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  • Name: Corrie28
  • City: Saint Catharines
  • Region: Ontario
  • Country: Canada

My Weight Loss

Height: 167.6cm
Start weight: 283.00lb
Current weight: 272.00lb
Goal weight: 150.00lb
Lost to date: 11.00lb
Remaining: 122.00lb

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06/16/2011 22:11

One of those days...

Hey! Just a quick note to say I'm still around.  I am counting my calories (1800 a day), and walking 8km most days.  I am also doing biggest loser on the xbox.  I don't way in until tomorow so I am not entirely sure what my weight is right now. 
I have had a bad day today, I still have about 600 calories left for dinner...but mentally I want to EAT!!!!  I have let myself indulge a little, but I am trying so hard to stay in control.  For me weightloss is all in my head.  If I can get my mind straight I have no trouble being successful and sticking to plan.  The most I can focus on right now is getting through today without completely blowing it.  I will try and get back on tomorow to do a proper catch up.  For now take care and keep losing!

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04/27/2011 17:20

Still Thinking.....

Managed to make it on two days in a row!!!  Lol, only because I am putting off my house work!
Got a phone call last night that gave me something to think about.  A girl from work is leaving in the end of May and that means that there will be a full-time position opening up.  There are only four full-time postions in my department, and it may be years before another spot opens.  Full-time means only 3 evenings at the most a month and only working weekends once every 6 weeks.  Very tempting.....the only drawback is that if I apply for and get the position I have to go back to work for June 1st, which is almost six months early from my mat leave. 
It is something that I really want to fully consider.  I love my job, and want to be full-time.  On the other hand I want to spend the summer with my kids, this is a time I can never get back.  I am 99% sure that I am going to choose to stay home, I am just a little sad that this position didn't come up towards the end of the year.  I know that if I apply for the position, I will get it, as I am the most quailified, and I want the hours.  I don't like the thought of one of the newbies getting it over me or even worse, them hiring someone new......But I need to get my priorities straight.  My family is number one, and they need me, work can wait.  One day I will get full-time because I want it, I have no doubt.  So my decision is made.
 
Didn't get any exercise yesterday, was going to go out for a walk and then it started to thunder and pour, so I stayed in.  It is suppose to rain today, but so far it is warm and sunny, so I am hoping to get in a nice long walk today.  My eating has not been so great because there is still Easter candy around, but I think the last of it will disappear today.  We didn't give the kids very much this year, since I didn't want it around for weeks.  We mostly got them outdoor stuff and some new clothes.  I think I will set up the badminton set they got this afternoon if it doesn't rain so we can have a game.  Sounds like a plan!!
Have a Happy Hump Day!!

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04/26/2011 15:35

A bit scatter-brained today!

Hello!  I know it has been awhile since I have been on...and I have all the usual excuses! LOL, been busy and depressed :(
My weight has stayed about the same, no real change.  I have been getting out and walking most days, which is really nice.  The weather has been crap.  Cold and rainy, I just want to see sunlight!
Baby is doing good.  She is getting so big, and she is so sweet.  Hubby and I are actually thinking of having another one.  We have decided to not try to prevent having another baby.....if it is meant to be it will be!
In the mean time, it is time to start focusing on me again.  With all the changes and being busy, I have lost me.  It's time to start remebering who I am again!
Went to a Zumba class with my daughter and her Girl Guide group, and had a great time.  I felt so stupid trying to do the moves (I can't dance), but I wasn't the only one.  I think I would like to do it again, I just want to find one closer to home.  Gas is too expensive to be driving to a different city multiple times a week for a one hour class.
Once I find one Erik will watch the baby so I can go.  He is being very supportive, and willing to stay in with the baby whenever I need to get out on my own.
I think that is it today.  My thoughts are quite scattered...and writing is quite an effort!  LOL!

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01/23/2011 18:50

Busy.......???

I see that I haven't posted in 11 days.  I want to try and post at least twice a week.  So I will do my best.
Things are crazy busy right now.  Not only do I have an eight week old baby to take care of, we moved into a new house just a few days before she was born and I am still unpacking.  Plus, we are renovating our old house as the girl we are renting it to is moving in March 1st. So lots and lots to do all the time.
I am doing my best to stay within my calories, but I will admit I had a couple of days last week when I went over them.
I have not been exercising as much as I want either, with all the work on the houses and with the baby and my two older kids.
I figure everyday I will try a bit harder then the last and not beat myself up over my failures.  As long as the scale keeps moving down I am counting it as a success.  I will lose this weight one pound at a time!!!
That's all I have time for today, heading to our old house to work on the plumbing, floor, and start painting!!
Have a great day!

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01/12/2011 20:33

So....I have returned

So, it's been awhile.  My life has changed quite a bit the last 9 months or so.
Six weeks ago I gave birth to my beautiful daughter Iva.
I managed to put on a whole lot of weight during my pregnancy, which I cannot wait to take off!
At the end of my pregnancy I was about 305lbs, and am now aroung 277, I still have 40lbs to go before I am back to my prepregnancy weight.
I have been counting my calories and trying to hit about 2000 (I need an extra 500 a day since I am breastfeeding, which is why I am not doing 1500).
I have starting exercising today!  I wanted to wait until the six week mark as my joints were loose from being pregnent and it takes about six weeks for the to tighten up again.
So back to it.  I have had to readjust my goals, and there is no way that I can devote as much time as I used to to exercise.
It is winter and snowing, and cold, so no outdoor exercise for me.  I am doing dvds, and am going to aim to do one video at least three times a week.  Once the warmer weather is here I will be doing lots of walking.  As it is now, when the temp is around 0 and there is not too much wind, I head outside.
I think that is about all for today, I hope to get back on this site regularly, but I can make no promises.  The baby is pretty good must of the time, but I cannot type and hold her at the same time!
Have a great day everyone, it's good to be back!!

