Each New Day Is A Whole New Me

My weight loss struggles and success'

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  • Name: coffeebeancutie
  • City: San Angelo
  • Region: Texas
  • Country: United States

My Weight Loss

Height: 160.0cm
Start weight: 220.00lb
Current weight: 210.00lb
Goal weight: 130.00lb
Lost to date: 10.00lb
Remaining: 80.00lb

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04/15/2010 19:43

Here Comes Reality!

Do you remember when you first moved out? First decided to venture out on your own, away from mommy and daddy (tho you always knew they were not far away, yet you are so stubborn you choose not to use their help when you need it lol)
 
I moved out (across the street...DIRECTLY across the street from mom and dad) anyways, lol... I moved out when I was 17, I had a taste of what being on my own was like.. I learned 2 things... Get a place with a peephole (had a really bad theft experiance), and get a roomate, it reduces lonelyness lol....

So I just talked to USAA... Definately satisfied with what I'm hearing... Its time I take over that responsibility. I pay for my phone and for my clothes, gas and misc. things... Things I do not pay for are my house *its my parents* food, and car insurance.... I'm trying to branch out.... I'm hoping to move back out in the next two months with a friend of mine... Hopefully all goes well... I feel really good! I have a job interview for a residents assistant position at an elderly living facility at 3pm! I hope all goes well!!! I really really want this job!!!! :D I only have 2 more subjects left till I get my diploma (dumb procrastination from homeschooling on my part)

I feel like my life is on a good course... I'm pleased and my weightloss proves that! :) I Bested Mr. Scale today! Lost another pound!!! :D 1more pound to go till I reach that 10lb weightloss goal!!! Then another 10lbs to go till thats 20pounds!!!!!
 FINGERS CROSSED FOR ME FRIENDS!!!!  

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04/15/2010 15:58

I wish I could just WISH the weight away!

    Well for the next two months I'm going to try my hardest to be a bombshell for him when I see him at him Naval graduation day... my goal is 30lbs in 2 months! Do you think I can do it?  I think I can! :D  30 POUNDS HERE I COME!!!!!!!! :D wait... I mean 30 POUNDS THERE YOU GO!!!!!!!!!!! LOL

I have been waking up every hour on the hour since 3. My mind wont shut down.. So finally I got up at 5:30... Sat and pulled up TIVO and Watched The Notebook... Now I'm watching what little I have of the 1971 film "Fiddler on the Roof"... I've always loved this movie...

I need to weigh myself... but I'm hesitent, because I have been really good this past few days, and I dont want to be disappointed if the results are not what I am expecting... I just have to remember this is a slow process, and this isnt going to happen overnight... Although I wish it would :(  I've never been one to commit myself to suffering... lol... I LOVE FOOD! And I know I can still eat wonderful things, and its all about portion control and eating the right good food... But I love BAD FOOD! LOL... THATS my issue... but I'm doing better :) Better than I have in a really long time.
 
I just dont know how it got so bad?! How can I let myself go so badly that I gained 40lbs in six months.... Thats the bad thing about bad relationships, they affect you and sometimes you dont even realize it till its too late. :( But the past is the past... And only when YOU decide to push forward and move on in life, only THEN can you change things :D And I've Decided!!!  I'm 19, I have my whole life ahead of me...
 
I need a job... I want something in the field of caring for children or the elderly. I applied to be a Resident Assistant yesterday... If I dont hear back, I'll give it a week and then call then and see if they have decided anything, or even considered me yet. I really hope I get that job! That on top of my babysitting and on top of my Dove Chocolate Business, I think I can make it in this world for the most part lol. I hope everything goes ok.
 
Today I am going to get a P.O. box, I'm tired of my mail coming to the house for everyone to be privy too.. Because my parents still think they are privy to reading my mail... Well not necissarily reading it... but the usual nosey, whos that from? who are they? what did they want? what did they write? why wont you tell me? lol... parents... how do I love the.
 
Ok.... I shall face you scale... Here it goes....

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04/13/2010 23:12

The Navy beckoned.. And he answered.. Now I'm lonely...

*sighs*  He is off to bootcamp for 2months :( I am going to be soooooo lonely.... I spend every waking moment thinking about him :(

But I am DETERMINED to loose a TON of weight before the next time he sees me!!! :D

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04/08/2010 11:17

Fast Food Demons!!!!

Fast food wastes my money and doesnt help me loose weight... and I have been eating to much of it! And I am CRAVING it right now! HELP!!!!! I need a straight jacket!!! Take away my money!!!! I'm not going to do it... I'm not going to do it... I'm not going to do it... I'm not going to do it....No...No...No...No... ok... I think im ok... *sighs of relief* whew! That was a close call!
 
Ok so I need more water... Does anyone have any suggestions as on how I can drink more water? I just dont seem to drink enough... and the funny thing is if I were to drink diet coke or diet this or that, I can drink it all day long... but when I limit myself to water only, its like I dont drink anything during the day at all... I mean at meal times when I do get a drink I'll have water, but other than that its just like I'm not thirsty, so I dont think about it. :-/
 
I think I need to get some slimfast.... I'm going to be better from now on!

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04/05/2010 09:19

Rant and Raves from a Hormonal Maniac...

