A moments peace

Ok, so I have the kids in bed, the husband in bed..and well..Yall can now call me Patches...cause I have pulled my hair out in patches! I am sitting here praying for a moments peace! I am praying that the germs stay away from me...Mommas can never have down time!

I have done well taking care of the others today, and havent done so well for myself. I tried to eat a salad..and well I have had 22 ozs of water today...yea, I know...but its so hard to concentrate on me, when im cleaning a bathroom because one of them miss the potty, and there is yack every where! Its not something you really want to eat after! lol.

We were supposed to have a dinner for my moms birthday tomorrow, but I dont think I am going to subject my family to the germs that are lingering! lol...

I feel bad for not leaving you guys many posts today but omg, its been a day...! Hope you all are wonderful...take care!

Spare trash can anyone?

Oy, Can the day get any better? The kid that was sick is feeling, great. Other kid is now sick, puking all over the place. And to top it off, hub just showed up and said...I left work because Im throwing up. And if any of you know..Men are the biggest babies! So I may have to say 20 hail marys, even though im not catholic!

I am still keeping a great attitude. My water intake is a little low at this point because I havent had time to do much. I just got everyone settled, and im hoping to catch up! lol..*holds hand to head....must have waterrrr!  Yea, yea...I know i deserve an Emmy.

I am still in awe that so many people that dont "know" each other can come together to support each other in such magnifiscent ways. Its awesome! We have such a good strong group here. So many personalities, so many different people.!!  WE ROCK!

Keep Smiling!

Gail

OMG

First and foremost...I want to say thank you all for the wonderful messages I received about yesterdays post! It has meant a lot to me for your support, encouragement and shared stories!

Second, I had to stop by the drs today...and needless to say, he told me just for giggles to hop on the scale. I was hesitant since it wasnt the time I was supposed to get weighed. Anyway...I got on the scale, and i had to rub my eyes...to my amazement. I was down 8 lbs in 10 days! yes 8 POUNDS! I thought I was going to need CPR. At least I was in the right place for it! I still didnt want to believe it...Hub and I took a trip to Walmart..and I went over to the scale section, and was pulling scales in the floor to make sure I wasnt seeing things! lol..and yep 8 lbs.

It is amazing what happens when we change our life style, and think of ourselves sometimes! I am so truly thankful that I have you all to share this with! Have a wonderful day!

Gail

Life is short

Life is short. A friend of mine got married 2 weeks ago and sent me the wedding pictures today. Looking at them made me so happy for her. Then I got to pictures of her and her dads dance. My heart then began to break! Happy for her, yet aching for me. I got married almost 4  years ago, and several months before my wedding my father was killed in the line of duty (police). All I could think of was how I wish he were here to give me away, to dance with me, to tell me I was beautiful! While my day was still beautiful, there was a part of me missing!

I guess what made me think of this is...there are so many things my dad wanted to accomplish but never got the chance to. Granted he left a job of 20 plus years, to get his GED, and become his lifes dream, a police officer. There were things he regretted not doing.

I decided that I am going to apply this to my life. And live to the fullest, I cant regret not doing things. I have to accomplish my goals. Weight loss a big one of them. I cant look back on my life and say..there is so much i wanted to do and didnt, for one reason or another. I will, I must! There is no time like the present.

Sorry for the sentiment today, but honestly its the thing that has been coming back to me all day...Live life to the fullest, and never have regrets!

Gail

Life less learned hard

Who said A little indulgence never hurts! I beg to differ!!! I made a roast yesterday with a new recipe...it was SO tender and moist. I ate and was full..but my mind said you are not satisfied! I ate a tiny little extra piece...why I dont know...But I seriously paid for it later during the night...With me being on Phentermine, it makes you fill quicker, cuts the appetite...lol..well, I laid in bed and felt like I was soooo full and nauseous, I wanted to die! I kept telling my husband, If i could just yack I would feel better! Then he made me realize..yea...use this as a learning experience... with that sentence I wanted to thank him but kick the crap outta him. (if i could have even moved) Lol...When my kids fall down or do something that gets them a minor boo boo..I tell them.."lifes lessons learned hard" They dont understand it yet...but one day they will...well Karma bit me in the arse...cause over eating was a life lesson learned hard last night!

Its made me even more determined that I cant force feed myself food just because I think one more bite wont hurt.

Peytonism (my 3 year old and his thoughts) Mama, I eat you food, so you dont!  Pretty smart for a 3 year old, lol the more he eats the less i do!  have a great day and thanks for reading all my quirky thoughts!