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04/19/2010 14:55

Growing waist, shrinking weight???

Hello fellow EP’er’s! Happy Monday! Worked yesterday, and was late getting out as the person who worked before me left a lot of her work for me to do. Did not help that I didn’t sleep very well the night before and I was feeling sick. So at 6:30am when I saw her note and all that she left for me, I was pretty pissed. LOL, over it now, but it sucked then!

Working again tonight and tomorrow night, then off Wednesday and then working days until my next day off Sunday. I hate having only one day off at a time, I never get anything done.

I have been eating so much, I am sick of it! LOL. I never thought I would see the day where I just don’t want to eat anymore! I am having to eat as soon as I feel hungry otherwise I get sick to my stomach. I feel like I am constantly stuffing my face. 2000 calories is a lot. And even with all those calories, my scale is still being my friend. Going down, down, down. And yet my waist and hips are getting bigger and bigger (about 2 inches gained on each area). So where is this weight coming off from??? LOL, a mystery!

It is a little depressing that all those new clothes I was able to fit into are now too small. Thank goodness I still have at least one bag of fat clothes that I haven’t given away yet. I have to go through them today, and I will keep my fingers crossed that there are pants in it!

Anyway, I have to get ready for the day. Have a good one folks!

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04/16/2010 12:36

Much better today!

Good morning! Up bright and early here as I couldn’t sleep. Took the second test today and yes, another positive.

I told my hubby last night, and it went so well, it scared me. LOL. He took the news much better then I did, and he was all smiles and laughing.

Thanks you all for the wonderful support you showed me yesterday, I really appreciate it.

So, the panic is over. Now it is time to get to the nitty gritty of it. We are looking at a house today, bigger then ours and a better neighbourhood. Fingers crossed. Our house right now is already to small for the four of us, I don’t think we can fit five! LOL

I did WI today, expecting a gain, but it turns out I am down one pound. Pretty good, I’ll take it. I have upped my calorie intake, and am aiming to hit about 2000 a day (my body burns about 2400 at this weight and activity level, so it is still minus calories). !500 just was not enough as I was starving everyday for the past two weeks. I am having plenty of nausea so mornings have been hard for the past week or so, and I am glad I know why.

I will catch up more later as I have to head out to physic. Have a good one!

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04/15/2010 18:12

Ok, lots of whining on this one. Feel free to skip.

Ok, today’s entry is gonna be a bit of a hard for me because the news has not sunk in yet.

I have figured out why I am suddenly gaining, am not feeling well, and so hungry all the time. I’m pregnant. I don’t even know what to think right now. We weren’t planning on having anymore kids, and we have just been starting to enjoy the freedom of having older children who can be left on their own for short periods of time. What am I going to do??

I have been crying since I found out, and can’t believe that it is true.

I know it sounds like this is a bad thing…but it is not. I have wanted another baby for so long, but my husband doesn’t want anymore kids. So over the years after a lot of crying and arguing, I finally accepted the fact that I would never have another baby. I had finally found peace with the idea of that. This just turns my whole world upside down.

I have finally got my shit together and am doing right for me, and now this to deal with. How do I maintain my weight loss and have a healthy pregnancy? I am so scared.

I haven’t told anyone yet, not even my husband. I don’t know what to say. I don’t know how he will react. I am hoping he will be ok about (I don’t think he would ever really be “happy” about it), I think worst case scenario would be anger. Not that he would ever hurt me, but blame me YES.

I am so lost right now. I have been walking around with a positive pregnancy test in my pocket all day, and I keep looking at it thinking it can’t be real…must be defective. I have a second one that I will take when I am ready to make sure.

For now I am just going to sit in my living room and cry the rest of the day away (after picking up some prenatal vitamins). I will have to walk in to the doctors to get a referral to an ob/gyn, since my doctor does not have an open appointment until June 3. Crazy!

Anyway, thanks for listening to me whine. Take care of yourselves!

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04/13/2010 18:26

physic...not quite

Hello everyone!! Beautiful, sunny day here, and I just got back from taking the dogs for a good long walk.

I don’t know what is going on with my weight this week. The scale is saying that I have put on almost 5 lbs in the past 3 days. What is up with that??? So I have been guzzling water hoping this will just go away in time for WI (which is Friday this week and until the end of Raspberry’s challenge). Keeping my fingers crossed, and my water glass full! LOL.

Lots of walking the past few days as the weather is so nice. Not so much of the jogging, I know I need to do more of it, so I will make an improvement this week.

Had my first physio session yesterday, and it was ok. My shoulder is killing me today. The exercises they gave me to do are not easy, but I will do them 3 times a day, like I am suppose to. They also did ultrasound on my shoulder for pain relief. Apparently the sound waves are suppose to reduce the inflammation. I hate to admit it, but after it was done, my shoulder did feel pretty good. I have to go back on Friday for another session. I wonder if it will be ultrasound again or some other therapy. Whatever it takes to help with the pain.

I am off to get ready for work (evenings all week). Have a great day!

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04/10/2010 16:19

!!!

Hey, I just realized that I am at my halfway mark! Or as close to it as I can get since there is that pesky half a pound on there. Only 87 lbs to go until I am at goal. Wow, doesn’t that feel great to type. I now have LESS then a hundred pounds to go! Yaaaa!! I am so proud of myself right now. I never thought I would make it this far. As my weight continues to drop I keep thinking “this is it, my body won’t go any farther.. I am not going to get any skinnier, better enjoy this weight.” LOL, and I do enjoy every weight I have been as I am getting smaller. I feel slim and healthy. I still have a long way to go, but I am going to love every pound until it is gone. Then I will wave bye bye and never see it again!!! WOOO!

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