This is crazy

Postscript to last blog entry:

Ok.  Now that I have had  lunch and had some time to reflect, I can look back on my last blog entry and make the following comments/observations...

I have been so irritable today.  It is not acceptable.  It is going to cause me trouble at work, with my friends, and with my family members.  I can not be snapping at people because I am stressed out over what has been going on in my life. 

The bottom line is that I can not let the number worry me so much.  I know that I am always concerned with written records - what is down on paper - and that is why I am so concerned about what the weigh in is on Saturday.  If I have gone above my goal weight (which is doubtful) I know that I will get back down.  So that is not the problem.  The problem for me is having the little WW book and the WW card at the center say plus ______ and have the _______ be a big number.  Even though I technically have to gain at least 2 to be within 2 of goal.  It is about my reputation. What will the receptionists think?  What will my group think?  Will they lose confidence in me?  Will I no longer be their role model?  OF COURSE NOT - it is ridiculous of me to think those things - but that is how I am.  But I need to stop worrying about that.  The important thing is that I am where I want to be and I have accomplished a lot.  That cannot be erased by one number written on a piece of paper.