Gail

Here, there everywhere

I think I am going to cover several topics in todays blog! Lol...my mind is rambling to many different things, its here, there and everywhere...so eh, why not! Its my blog!

Dieting/Weight loss:  I slept in this morning and missed breakfast, which for me is the hardest meal of the day to force myself to eat. Im just at a loss for what to eat. On todays menu, we have roast and carrots, green beans and mash potatoes. Yea those fatty potatoes can go on someone elses plate! Im trying to up my water intake. I drink about 5 bottles a day but thats not enough...but I feel as if I could yack water!

Kids (this is always a fun topic): Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers for my son...he is feeling better today. So good infact hes upstairs torturing his big brother right now! Any of you parents out there have good potty training advice..hey i figured yall are good with weight loss...why not try my luck at pottying. My son is 3..and he will pee in the potty but wont do the other business in the potty. It is frustrating! Just when we think we have a reign on the situation...here he is throwing the wipes at us, saying ok, i done..change me!  Yea! the little chithead! So any and all advice or tips is welcome!

You guys Rock!! And Im so thankful I found this site!!!

Gail

PS...reality check of the day....when you can lay in the bath tub and you realize your fat is floating! think about it!

OMG!

Ok, So I know I posted earlier...but now that the kids are in bed, I am feeling the need to vent. Nothing major, just UGHHH!

The boys were at my moms last night, and we were on our way to pick them up when we get a call..."Dechlan is throwing up!" I get to my moms and my poor almost 2 year old is spewing worse than a geysar. But yet hes all smiles...Oy, boys!

So we pack the boys up and are heading home and BLAHHH! there goes my son puking all over my clean car! Not fun!

Which leads me to the this point...Omg I am so frazzled, I want to eat everything in sight! There goes the emotional eating! Lol...im not eating...I decided I would bore you people instead!

Ugh! As I was posting this I hear "MAMA.." gushhh. There he goes again! Pray for my baby and my sanity...Im going to need it!

Gail

Just another day

Day 6...still going. I made a pact to myself to not weigh for awhile. To give the meds and dieting a chance, before I stepped on the scale..saw no loss and got disheartened...I went to walmart today, and was looking for a scale...then I talked myself down off the ledge...and walked away...I did not weigh! YAY ME!!!

The meds are doing great at suppressing my appetite..and my need to "go"...If you are reading this and asking...what is "go". Well, my pottying is challenged! Yea, wish me luck!

I read peoples blogs all the time...when I have a down time from the kids...I read...I try to be inspired, to psych myself into thinking. this will happen! I am eager for my numbers on my graph over to the side to change...to show some results! Thank you all for your kindess and thoughts! You all rock!

Gail

Mental Roadblock!

Today is day 5 of weight loss and phentermine! And I honestly have to say while Im still hopeful, the skeptical part of me is kicking in. I keep thinking, the little magic pill should kick in by now, I should feel something. Only thing I am feeling is not hungry. I know things dont happen overnight, but I am not good at waiting! Yea, I know big downfall!

I am great at encouraging others, I just lack the esteem for myself. Its like I hit a mental roadblock when it comes to me. I freeze like a deer in headlights!  It all becomes overwhelming and all I really want to do is hide in my shell and let the world go by.

In my heart..I know I can do this! I must do this!

The biggest battle is in the mind! Do we ever really overcome our minds?

Gail

Inspirations!

I was sitting here watching my sons attempt a puzzle that they could not normally do, and when they FINALLY got it together, the look of pride beamed from their faces! And I thought, OMG this is such inspiration to me! They had an obstacle, they came up with a  plan of action, they executed it and they conquered! Just like my struggle with weight loss!  I cant wait to feel that sense of pride!

Today is day 4 of Phentermine, diet and exercise! I am finding that I have absolutely no appetite. My mind has been playing tricks on me! You can do it...no, you have tried you have failed before! Blah...I think  the mental block is part of the whole battle. I dont want to be weighed down by the "cants" any more. You know the typical cant's....You cant fit in that, You cant succeed, you cant lose weight, you cant achieve your goal.

  I will lose weight. Failure is not an option! There is no turning back, only looking forward!

I read the blogs of others on this site several times a day as my motivation, as inspiration. And I must say...there is such an awesome assortment of people on this site! Everyone full of good thoughts, well wishes and shoes big enough to give the kick in the right direction when things seem impossible. Thank you!

~Gail