Lose weight that is. Is this your typical new year resolution? Maybe. I would say no. The timing has less to do with the new year and more to do with the fact that I have hit my fat limit. I'm going to put 10 weightloss comandments and at the end of the day I have to see whether I have adhered to them or not. Starting tomorrow not today because today I have a party. Here they go:
1. Thou shall not eat Maltese Bread.
2. Thou shall not have butter spread on anything - only allowed in small amounts in cooking.
3. Thou shall not have chocolate.
4. Thou shall not have more than 1 glass of wine or 1 beer when we go out.
5. Thou shall say no to dessert.
6. Thou shall walk or swim for 30 mins each day.
7. Thou shall do 100 sit ups a day.
8 Thou shall do 30 push ups a day.
9. Thou shall do some stretching everyday.
10. Thou shall drink 6 glasses of water every day.
6 glasses might seem few for most of you but I've been not drinking anything by decaf tea these last 2 months and it's cold so let's go with 6. At the beginning of each day I will report on how many sins I've committed the day before. So let's give this a trial run until the 10th January and see the balance/imbalance. Enjoy your New Year's Eve my dear friends. Here in Malta's it's super exciting this year because Malta changes it's currency from the traditional Lira to the Euro currency tonight and as from tomorrow we have new coins, paper money etc... Everything will be x 2.33 which will inflate the bank accounts figures but also the mortgage figure - lol. Have a grand 2008 opening.
after getting the 'I could have done without buying' outfit, the weather yesterday was horrible so we did not go to the function it was bought for. The top I'm happy I bought cause it's really nice. The pants, I'm bummed I bought them for nothing as the only reason I bought them was because the others were tight and while I'll wear the top again, the pants will probably just hang in there since I'm going to lose some weight and fit in all the others, right?
Tracy posted a blog that hit home with quite a few people. As I commented on her blog, it was not the same for me. I've never been more than 20lbs overweight except for when I went to Australia after which I came back 40lbs overweight with allthe food I ate. I always felt sort of fat because the girls I played with in volleyball were stick thin to the limit. And that does tend to raise some physical self-esteem issues. We used to shower after the games, sometimes in open showers and be naked all around and at first it used to bother me but after a while I just let it all hang there, flesh and all and accepted the fact that I would never be like them. I did go down to low weights but my body structure with my big hips was never like their non-existantbumps physiques. So I became much less inhibited about my naked body and do accept it. Strangely enough I have more issues with my clothed body than my naked body. Sure, when I get to 75kg like now that I must be aroudn 77kg, my naked body starts getting to me too, but my clothed body is the one that gets to me - the one that needs to find appropriate clothes and go to shop and fit in the wardrobe I have, some of which was ambitiously purchased for when I lose a couple of kg. A guy I dated also told me that my body looks fatter in clothes than outside it and while some of you might say that is obvious because you are adding piles of clothes to it, clothes should hide stuff not make it look bigger. Maybe I do not choose the right clothes? but as those of you with big hips in relatiion to waist know, that is such a lethal combination of how to buy right fitting pants and skirts that fit at the waist without being painfully tight at the hips or fit at the hips without having a huge waist to contend with at the top end of things.
Relaxing day today. Yesterday finished the programming part of my JAVA Assignment about which I'm a bit worried because, although I think I have fulfilled anything the brief asked me to do, it looks a bit too simplistic. Still a lot of work to do there with the programme explanation and testing. But it was something I needed to do to start me off since said assignment is due tomorrow week.
reached the dreaded point where I have a function tomorrow and anything that would be appropriate does not fit. I do have some evening dresses that fit but this is not an evening dress thing and all my suits just wouldn't close up!!! So this morning I have to go buy something for tomorrow. Ijust have to pick up myself from this weight gain state and move downwards. Strangely enough I don't feel panicked or bad about it which is good because I do not need to feel negative about mysefl but not good because panic is one thing that puts me in action.
So, I feel I do need to start leaving my footprints at the gym again. I read your blogs, especially Tracy's and Angel and I go, my God, she should be disappearing not losing weight with all the physical exercise they get in their day. Run, weights, machines, etc... I could tell you that financially, things are as tight as my clothes and that was a major reason why the membership was not renewed when it closed in November, and it would be the truth. But walking is free, situps is free, stretching on my dusty pilates mat is free and I don't even do that. Sometimes I fit in some walking out of pure guilt. I'm just being plain lazy.
