Almost A Week!!

Since I last blurted out here...OMGOSH!!! I have been a very very bad girl since my b-day but I am not stressing it because I am getting back on track. I had an awesome birthday and things even worked in our favor over the court bit last Friday.

Tomorrow I plan on not sticking to my diet. My divorce from my ex is sooooooooooooooooooooooo FINAL tomorrow. I have a date with a bottle of wine that I have been saving. I even thought of sending him a bottle so he and his girlfriend could celebrate as well..I am not sure though if I could have a bottle of "Fat Bastard" (that is actually a real type of wine)  delivered to his work. LOL if I amuse no one else at times I must say I do amuse myself.

Hope all are having a good day.

Cruzrgurl

The wonders of stress!

I see from the scales that the stress in my life is getting to me. I was so shocked that I weighed myself this morning and was down another 1.5 pounds. I am having better results this week doing it on my own than I had last week at the clinic.

The cause of the stress in my life has nothing to do with my immediate family. My boyfriend is going to court tomorrow and is trying to settle with his ex. What can I say....she is just a bitch. She is asking for support and asking for far more than she needs or deserves. Unfortunately for anyone who knows a man who has gone through all this the women always come out on top..Except in my case, my ex still has the house and all MY furniture, but that is a whole other story. She has been prolonging selling the house saying that she is emotionally devestated so is playing that up to get more money. BUT..in the eyes of the law, he has a better job and she can never better herself, because she has no desire to, so our plans for a house get put on hold again until we see how much he is going to have to pay her a month. He has given her so many offers to buy her out so she remains free of debt and has enough money to start over, she just wants the house and wants him to continue to pay for it.  I was married for 20 years and had two kids and got the shaft. They were never married and have no kids and it seems in the eyes of the law she in entitled to more than a married woman..where is the fairness there.

I am stressed because there is no justice on his part at all. It is hard to be partial to either side of this unless you knew the whole story, but there is not enough web space out there to even touch on it.

Hopefully as my sister in law tells me it all comes down to Karma, what goes around comes around.

Hope all are having a good day

Cruzrgurl

Happy Hump Day!!

First off.....Moonflower...you are my hero, I love your comments to my posts, it gives me a lift to my day. We are both searching for the same thing.

And the scale says.............down two pounds.

I am not even at Bernstein this week. I cheated on the weekend but getting back on track seems to be sending me in the right direction.

I had a huge accomplishment yesterday. I had to attend a work related Conference yesterday. Now for any of you not familiar with these types of events....money never seems to be an object. These events are all expenses paid. Drinks and the largest assortment of snacks you could imagine, oh yeah and this is after the full lunch they serve. First off, I had already done my salad free from dressing before I got there, so I skipped the calorie loaded lunch they serve. I stuck to the water instead on sipping on a glass of white wine, which is the stigma for these conferences. I passed on the hor dorves and the sweets which were endless (just looking at it made my stomach growl) On my way home I was grinning to think that all that was sitting right in front of me and I passed on it all. That in itself shows me that I do actually want to lose the weight this time.

One more plus....and there is not a woman who can say that she isn't flattered by this. I stopped on my way to work this morning to pick up some smokes **that is my next quest** and this guy about 20 years younger than I was, was acutally *Checking me out* when I walked in the store, on my way back to my car I even got a whistle...LOL Ok so maybe its not the most mature thing but what a self esteem boost....OMGosh I just re-read that....how vain do I sound....what the heck I am leaving it anyway.

Have a great day 

Back on track!

Good Morning Everyone,

Well I was "TERRIBLE" all weekend but down all of 4 ounces..:(

I am not really getting too bent out of shape though, this was the first weekend in a while that I have splurged in the food department and really it wasn't all that bad, just didn't get my water in. The price you pay for a long weekend though. I am back on track this morning though and my sweetheart packed me the diet lunch again. I have to behave now for the next 4 days to prepare for my b-day on Saturday....maybe get treated to that DQ treat then.

We got out for a walk last night even though the weather has been just horrible, cold and rain...where is summer. It is supposed to be better starting tomorrow and then warm up to more seasonable temperatures. It is much easier to get out for that walk after dinner when it is nice out.

