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Loving life and losing weight.....not as easy as it sounds

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  • Name: Corrie28
  • City: Saint Catharines
  • Region: Ontario
  • Country: Canada

My Weight Loss

Height: 167.6cm
Start weight: 283.00lb
Current weight: 272.00lb
Goal weight: 150.00lb
Lost to date: 11.00lb
Remaining: 122.00lb

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11/27/2009 16:34

Shopping.....

Yesterdays shopping trip was a bust. I went to the mall by my house and they had nothing that I wanted. Spent three hours walking around there and by the time I got home my leg was killing me….But wow, I was so GLAD to get out of the house!!! I have been cooped up in the house all week because of my leg, I was so happy to see other people, and have a chat with my friend.

I went shopping again today since the toy store near my house is having a half price sale (we don’t have black Friday here, but a lot of stores do start their big sales today). So I got almost all of the presents for the kids, and I had a lot of fun looking at all the neat toys they have. Now I have to get them wrap before I go to work this afternoon, because I know the kids will snoop.

Tomorrow is going to be a busy day. My daughter is in the Santa Claus parade and my son has a hockey practice AND we have tickets to the Ice Dogs (a local hockey team). All of this takes place within about two hours, and right at supper time. We are also planning on putting up our Christmas tree, finish putting away all our lawn furniture and we have to grocery shop too. So busy, busy, busy.

Hope everyone has a great day. And everyone who is enjoying black Friday shopping, be safe and have fun!

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11/26/2009 12:33

Good Morning!

Bright and early here….ok, it is early but not so bright. Just after 6am and dark as night out there. Boo! I hate these dark mornings, makes me want to stay in bed. I am up early because I had a bad dream last night and then my husband had to leave to go on a call. LOL, I have so much trouble sleeping when he is not home, just to hear him snoring soothes me and puts me right to sleep!

So I am up for the day, and waiting to eat breakfast. I don’t want to eat too early since I will be going out with a friend shopping today. We are not going until 10am, and I do not want to be hungry while I am out. I will try to make sure I have some snacks or at least pick out an option for lunch. My friend is one of those people who live mostly on fast food. Burgers, fries, pop. And she is always willing to talk everyone around her into eating badly too (not a hard thing to do, I used to only need a little suggesting! LOL). She knows that I am losing weight and being healthier, and I am sure she will respect that, but she is always willing to help me be bad! Ha ha ha, I will bring some fruit and crackers with me and if all else fails, I can always get a salad.

I cannot wait to shop, I hope I am able to get most of what I need, and stay mostly pain free today. Slow and steady wins the race right?

Ok, confession time…..Had BAD night last night. I was feeling sorry for myself, and I over ate. I am not sure by how many calories, maybe about 600? Wow, that feels bad to type. I am so disappointed in myself. I ate caramel popcorn, three BIG handfuls. It was yummy (it had nuts in it too), but I felt sick afterwards. I was feeling sad yesterday and instead of reaching out and taking strength from my friends I gave into my urge to overeat. The only thing I am grateful for is the fact that I was able to stop myself. Even as I was over indulging I was thinking about how to control it. I put the popcorn in a little bowl, and moved the rest of it out of sight. When I used to binge I would have eaten right out of the container, and that would lead me to eating every last bite. So I managed to lessen the damage just a little. Today I promise to do better, I will not let myself wallow in self pity. I have options, I am worth it. I have not come all this way and done all this work to flush it all down the toilet over some stupid feelings. I just have to keep telling myself I am worth it. I Am Worth It. I AM WORTH IT!!!!!!!

Ok, I feel much better now. Hope everyone has a great day! And Happy Thanksgiving to everyone celebrating!

 

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11/25/2009 14:17

Hmmm

So today I really don’t feel like writing anything. To be honest I am feeling a bit depressed. I am missing working out, but my leg is still too sore to be able to do much. I don’t go back to work until Friday, and I hate being stuck at home doing nothing. I should take advantage and put up my Christmas tree or at least start decorating, but I am just not in the mood. So for the most part I am just sitting around feeling sorry for myself. Sorry about the whine, but it is just how I am feeling.

I am thinking I should come up with a plan to combat this, maybe a project, or planning out some activity I can do as soon as my leg is up to it. I think a nice day of Christmas shopping would be good, but I can’t hobble around the mall for very long right now. Maybe on the weekend I can get some shopping done, I hope.

Another thing I need to do is eat more veggies. I have been really slacking in that department. I have been staying within my calories, but veggies just have not been making an appearance. So tonight I will make sure there is a nice big stir fry or a salad. And I will increase my water intake. I have been finding myself thirsty most days (usually at bedtime), but have not been drinking, out of laziness and not wanting to be up peeing all night.

Hopefully a few small changes will lift my mood.

