grumble, grumble
weight loss is no easy thing for me. i'm not eating enough, you see. when i diet, i become averse to food. i can't eat anything good, so why bother? that's my thinking. and a few days out of town is usually a great thing because there's fabulous food to be had. only that didn't happen. i mostly existed on cracklin' oat bran, that i'd thoughtfully brought with me. was at a business conference and walked for miles and miles and miles and thought for sure i would have dropped 5 pounds from all the walking and sweating. but no. actually, i did. just haven't kept perfect record of my weight since it popped up two pounds from the earlier 188 i weighed a few weeks ago.
such a struggle. is it worth it? i dunno. never been thin. what's THAT like anyway? maybe it's better than always being the biggest woman in the group. or feeling like a hog when you go into a dressing room to try on new clothes and have to see yourself in those three-way mirrors.