Benazir Bhutto, the Pakistani lady, is dead. Most of the world is shocked although everyone who follows world news knew, including herself, that it was a question of when not if. It does make me wonder how one person can dedicate herself so much to a cause knowing with absolute certainty that death is a major possibility every single day. Sure enough we all know that death is a possibility every single day but for these people who put themselves out there for a cause they believe in, their odds are hugely increased by such activities. There is an other Korean lady whose name now escapes me who has given up everything, including her family in England I believe, to fight for her cause in her homeland. There is a book I want to read about it by Britain Prime Minister Gordon Brown about 6 or 8 such amazing people. Just wanted to share these thoughts with you on this windy, cold morning which will see me hunting for something nice that fits in about 90 mins.
to all of you. I hope you all spent a good Christmas with your families. I won't talk about food as most of us have indulged and those who haven't, well, life is short. I've decided not to post any weight until the 10th of January when I hope to at least post 74kg again which is the listed weight on my blog right now but, I'm afraid, not my actual weight. I know I'l be going down after this, not because of some resolution or another, but because I get dangerously close to nothing fits zone and I can't afford a new wardrobe. So there is the motivation for me.
Have been super busy and will continue to be as a JAVA assignment I've had for 2 months is now due in 2 weeks and I started it yesterday. You know how sometimes you've got something you keep postponing until, well, you cannot postpone it any longer. We keep waiting for the required inspiration until inspired we just have to get to hand in the work. To my defense I was busy doing other things. I worked very hard to set up my very first website - www.fisecmalta.org So happy if some ofyou can spare 5 mins to go through it and let me know what they think. There are a lot of things that could have been done better, of course, it's my first attempt. I have only finished the english version so I still have to work on the French, Spanish and Italian version. But not before I hand in my JAVA assignment.
So love you all. We have eaten and joined in the fun. I guess I'll start weaning myself off the chocolate and start saying no to desserts. Have a great end of 2007 - either you enjoy it now or you'll never have the opportunity again. I'll go catch up on some of you now.
the story goes. Well, I've been absent for a few days cause I had nothing major to say. Have been lazy and eating not too bad, not too good. Don't have a lot of parties this year but when did I ever need a party to eat more? Something I am missing this year is a nice evening do when I get to dress up in a cool evening dress, etc... I don't seem to have one occasion of that sort of thing. Not that I would love to have to do that a lot of times but I enjoy having one occasion like that during the holidays.
Well, getting colder here, will not tell you the temperature cause you would probably get back to me with a 'we get that temperature in summer!!!!' reply and you would be right of course. But we are a warmth spoilt country and as soon as we even get a hint of a northern wind we cry 'cccccooooooooolllllllldddddd!!!!'
My parents celebrated 43 years of marriage yesterday, God bless them and my brother celebrates 11 years of marriage today, God bless them too of course. Just something I felt like sharing.
will bring more length and strength to your willy. This is the subject of one of my gmail spam emails this Friday morning. I get so many of this stuff!!!! I feel like replying to this one with the following: - Santa is not even bringing me a willy, let alone one with length and strength!!!! So yes, I'm officially single again as my 3-date romance was stopped by mutual consent as we both admitted there is no real spark. Am I sorry? A part of me maybe, since he was a good guy but without the spark, things would have fizzled out anyway and better sooner than later. My inner wild spirit is doing sommersaults and quickly made plans with my comfy group of friends for the weekend.
Well, I was not going to post this morning. I was going to do it from home as I have my Prevention magazine there and wanted to give you a few more tips. But this email just needed commenting. Will post the tips when I get home, a good 7 hours from now.
Part 2
So here I am with the Move More tips today:
Do heel raises while waiting in line. People will think you are having a nervous breakdown but the health benefits are worth it - personal note.
Improve my posture with belly-flattening exercises
Join a walking group or hiking club
Walk with headphones that help preserve my hearing
Keep fitness equipment in sight so I am motivated to use it more.
Gain 55% more strength by trading my 5 pound dumb bells for 20 pounders
Strengthen my stride and tone my thighs with mini squats.
is better than cure, right? Well, Prevention is a magazine that I discovered a while back here in Malta, and then persuaded a local stationery to stock it for me. It's American. This month that have a list of 61 useful things to do - a sort of checklist which then indicates the page where you would be able to find more about that item. It's a very informative and interesting magazine. I will try and share a few of the tips in my blog since I had some good feedback on the margarine article I shared. Today I will go with the Gain Energy tips
Turn clocks around to avoid waking up to light at night.
Feel 10% more eneretic with active meditation.
Add iron-enriched packaged foods to your diet.