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11/23/2009 20:14

Monday

Glad EP is back, felt kinda lost without it.  Had a very long weekend. 
It started Friday evening with a mild pain in my hip/groin area, which progressed all day Saturday until Sunday morning when the pain became unbearable.  I got out of bed and went upstairs, but the time I made it to the couch I thought I was going to pass out.  So i went to the ER and they ran some tests and said it might be a blood clot and to come back Monday for an ultrasound.  So I went back in this morning and after almost 5 hours of waiting I find out that it is probably not a blood clot (Thankfully), but might be an inflamed nerve.  So no work for a couple of days and lots of rest with only moderate exercise.  Still in pain, but it is more berable since I am on anti-inflamitories.   But that means no Jillian for 4 days so far, and I think I will wait awhile before going back to her.
WI was Saturday and I lost 2lbs, which is not bad.  But I have found that my weightloss is lower with Jillian then without, is this weird?
I am so tired since I haven't been able to sleep with this pain in my leg, and am looking forward to getting a ggod nights sleep.
Hope everyone out there had a great weekend,and I will be catching up with messages later, for now I want to sleep! :)

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11/18/2009 23:21

Day 18

Wow, I am tired!  Just finished level 2, and am still finding it hard.  I think I am going to watch level 3 since I was told it is easier on the shoulders.
One of the girls at work said I inspire her.  I didn't even know what to say to that.  I am amazed that anyone could think of my that way.  It felt so good to know that because of what I am doing, she wants to improve her lifestyle as well.  I really hope that she is successful, and I will encourage her anyway that I can.  I think she is a great person, and I hope she gets where she wants to be.
 
I cannot wait for the weekend, I am making cabbage rolls!  Woohoo!  I love cabbage rolls so much, but I never have the time to make them (I don't buy them because I only really like mine own, I am picky that way).  I think I will make a double batch  (or maybe I should say quadruple since I always make double the recipe), I am hoping to have a bunch to freeze to take for lunch during the winter.  I still have to figure out the calories per roll, and that will take a bit of work since I have my own recipe.  I can't wait, i am dreaming of cabbage rolls!!!  yummy!!!
 
Have a great night!!

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11/17/2009 23:08

Day 17....

And I did level 1 today.  My shoulder is killing me today, so no planks!  Hopefully tomorrow will be better, especially because I am finding level 1 just too easy.  I tried to make sure I was pushing myself as hard as I could, and I do feel pretty good since I finished the workout. 
Busy night tonight, laundry, girl guides and hockey....plus BL tonight!! 

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11/15/2009 21:19

Day 15 down, 15 to go

Half way to be done with Jillian!  WooHoo!  I am looking forward to saying goodbye to her (at least everyday, she will stay part of my regular routine).  I honestly didn't think I would ever make it this far.  When something is hard, I am usually the first one to give up.  I really take a lot of my determination to continue from you guys.  I feel accountable to all of my fellow losers out there.  And I don't want to let you down.  So I won't quit!
Thank You!!!!!

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11/14/2009 15:20

Day 14, and still not liking this!

I have just finished shredding for the day, and I have decided level 2 sucks! lol!  It is still killer on me, which I guess is a good thing.  It means my body is being forced to change right?  I will keep up with the torture.  A few more girls are interested in trying the shred, it'll be fun to have more people to suffer with, haha! 
I have actually started to see changes in my body from doing this workout, which I love!  I know it is from the workout and not just losing weight, my body is getting nice shape to it.  Especially my butt! As I gained weight before my butt got flatter and flatter, and even with losing weight it has stayed pretty flat, but now with Jillian I have a nice curve!  I love the curve to my butt!  I am so proud of it, there is all the work, all the sweat and all the pain right there, for all to see (if i ever get around to buying pants that fit me!).  It is so worth all the work to get this feeling.  This may sound so corny and stupid but, I almost feel like I am falling in love with myself.  Where have I been all my life??? Lol
Now one part of my challenge I did fail......I have weighed myself.  During the past 14days I have come to realise that weighing myself is something that will always have to be part of my regular life.  when i am not weighing myself I very easily slip into the mind set that now of my effort is worth anything and feel the urge to eat OR  I figure that I am not weighing my self for awhile so if I over eat today, I can lose it tomorrow.  I am so out of control when I don't have that visual remind when i feel weak.  So my scale has been returned to me and I am much happier.
 
So that means WI today!!  And I am down 5.5lbs in two weeks.  I really thought it would be more considering Jillian everyday and I am sticking within my calories mostly (there have been a couple of days I have gone over but NEVER more then 1800).  I don't mean to sound like I am complaining, I am happy with a loss, especially since I was driving myself crazy without a scale!!!
I have to grab a quick shower and then off to hockey!  My daughter is at her camp until tomorrow, and I feel like I have lost my right arm.  I can't wait til I can go get her!
Have a great weekend! 

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11/12/2009 22:31

Day 12

And I did level 2 today, not level 1 like I was thinking.  It is even a little bit easier today.  Boy can I ever feel it in the back of my thighs! 
I am so happy tomorrow is Friday, this week sure has gone by fast!

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11/11/2009 15:28

Day 11, 19 days to go!

Just finished level 2 again, and it was harder today then yesterday???  I think tomorrow I might end up doing level 1.  I am working a day shift tomorrow and my shoulder is always very sore after and level 2 has too many moves where there is a lot of weight on the shoulders.  As long as I do Jillian, that is all that matters, even if I only did level 1 the whole month, I would still feel that I had completed the challenge.
 
I am sicker today then yesterday.  My throat is killing me, and I have had a headache for about 2 days now.  It seems like everyone is sick right now.  Last night 3 of us at work were sick (3 out of 5).  So lots of vitamin C, and water, and maybe some rest.
I am taking my son to the doctor today (he needs a new perscription), and then off shopping to buy the rest of my daughters' Hanna Montana gear.  Then cleaning and laundry.  what fun....
Happy Weds, almost Friday!!! 

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