My daughter danced on Saturday evening at her competition and was awesome, of course she didn't make it into the finals but she was ok with that, she just loves to dance and for her winning is just a plus, it is the actual dancing that she gets satisfaction from.

Hope everyone had a good weekend. Now back into the work grind.

Cruzrgurl

P.S. Glad you enjoyed my hair removal post...LOL

Read this if you need a smile

We all know the pains of unwanted hair removal, add a few extra pounds and its not so easy to be limber. I wanted all to read this if you really need a lift, I know it brought a smile to my face:

Dear Friends,

As many of you know, last year I had a near-death experience trying to
do my own bikini-waxing at home.... Praise God that it didn't go as far as
it could have! Please read the following account--it is a cautionary tale!

All hair removal methods have tricked women with their promises of
easy, painless removal - The epilady, scissors, razors, Nair and now...the
wax.

My night began as any other normal weeknight. Come home, fix dinner,
play with the kids. I then had the thought that would ring painfully in my
mind for the next few hours: "Maybe I should pull the waxing kit out of the
medicine cabinet." So I headed to the site of my demise: the bathroom.

It was one of those "cold wax" kits. No melting a clump of hot wax, you
just rub the strips together in your hand, they get warm and you peel
them apart and press them to your leg (or wherever else) and you pull the
hair right off. No muss, no fuss. How hard can it be? I mean, I'm not a
genius, but I am mechanically inclined enough to figure this out. (YA THINK!?!)

So I pull one of the thin strips out. Its two strips facing each other
stuck together. Instead of rubbing them together, my genius
kicks in so I get out the hair dryer and heat it to 1000 degrees.
("Cold wax," yeah...right!) I lay the strip across my thigh. Hold the skin
around it tight and pull.

It works! OK, so it wasn't the best feeling, but it wasn't too bad. I
can do this! Hair removal no longer eludes me! I am She-rah, fighter of all
wayward body hair and maker of smooth skin extraordinaire!
With my next wax strip I move north. After checking on the kids, I
sneak
back into the bathroom, for the ultimate hair fighting championship. I!
drop my panties and place one foot on the toilet. Using the same
procedure,
I apply the wax strip across the right side of my bikini line, covering
the right half of my *hoo-hoo* and stretching down to the inside of my butt
cheek (Yes, it was a long strip) I inhale deeply an brace
myself....RRRRIIIPPP!!!!

I'm blind!!! Blinded from pain!!!!....OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!! Vision
returning,
I notice that I've only managed to pull off half the strip.

CRAP!!! Another deep breath and RRIIPP!! Everything is swirly and
spotted.

I think I may pass out...must stay conscious...Do I hear crashing
drums???
Breathe, breathe...OK, back to normal. I want to see my trophy - a wax
covered strip, the one that has caused me so much pain, with my hairy
pelt sticking to it. I want to revel in the glory that is my tr! iumph over
body hair.

I hold up the strip! There's no hair on it. Where is the hair??? WHERE
IS THE WAX??? Slowly I ease my head down, foot still perched on the
toilet. I see the hair; The hair that should be on the strip. I touch. I am
touching wax.

CRAP! I run my fingers over the most sensitive part of my body, which
is now covered in cold wax and matted hair. Then I make the next BIG
mistake...remember my foot is still propped up on the toilet? I know I
need to do something. So I put my foot down. DAMN!!!!!!!! I hear the
slamming of a cell door.

*Hoo-hoo*? Sealed shut! - - Butt?? Sealed shut!

I do the penguin walk around the bathroom trying to figure out what to
do and think to myself "Please don't let me get the urge to poop. My head
may pop off!" What can I do to melt the wax? Hot water!! Hot water melts
wax!!

I'll run the hottest water I can stand into the bathtub, get in,
immerse the wax-covered bits and the wax should melt and I can gently wipe it
off. Right??? *WRONG!!!!!!!*

I get in the tub - the water is slightly hotter than that used to
torture prisoners of war or sterilize surgical equipment ? I sit. Now, the only
thing worse than having your nether regions glued together, is having
them glued together and then glued to the bottom of the tub...in
scalding hot water. Which, by the way, doesn't melt cold wax? So, now I'm stuck
to the bottom of the tub as though I had cement- epoxy myself to the
porcelain!!