Sleep in only an hour later on weekends
So, there you are. You can also get Prevention online and they get to send you an email with the main articles.
Just came back from a good 1 hour walk now. It is a beautiful refreshing day. It is also a public holiday here in Malta - Republic day. However, I still have a JAVA programming lesson to recuperate a lesson we had missed because the lecturer was sick. So now I'll have a good long bath which I don't take often enough (a fast life dictates showers nowadays) and then go to my lecture. The temptation to take the holiday to the full and miss is big but JAVA is a subject which needs me to be present in mind and body for all the lessons to keep up with it.
I've been dating quite a bit lately. Very interesting process. At times amusing. One of the guys has actually survived 3 dates already. He is an interesting person. 3rd date was on Saturday. Sunday silence, Monday silence, Tuesday I sent an sms asking whether he was alive and kicking (literally) and he smsed a non committal answer - more like screaming and kicking. Obviously I will not make contact again and if he wants to meet again, he'll have to take the initiative. If he does, I will go out again with him but he has to be wary of playing such games with me as I'm 33, he's 37, we're far away from being teenagers playing these silly games. Whenever I go into this dating phase I always appreciate my single state more. The thing is, as it is, I'm living with myself. When one is single one is continuously developing a relationship with oneself and who I am is far better for me than most people I date. Bottom line, I find myself feeling happier living with myself than with anyone else. Of course I cannot have babies by myself but having babies is not a priority in my life. My maternal instincts are satisfied by my three nephews whom I love dearly who can also be returned to their parents after a couple of hours with their cool aunt. I can do cool for 2 hours but not for 24 hours. LOL.
I'm sure all of you have heard of Sex In The City and seen it like a zillion times. In the episode where Big marries Natashia, Carrie wonders how she could not tame Big into marrying her. But then , she realizes that maybe she was the wild spirit who wouldn't be tamed and not Big. I think that's my case because whenever I try to conform to the get married model, my inner wild spirit objects. It is an inner spirit in that I'm not party all night wild, never was, never will be. But there is an innate freedom which I'm loathe to give up and so far, only one man in my life made me feel like I could have given it up in favour of him and that one man is long gone out of my life.
Weight loss related topics - did not do great on the food front these two days -my father brought chocolate. Why do they do that? Do they believe that just because I eat it quickly, I want more? Would you give a drug addict more drugs? Still, I know I know, it's down to self-discipline. Did go walking both days though. Today weather is rotten so I'm staying put this morning and might put in a walk in the afternoon if it clears up.
What a wonderful film. I know it has been out for quite a bit now but I went to watch it yesterday with my nephew and I loved it. Those of you who have not gone to watch it, get a kid with you and go watch it.
So, weekend was ok. Weather not that great although Sunday was better and I did manage a good walk. I went down 1/2 a kilo this week so I'm happy with that given that I'm not being religious about everything.
I'm very busy with a few projects on my place. I have an assignment which I need to hand in in January for Java and I have to dig my growing nails in it. So far I have managed not to bite my nails for the last 3 weeks and the difference is visible. So I'm trying to keep up with that especially two of them who are still disgustingly short since I had bitten them most. I might book a manicure for January so that I have that to look forward to.
It's Thursday already. The week has been quite good. Only managed to walk on Monday. Tuesday and Wednesday I did not walk, today I should be meeting a friend to go for a good walk this evening. Food wise it's been better than usual, also owing to the fact that there is no chocolate in the refrigerator and therefore no temptation. My mother stocking up on chocolate is always my fall down.
What else has happened? Nothing much. Christmas fever is coming on and I'm happy to say most of my presents are ready and those that are not , I know exactly what I'm getting and from where. So I've done ok this year, I'm happy. I also managed to bribe my 7 year old nephew into telling me what my brother and his wife are getting me. Poor kid. He just wouldn't tell me until I told him that if he told me what my present is I would tell him what I got him for Christmas and he blurted it out in a way as if he was helpless against keeping the secret in. I know, I'm terrible. He's such a good kid, when my brother asked him whether he had managed to keep the secret, he just looked at him and said 'I'm sorry papa'. At which point I felt like a witch, but the feeling only lasted a couple of minutes. :)
I am also working on my last project, a website for a committee I'm in. This is the first time I'm doing a website and I wanted to do it to see whether I could learn a few new things. It's coming along nicely but there is a lot of information I want to put in and I keep working on it. So much so that today I have a painful stiff neck, totally due to incorrect posture for a long time in front of the computer.
Well that's all for today. Good rest of the week you all and stay happy.
