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| Start weight: | 168.00lb |
| Current weight: | 163.30lb |
| Goal weight: | 125.00lb |
| Lost to date: | 4.70lb |
| Remaining: | 38.30lb |
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I'm finally back home after visiting family for a week. And guess what warm welcome I get when I come home? A stomach bug, yay! Last night and today were awful, but I'm finally feeling better. It's 9:45 p.m. and I just ate for the first time today - soup. Well, other than some Sprite. Hopefully my stomach tolerates it! So it's back on the wagon now!!
But I thought I'd blog anyway to keep myself on track. I'm visiting family in Colorado and it's extremely hard to not eat everything in sight, but I'm doing okay I guess. It's just hard to be out of my normal environment that has my pantry, my food, my regular routine. Don't get me wrong, I am so happy to see my family! I just like regularity, especially when I'm trying to lose weight.
Tomorrow will be one week since I started really taking this seriously and I feel like I'm doing really well. I don't deprive myself of things (well, some things, yes.... like the donuts that were 300 cals and 18 g of fat for ONE), but I try to eat LESS of the things I love, instead of a whole box/carton/tub, ha. Anyway, our 6-year wedding anniversary was on Friday and we went out to eat sushi (YUMMMMM!), which is pretty diet-friendly. Saturday, just my husband and I went to the outlet mall while MIL watched the boys. I had a sensible meal at Chik-Fil-A that was about 400 cals and was still satisfying. I splurged a little when we went to eat BBQ that night, but I've stayed on track today. Tomorrow we fly out to Colorado to see family - yay! Now if I can just figure out how to eat healthy in an airport...
Well, I've only been at this for 4 days but I am staying on track and feeling really good. I weigh in daily, which I know some people prefer not to do, but it helps keep me motivated. I'm already seeing a change in my weight so that's even more motivation!
There are a couple of "events" that are happening this summer that are keeping me going on this whole lifestyle change thing. The first is a conference in Orlando where we will meet other families and children who are affected by the same syndrome my youngest son is. I want to be able to look halfway decent meeting these people, and I want to feel okay in a pair of shorts! So that's been my main motivator to lose weight. Well yesterday my brother-in-law, who has been enlisted in the Air Force for close to 20 years, called to ask if I would re-enlist him this summer. I was an active duty officer in the Army up until Jan 2007 and I still hold my commission in the reserves. This is such an honor! He will be out here in July and I definitely want to be about 20 pounds lighter.
I can't say that I've had weight problems my whole life - I actually could get away with eating whatever I wanted until I had babies. In college and the Army I was always around 125 so being close to 170 is hard for me to admit to. I don't feel 50 pounds heavier, until I can't fit into certain clothes or I see myself in a picture. I can't believe I've let myself gain this much weight. I just need to remember that I can't eat like I used to! I have 2 kids and am almost 30 years old... life won't ever be the same again, LOL!
I'm not gonna lie, it's been a rough day. Well, let me rewind a little... I'm a little over half-way through my master's program for nursing and the classroom portion requires a lot of writing (I start practicum in 2 weeks). I'm with my boys during the day (a 2-year-old and 1-year-old) and rarely have time to put a complete thought together, much less write a paper. So, I do my writing at night after they're in bed. This happens twice a week that I'm up until 5 a.m. - when the papers are due. The boys graciously (LOL) let me sleep until about 8:15 on a good morning. Yes, that means I function on about 3 hours of sleep twice a week. It's taking a toll on me and I cannot wait until this class is over (1.5 weeks!!). It can't be good for my weightloss either. So I'm yawning as I type this and counting down the minutes until their bedtime - bad mommy! But they are so cute and I love them so much, it doesn't matter when I see their smiling faces. 
Cheesy, I know, but it's true!
But anyway, I'm doing well with my eating and I've been using The Daily Plate (thanks to another blog I read on here) and I LOVE it! Other "calorie counters" that I've used have a very small data base and I end up entering my own items most of the time. But with TDP, every single item I've eaten today is in their database - it makes it so much easier to want to track!
The past two days I've taken the boys on walks through the neighborhood and to the park. With a double stroller, a 20 lb boy, and a 30 lb boy, that's some serious pushing when we go uphill! I don't know if we'll go for another walk tonight or if I'll just use the treadmill. I'm leaning toward staying home, but either way I'm determined to get some exercise!
I have seen other people set mini-goals with rewards and I think that would help keep me motivated.... sooo I think I'll give it a try. Right now I'm about 168 lbs.
160 lbs. ..... Pedicure/Manicure (I have a gift certificate so it's FREE, yay!)
150 lbs. ..... New running shoes
140 lbs. ..... New workout clothes
130 lbs. ..... Full body massage
120 lbs. ..... New wardrobe!! And I also want us to get some family pictures done... My youngest was 3 months old in the last ones we had!
I picked the title "Give me a second" because that seems to be my motto in life... whether my husband is trying to drag me out of bed or pull me away from the computer. And I always take longer than a second. So I should have known the same theme would continue in my weight loss. It's been 3 months and I've made no progress. The last couple of weeks I've had a couple of eye-openers though... (1) 2 weeks ago, a stranger asked me how "far along" I was, UGH!!! (2) I tried to put on size 12 shorts yesterday and could not get them fastened. These are the same shorts that I wore 3 months after my now 1-year-old was born. Aren't I supposed to be SMALLER than I was 3 months postpartum?? Well, yeah... if I didn't stuff my face with food! Okay, the pity party is over. On with my weightloss!!!
Okay I'm really ready this time. Really. I'm tired of being fat. I cannot believe I've let myself get this heavy.... 50 pounds heavier than I was on my wedding day 6 years ago.
I was listening to a devotional in the car yesterday and this is part of what was said: God tells us that if we want to transform our lives, let him renew our mind. A personal relationship with the Lord allows us to think beyond the limits of our human mind. Romans 12:2 tells us this: "And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may prove what the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable, and perfect."
Well, I may be far from perfect, but I can certainly change things in my life to be good and acceptable. 
