going to make my own bread..
6. Start tracking alcohol.

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 I finally did it. I joined the gym!! Woo! They told me that I could just pay for the month (65) and then when I got enough money I could pay for the rest of the year... which is what I wanted to do. The whole year is only 299. Which is a great price I think. I love paying for the gym upfront, so that the whole year I don't have to worry about not having anywhere to go. 

  So, I decided that this week I was going to borrow my friends (Smilzwitnoe) idea for a rating system. The rating system is as follows... 

 I woke up on Sunday morning, after the snow storm and J.D had swollen up like a balloon. And no vets are open on Sundays. I was stressing. I feel so bad for the little guy...   I guess it kind of was my fault in a way. It snowed on Saturday and when I let him out to do his business, he started going crazy and running around (he LOVES the snow) and I let him run around. lol. He was being so cute. How could I say no?  So I had to bring him back to the vet and they gave me some antibiotics to give him. So... he'll be okay. But.. WOW the stress. I didn't sleep a wink last night. I was so worried about him!    So I was worried about my eating habits yesterday. One... I was going to nana's house. That's my danger zone. I just can't eat well there. Two... I was worried about J.D. and I'm a emotional eater... and Three... nana made chili and cornbread. My favorite...    I think I did okay though.. considering the damage I could have done. I ate a lot more carrrots and a lot less corn bread. So I think that was progress... So cheers to a non stressful day.. I'm gunna go paint and listen to some music. GO PATS!

  Yep I did it. I was going through all the weights I "used to be". I'll admit I'm on a couple weight loss support sites. It just helps to meet a bunch of different people with views on life, ya know? But anyway.. I was going through all the weights I used to be on various sites and I started to get down on myself. I mean... just in 2010 I was down to 160... and now I'm at 204.4. (woo! Lost 1.4 this week!) But I kept going back and trying to think what I did differently. I did everything differently. I was single then. Living the dream. I didn't have many responsibilities except school, and some bills. I could spend hours and hours at the gym everyday because I didn't have to "get stuff done" 

Hi all! Thanks for your best wishes with my puppy! He did well. He hatessss wearing his little cone though. He's petrified of it. Once I put it over his head he wont move a muscle until we take it off. I feel so bad for him! But I'm glad he's home and safe and sound! The poor little guy is so scared of everything. I feel awful. I got him from a rescue when he was around 12 weeks old. They found him abandoned in a field in Texas. So maybe that's why he's so scared? The vet said "I felt so bad for him, he was so scared!" But he came right over to us wagging his tail and hidding under our legs. It was only his 2nd time at the vet and I left him there all day! Of course he was scared lady!!