God bless the man who had convinced me a few months ago to have a phone
put in the bathroom!!!!! I call my friend, thinking surely she has waxed
before and have some secret of how to get me undone. It's a very good
conversation starter - "So, my butt and who-ha are glued together to the bottom of
the tub!" I calmly tell her.

There is a slight pause. She doesn't know any secret tricks for removal
but she does try to hide her laughter from me. She wants to know exactly
where the wax is located, "Are we talking cheeks or hole or who-ha?" She's
laughing out loud by now...I can hear her. I give her the rundown and
she suggests I call the number on the side of the box. YEAH!!!!!

Right!! I should be the joke of someone else's night. While we go
through various solutions, I resort to scraping the wax off
with a razor. Nothing feels better then to have your girlie goodies
covered in hot wax, glued shut, stuck to the tub in super hot water and then
dry-shaving the sticky wax off!!

By now the brain is not working, dignity has taken a major hike and I'm
pretty sure I'm going to need Post-Traumatic Stress
counselling for this event. My friend is still talking with me when I
finally see my saving grace....the lotion they give you to remove the
excess wax. What do I really have to loss at this point? I rub some on
and
OH MY GOD!!!!!!!

The scream probably woke the kids and scared the dickens out of my
friend.
It is s-o-o-o painful, l but I really don't! care. "IT
WORKS!! It works!!" I get a hearty congratulation from my friend and she
hangs up. I successfully remove the remainder of the wax and then
notice to my grief and despair....THE HAIR IS STILL THERE.......ALL OF
IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.
So I recklessly shave it off. Heck, I'm numb by now. Nothing hurts. I
could have amputated my own leg at this point.

Next week I'm going to try hair colour

Down 3 more..

Ok...so the new scale is much kinder..maybe its the nude weight that I like better. At least it was a drop this morning anyway.

I think I am going to do one more week of Bernstein then head back to weight watchers...I don't understand why I am eating so little and still burning no Ketones. So here I go again with no fruit and no bread until Tuesday.....grrrrrrrrrr. Guess that means that I stay out of the wine again this weekend.

We have a long weekend here....which means leaving work a little early today...:) Boss is away...LOL My daughter has a dance competition but other than that I see no humps for me trying to get over this weekend.

Enjoy your weekend everyone.

Cruzrgurl

New Scales

I went out last night and bought a set of bathroom scales. I jumped on them right away.....whohoooo it says I am down 6 pounds...Then reality hit. :(

I have been really good for the last three days. No bread no fruit, just like the doctor says....tons of water. But tomorrow will tell the tale. Have you ever noticed that when you go to the DR or WW their scale always weigh more than your home ones. I was kinda hoping that buying new scales that they would be accurate. I am going to weigh myself first thing tomorrow before I go for my real weigh in, we will see how much difference there is. Then I get my reality check.

Have a wonderful day all.

Cruzrgurl

Today's a little better!

I am feeling a little better. I haven't been sleeping well this week and I think it adds to my mood when I am tired. Then of course that Dr yesterday just ticked me right off.  The vitamins are really getting to my stomach too...you know that yucky feeling when you know that something solid and of course not on the allowed list would make you more comfortable.

I was supposed to weigh in today but I am waiting until Friday now. I figure if they are taking away my fruit and bread for three days I might as well wait and then at least the scale shows some drop. I can feel it, and a plus this past weekend I got back into 3 pairs of pants that were screaming tight on me.

Long weekend coming up, the weekends are my big challenge. I don't drink enough water, of course we are on the go all the time so it is not easy when you have to pee every 10 mins.

Thanks for all your words of encouragement. It is much appreciated.

Cruzrgurl

Depressed

I guess thats why women turn to food, no one else wants to listen.

White Wine

Guess these two items are not on the diet. Oh well I was up 1.2 lbs this morning. I guess not too bad considering it was Mother's Day and I was out for lunch. I was still a good girl though..well except for the dressing on the Chicken Ceasar Salad, and that yuumy piece of heavy bread that came along side right full of seeds and cranberries. And of course that wonderful glass of wine. I am not much of a drinker but have had a hard time with giving up that glass of wine I usually have while I am making dinner.  Oh well back into the groove this week.