Can you tell I'm frustrated? Hit another plateau, ugh! I had done so well last month, but in the last two weeks... not so good. I just want to give up and eat the Valentine's Day candy my kids got at school. Yum, chocolate... So I've had a few days of moping and not seeing the changes on the scale I want, but now that its Monday I'm going to commit again. Do better, work harder at the gym, eat better, think positive. Maybe I just need to give up my scale for a month or more. It seems like if I don't see a weight loss I get depressed.
Has anyone given up their scale for any length of time? My goal was to loose four pounds in the month of February, but I haven't lost any. I don't think I'm going to loose it in the next two weeks, but I'm going to do my best. Two would be better than none, right?
Today at the gym I did 3 miles on the eliptical, 1.4 miles on the bike and one mile on the treadmill for an hour and 5 minutes of cardio. I also did the weights, one set on each machine.
Tomorrow I have to work at school so I can't go in the morning to work out. The evening is an event at school for parents, so we have a babysitter and plan to go out to eat. That may be my day off this week, which means I need to make it every other day, Wednesday to Friday!
Since I didn't lift weights today, my goal was to do 90 min. of cardio, which I did. Now I am so tired. My daughter is napping and I'm thinking about joining her. I did 3 miles on the elliptical in 33 minutes. Thirty on the bike and thirty on the treatmill. It was a total of 93 minutes and 7.75 miles. I came home and had a Kashi Go Lean "roll." I knew if I didn't I'd get shaky like I do after a hard workout like that. I found these energy bars (the Kashi ones) at Meijer for $1.99, which was about a dollar more than any other bar. Then a week ago or so I went to Target and found them for $0.99. Isn't that weird? Of course I stocked up.
I figured I need to get in a good workout today since I've got to work at my son's school tomorrow morning, the usual time I go to the gym. I'm then meeting my husband for lunch for Valentine's Day. I could try to make it to the gym in the afternoon before school is over. Let's see how that'll go. My prediction is that I won't make it. Tomorrow night is going to be family fun... a chocolate fondue! And then some game playing with the kiddies! I didn't decorate the house for Valentine's, but I'd still like to do something special for the family.
The problem with being so worn out, though I feel good about the exercise I did, I feel too tired to do anything else. I mean I should do some laundry...ok, I can do that. I should be doing more, like clean the bathrooms, at least the floor. Not every preschooler in this house can hit the toilet all the time! Ugh!
I think that's why I haven't made it to the gym for the weekend or Monday. Its too easy to find an excuse when I'm not up to it mentally. Yesterday school was cancelled and I had an appointment in the morning, so the kids and I all went together. I should have worked out in the afternoon, but I was feeling down, so I took a little nap.
But, I did make it to the gym today. I need to focus on the positive! I did just over an hour on the treadmill, elliptical, and bike, total, plus weights. Two sets of 10 on each machine. So I feel good about that. I also avoided temptation and did not eat the chocolate that I've got for fondue on Valentine's Day and I did not have a drink. Think positive! I did good last night even if I didn't work out.
I guess I would say I'm an "emotional eater" at times. Usually when I'm blue and unfortunately that time can come on a regular basis, like once a month, if ya know what I mean! I typically don't keep junk food in the house, except for icecream, which I can resist, and the rest of the family loves. Though I was ready to break down at the store and buy something bad yesterday.
I just need to focus on the positive and the future and what I can do today and not worry about what I've done bad in the past.
I weighed in this morning and there was no change on the scale from last week. I guess I should be happy I maintained since I only made it to the gym two times this week. My daughter was sick and then I had to do some work at my son's school. It was a hard and stressful week overall. Tonight I have an event I'll be working at until late. After that I'll be able to relax for the weekend. Hopefully that won't mean being too lazy.
I'm ready for spring so I can walk outside or go for a bike ride with my kids or go to the park. I figure that would also be a way to get in some extra exercise too.
Looking at next week, I've got one morning when I can't exercise. I think I should make next week's mini goal to get to the gym every morning, so at least 4 times and I'll throw one in on the weekend. So that's five times by next Friday! I'm gonna do it. Oh and another goal is to get a "before" picture up on the site. How often do you weigh yourself, take measurements, take pictures? I thought that might help to see my progres..
I didn't want to go, but I did! I'm very proud of myself. It was foggy, but not too cold. I started the car and heard a favorite song by Dave Matthews Band. Saw a rabbit in the field. I wouldn't have seen or heard either had I not gone.
I did 3 miles on the treadmill. Running at least 13 minutes total. Of course I was in front of the window, like I prefer, and since it was dark the window was more of a mirror and I got to watch myself. Ugh! I don't know if I'd call THAT a motivator. Then I did 1.5 miles on the elliptical for an hour total. Next I lifted weights and stretched.
Now going tomorrow might be more difficult. My daughter will still not be able to go to the gym's daycare and my husband and son have an event tomorrow night. I need to check the time of it, but I may be able to leave as soon as they get home, depending on the time. I need to think of something I could do if I can't make it out to the gym. Maybe do a show on Fit TV or something. Guess its better than nothing and if I want to meet my minigoal I need to MOVE IT!
