11/06/2011 17:05
...and here we go again!
I'm back and I have to make this work. After losing about 15 pounds on my rounds, I'm sad...no...ashamed!...to say that I've regained about 11 of those pounds. I've put myself back on hCG as of today because if I don't lose weight, I will be at 300 by Christmas. This is my favorite time of year and every year, like clockwork, I gain anywhere from 10-20 pounds between Halloween and Valentine's Day. My goal this year is to avoid any gain and, hopefully, start the New Year a bit leaner.
It's funny how I can lie to myself. As the clothes that I purchased after the 18 pound loss started to get tighter, I kept making excuses. The jeans were tight because I just washed them...my knees and ankles were hurting again because I insisted on carrying my 2 year old more that I should...my skin was breaking out again because my hormones must be changing because I'm older. I had a reason for every thing that was letting me know I was gaining weight, but I totally would NOT get on a scale until this morning - so deep down I knew what the cause was.
So here we go again. After my first hCG round I found it too hard to do it again successfully. It's a damn difficult diet plan that works, but it's tedious. I'm just going to have to suck it up. If I can get down about 30-40 pounds on a few rounds of hCG, then I'll switch to WW to get down the rest. I just need a good buffer between me and 300 pounds. Blogging, I hope, will help me to stick to my goal. It kind of keeps me accountable. (Notice I haven't been on here while I was backsliding?)
So here's hoping I muster the willpower from somewhere. Maybe I'll print out that recent pic of me where I looked like a squirrel hiding nuts in her cheeks. Or that one picture from a recent party that was taken of me from behind. Talk about your eye openers. Good luck to everyone else! Have a great week!
It's funny how I can lie to myself. As the clothes that I purchased after the 18 pound loss started to get tighter, I kept making excuses. The jeans were tight because I just washed them...my knees and ankles were hurting again because I insisted on carrying my 2 year old more that I should...my skin was breaking out again because my hormones must be changing because I'm older. I had a reason for every thing that was letting me know I was gaining weight, but I totally would NOT get on a scale until this morning - so deep down I knew what the cause was.
So here we go again. After my first hCG round I found it too hard to do it again successfully. It's a damn difficult diet plan that works, but it's tedious. I'm just going to have to suck it up. If I can get down about 30-40 pounds on a few rounds of hCG, then I'll switch to WW to get down the rest. I just need a good buffer between me and 300 pounds. Blogging, I hope, will help me to stick to my goal. It kind of keeps me accountable. (Notice I haven't been on here while I was backsliding?)
So here's hoping I muster the willpower from somewhere. Maybe I'll print out that recent pic of me where I looked like a squirrel hiding nuts in her cheeks. Or that one picture from a recent party that was taken of me from behind. Talk about your eye openers. Good luck to everyone else! Have a great week!
