Thoughts

I was looking at a picture of myself from one year ago and comparing it to a picture taken last weekend. I can definately tell that my face is not as round. I am happy that I can see a difference b/c I don't want to look that bad again. I have made progress over the last year. I have lost a guesstimated total of about 10-15lbs. One year ago when I started my new job I lost a couple of lbs b/c my eating habits changed. Since I have started tracking my weight it's been 11lbs. I can't wait to see what happens over the next couple of months. I am looking forward to more changes. I even warned my husband that changes were in store for our family.

WI

I so had no idea what I was in for this morning. I forgot to weigh in when I got up so I weighed in after my bath. Normally I would not have even bothered but since the weekend I have cut back on my food intake and have been walking. So I was not expecting to see 249! I broke the 250 mark. I am so thrilled. I have a theory about weighing ithat if I take a bath then weigh the bath will mess up the weigh, I know I'm weird. But I will so take the 249!! It really motivates me to keep going and continue working towards my 5k in December.

the weekend

I have somewhat gotten back on track. I am motivated and determined to get this weight off. It is so hendering my possible accomplishments.

Saturday I participated in the Crop Walk here in Baton Rouge. This was a benefit walk to raise money for the hungry. You had your choice of walking 1, 2 or 3 miles. I was thinking 3 miles wouldn't be a problem but boy as I wrong. My hubby kept warning me but I wouldn't listen. When the walk started my calves were tight (have no clue why) and I had to tell my husband to slow down. Now I am the type of person that has to warm up before I can really walk and it seemed like everyone took off. I think he just didn't want to be last. Anyways I made it 2 miles. It has really been a long time since I have walked and I could tell. Which helped me in a way.

There are a couple more walks and a 5k that I want to participate in and the walk saturday really made me realize I am not prepared. So I am please to report that my eating Sunday was better and I even squeeed in a walk. I was super excited. I had to walk by myself which I hate b/c it a country backroad and I am extremely parinod but it was good. I don't know distance wise how far but I felt good about being the getting out and moving part.

Today I have to work late so it will be dark when I get home....maybe I can squeeze a couple laps around our trailer park after I eat.....

Hope everyone has a good day.

Reflection

I saw my reflection in the shopping mirrors last night and I was totally heartbroken . I had forgotten how bad I look. Especially since I was walking next to a co-worker who is alot smaller. I just couldn't believe it. I have to start working out again. I can't take looking like I do any longer. I know it will be a struggle but it will be well worth it. I want to look good. I want to wear normal sizes....I just want to be normal.

PIG

That's what I felt like last night. I don't know what came over me I ate everything. I had to work late so the girls and I ordered a pizza and we each had 2 1/3 pieces, then on my way home I stopped and picked up my child and had eggs and a biscuit at my grandmothers, and for a snack a pudding cup then a hamburger with chips and cheese dip and mini muffins. I was seriously hurting when I went to bed. I was whinning to my hubby about how bad I felt. He was working nights so he wasn't home. I completely feel like a pig. I haven't ate like that in a very long time. I feel so horrible.

On a lighter note my husband and I will be participating in a 5k in two weeks. His company is one of the sponsors. The sweetest is that he took off of work so he could walk it with me. I just love him!!

10lbs

I am so happy this morning !! The scale read 250.00!! That is a total loss of 10lbs. Even though my weigh in is not until Monday I have recorded it. I have been waiting to say I have lost 10 lbs. Even my husband has started helping me watch what I am eating,which I have been asking him to do for months now.   Hope every one has a good day.

WI results

This morning was weigh in. And I am down 1.2lbs. I am really excited about this. Saturday I treated myself to a new pair of jeans and yesterday I bought a new outfit for work. I really don't understand why I am still losing weight b/c I haven't exercised in over 2 weeks and haven't been eating right. The only thing that I can think of is that I am not eating as much. Who knows, I think stress has played a part in this as well. Everytime I think it's getting better something else pops up. I have been working with my mother with her diabeties. Her levels are dropping in the evening after dinner and before bed and I am not sure why or what is going on. I don't know if this is normal or if they are going too low. When she tests it I know it's too low but should it go that low before it goes up? I have so many questions. I am stressing out because I have been staying up late for the past several nights. I will call her doctor as soon as possible it's just difficult while working. Ugh! Hopefully it'll get better soon.

There are no words

There are no words to explain how bad I feel. I am completely emotionally drained.  This crap with the hurricanes and work and family has driven me to the brink of insanity. I found out at work I made a HUGE mistake and that pretty much was the icing on the cake. I broke down and was bawling. I have been sooo stress these past two weeks. And then they announce on the news b/c of Hurricane Ike the gas prices are going up. So now every idiot in our small town decides to go get gas at once. It's a flash back to two weeks ago pre- gustav. I just want to stay in bed for like days. Does anyone have any good suggestions to de-stress? On top of all of that I have not done a single work out. UGH!!

Post Hurricane

It has been a while since I have been able to log on. With the hurricane hitting south louisiana we were out of power from last monday to friday. Saturday was spent traveling out of state to grocery shop, as well as moving back to my house from my grandma's. Work has been crazy as I am an insurance agent. I did get on the scale this morning and was very pleased. It was down by 2 lbs. I didn't go up so I was happy. I didn't make it to my goal weight by Sept 5 but our vacation was put on hold as my husband's training class was cancelled. But turns out I needed the money I saved for groceries and gas. All worked out for the better. Now I am trying to settle into a more normal routine. Just forgive me for devouring an entire small peperoni pizza for dinner last.night !! LOL Hope all is well.

2 days in a row

I have kept near my 2000 caloire goals for two days now. I went over a litle bit yesterday. I am beginning to realize that I consume way too many calories. Even on days when I think I am doing good. It was definately a wake up last night when something I ate had way too many calories than I thought it should. That will be the last time I eat that food again. Geez. I got on the scale this morning and it is going in the right direction. I drank atleast 40 oz of water yesterday so that helped. Guess I'll see how it goes over the weekend.