Ugh! My daughter has had a fever on and off since Friday! So, no workout Friday or the weekend or even this morning. I usually go to the gym at 9 a.m. after I drop my son off for school. Its a routine, its done before my shower, but not impossibly early. Since dd was sick it meant no gym and a doctor's appointment this morning. She may have strep and we'll find that out tomorrow when the lab results are done. I only hope that no one else gets it, whatever she has. Along with the fever she threw up in our bed - ON ME! - Saturday morning, the night after our dinner guests who WOULD NOT LEAVE!
So I need to decide if I can get my can to the gym tonight after dinner. I've never been good about going in the evening. I need to do this! I can't make the gym tomorrow morning since I won't know if dd has strep yet, so I'm looking at two mornings of no work out. If I want to exercise at least four to five times a week I need to go! I need to go! I gotta go! If I want to make this change, if I want to be better, healthier, lose the weight, I need to go.... I hate going in the evening. I eat, then I have to let it settle, I..I..I.. sounds like a bunch of excuses. Hubby and son are at soccer practice. I should change clothes now so right after dinner I'll be ready to go. I'm not going every night, but I can make it tonight....
Wooo Hooo! I met my mini goal of 195# by Feb. 1st. Actually I was 194, so I feel really good about that. Watch that graph go down!
Friday started off well with the weigh in, but over all not so good of a day. A snow day meant both kids were home for the day. I didn't want to go to the gym, but could have because the roads weren't that bad. My daughter had a fever though, so that meant they couldn't go into the childcare at the gym so I did stay home. No work out, unless you count cleaning the house all day. Cleaning for company, so that means better and more than usual. I had been hoping our company wouldn't come due to the bad weather, but no luck.
I had some stressful moments with both kids at home, both crying at once, overwhelmed with everything I had to get done, and I had several thoughts going through my head at that time: 1) I wish my husband would take a half day and come home and help. 2) I need a drink! 3) I need to go upstairs alone and eat chocolate. None of those happened and I survived.
It was a long night and my daughter still has her fever, but she seems in good spirits. Even though I've been a mom for over six years I still worry and wonder what to do when they get sick. I can definately tell I'm a "stress eater." The dessert our company brought is still sitting around and every time I open the cabinets I want to dive in. I remind myself that it really won't fill me up and be a waste (of calories) to eat it. Tonight I will insist the rest of the family finishes them off so I can keep temptation at bay. Though I did have a cookie last night after dinner, but I've decided that I can have one "treat" a week. Not all day, just a treat. I've been looking forward to doing a chocolate fondue for the family on Valentine's Day. I will have yummy fruit (pineapple, strawberries) to dip, mostly for me, and the kids will devour the marshmallows in chocolate. That may be two weeks worth of treats! :-)
February has four weeks, so my next mini goal is 190# by Feb. 29th. Maybe I should make it to the gym this weekend.
I have to say, I really love the weight loss graph. It already has helped me see my progress. I thought I really hadn't made any changes this month, but once I put in my weights, starting Jan. 1st, I could see that I lost weight. I just keep picturing the graph going down. Now I'm looking forward to tomorrow's weigh in.
I had been weighing myself almost everyday and decided that was a very bad idea for me. I would get depressed if the scale went up a half a pound or stayed the same. It would make me want to throw up my hands and say, "Why bother?" Now weighing in once a week gives me something to look forward to. I just hope I'm down again tomorrow. I had a mini goal of 195# at the end of the month, but I think I won't hit that. That's okay though. I didn't realize that I was starting at 201#, so six pounds may have been too ambitious. I think I'll set a pound a week goal for the month. Depending on where I am tomorrow morning, I'll decide what March 1st's goal is.
Today I did 60 min. of cardio at the gym. Three miles on the elliptical and 1.75 miles on the treadmill, plus weights. Two reps of ten on each machine. I don't really know how to do free weights, but I should ask someone to teach me, that way I can do them at home if I can't get to the gym. Tomorrow I may not make it since we are expecting quite a bit of snow. If school is cancelled I don't really like to go out. (I've had the experience of being stuck in a car in a snow storm overnight! Bad memories.) I do have a treadmill at home, so I should be able to get in the cardio. My goal on days I don't do weights is 90 min. of cardio. Of course that may be too much right now. I did that Tuesday and it kicked my butt! That night I was exhausted, sore, and had a headache. Not much of a mom. My son read to me in bed while I had the pillow over my head to block out the light. I think I may have just done to much. I can do 75 min. alright, maybe I just need to work up from there by 2 min. increments.
First, it takes a lot to get this thing going, but after reading blogs on this website for several weeks, I decided to do my own. I've been on this journey of creating a new me for about five years.
When my son turned one year old, I got laid off from work. I have to say that was one of the best things for my health. I starting walking, short walks around the neighborhood with him in the stroller. I stopped drinking Coke and eating sweets or eating after 7 p.m. A few years later I was still walking and losing weight and became pregnant with my daughter. I have to say it was so much easier being healthy with her. After she was born I continued to lose weight, but slowly. Since I started exercising, about 5 years ago, I lost over 50 lbs. and kept it off.
Until last year. I was on a plateau forever and then got depressed and discouraged. I decided that I need to step it up, work harder, and eat better. I am trying to use all the tools I can to help create a new me! I figure writing about things will help keep me motivated and give me a place to grip and moan.
I want to be able to tell "my story." I get motivated when I see weight loss stories in magazines or on TV. I'd like my story to be told, so this is the place I'm going to do it. Don't we all like to be celebrated and congratulated for the hard work this takes?