Ok so weird moment... And I am honestly not sure why I got so unbelievably mad... But I did! Story:
 
I have been seeing the love of my life for two years, he lives in Cali, I live in Texas.      
    
     So last night I found somthing really interesting and funny, and had alot of funny things to tell him about it. So during our nightly phone call tonight, I start talkin about it, got interupted for a split second by my dog (I had to let him out of the room) so I go back to talkin about it, and he interupts me and says ya honey, I know how it works they talked about it on the news...
    
     Which was NOT what I was going to say, and it just pissed me off... It was such a stupid a miniscule comment he made and it seriously made me madder than a firey torment! He didnt say it mean or cruel or like he didnt care or anything. But that just turned me off from telling him anything about it. It was such a 5year old moment! I have never gotten like this with him, and we were absolutely fine 5seconds before he made that remark.
 
      So then I go silent and blah, just being "there" for the conversation, not realy there. He keeps asking if everythings ok, is everything ok... and my answer, ya, im fine. But of course I'm NOT fine, I'm TICKED OFF! And I wanna tell him, but its so stupid I dont tell him, making the conversation really rocky and we ended up just saying goodnight without our usual loveydovey kissy "love you's"
 
   He asked me what I was thinking about before we hung up, and I said honestly I'm a little ticked off.. and he said about what, and I said dont worry about it, its stupid (which in my mind im secretly praying he'll ask whats wrong again so I can tell him) so he drops it and doesnt say anything... So we hung up... and so then im staring at my phone hoping he will text me wanting to know what the problem was.... but he doesnt. so I texted him :I love you. And he texted a mushy gushy elabrate I love you back..
 
Ugh! I dont know why that pissed me off so much?! I know its so childish of me to feel this way, and this RARELY happens, especially with him. Like seriously just thinking about it is making me mad. lol, this is so stupid.

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04/05/2010 05:38

Weekend Failer....

Ugh... This weekend has been horrible... I've fallen into a downward spiral... I failed big time in trying to eat healthy... UGH!!! I'm so frustrated with myself! *sighs* Tomorrow I need to jump back on the horse, and start again.

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04/02/2010 16:25

Another Pound, Another Day!

I'm soooooo exhausted... had a looooonnnggg night last night/this morning... got no sleep.... Thats what you get when you invite ur guy friend to come over with his video games, cause he;s gotta teach you eeevvveerryyyttthhhiiinnnggg LOL.... But we had a blast! I have to go babysit from 11:30-5:30 for one family and then 6:15-10ish for another family today... I am sooooo hungry....

I LOST ANOTHER POUND!! WOOHOO!!! 3more till im at my goal of 10lbs so I can start a new 10lb goal! ugh... I need to shower...
 
ttfn.. ta ta for now!

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04/01/2010 23:29

RIP

Rest in peace Aunt Elaine - April 1, 2010 2:40pm.

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04/01/2010 20:27

"Never go against a Sicilian when death is on the line"! Ha ha!

I love Princess Bride! Three favorite movies of all times?
 
1.Fantastic Mr.Fox
2.Princess Bride
3. Twister
 
In that order lol... Random I know :P
 
I've lost another pound today!! :D That makes it a total of 6! I've decided I'm going to start going back to the gym... ugh... lol... it wont be so bad. I think the most motivation at this point is my sister. She is 22 years older than me and we look sooooo much alike. Everyone always tells me, wow you look just like your sister did when she was your age... So my sister started the pill Phentrimene 2 days after I did, and she's lost 8 pounds! ugh! Two more than me... So i think that has given me a BIG boost of motivation... I want to loose more than her lol.
 
My bathroom still needs painted, and my room still needs cleaned . ick.. I'm working for my mom and dad while they are Driving to Oregon. Thats where my aunt is. They have a 2day drive ahead of them, and they left  @4am this morning. The doctors said they dont know if they will make it in time, because shes swiftly fading, and they are just trying to make her comfortable. I hope my mom gets to be with her when she passes. I'm upset because I know my mom is upset. My aunt and I have never had a close relationship. I hardly remember her growing up, and even when we did see her it wasnt for very long.Come to think of it, I dont have much of a relationship with any of my aunts and uncles, everyone lives so far away, and we just dont see them much.
 
Things I need to do today:
Get back to work LOL
Go to walmart and buy a day planner
Clean room
Go to the gym and reactivate my membership
Hang out with Tony for some XBOX fun :)
 
Today is just one of those days where I just do not want to be working... ugh...
 
I finally bought a water bottle and have been carrying it around with me. Which is good because I havent been drinking enough water, and now I am :D Yay!

QUESTION OF OPINIONS: Do you think you are still getting the recommened daily water intake if you add crystal light packets?

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03/31/2010 16:12

I'm not sure why I love Tuesdays

Babysat this morning, poor lil fella has a urinary track infection, but he's on meds, and his daddys takin good care of him :)

I still need to get those fliers out, ugh...
 
YAY!!!!!!!!! I lost 2 more pounds!!!! Thats 5 down and 5 to go till im able to set a new 10lb goal! :D

I got my car registration stickers :) dumb thing is... I have acrylic nails and I cant get the previous sticker off with them LOL.. So I've gotta get a scraper of my dad to do it.
 
I'm soooo unbelievably exhausted... I think I shall nap for a bit.
 
ttfn- ta ta for now

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