There was no blog yesterday because I had a day of deep thinking, Yes..I too can think! My mind kept running to all the ruts I am in. Whether they are food, relationships, mind set..they are still ruts...
Definition of rut: 1. habitual passage. 2. A usual or fixed practice 3. a monotonous routine.
First rut: Weight. I was always known as the Funny Fat girl...No more, I am tired of it...I am making changes in diet, exercise, lifestyle. Overcoming the mentality of it all is the hardest part! Pushing myself to be the skinny person I long to be, yet in my head I still picture the "fat" girl I have always been.
Second rut: Relationship. My husband comes home from work, watches tv, and I play in front of the computer until we go to sleep. This is nightly...this is a rut...I realized I am not content being in this rut with my marriage...hub and i decided its time for a change, time to spark things up. Time to focus on each other and the reasons we fell in love, got married..etc. I tend to think a lot of the place we are in is because hub works all day, and I cook, clean, laundry, chase kids...who wants to be romantic after the end of a full day? No more..time for the change.
Third rut: Mentality....The i cants, the why me's, the oh nos...have got to stop. There are not many of us who say they dont fall into this rut, one time or another, I know I am guilty of it. I find myself doubting my ability to do something and it pushes me to not even try out of fear of failure. We cant be afraid to try, we cant doubt ourselves, we have to believe. Getting out of the mental rut is hard! Its hard to change our way of thinking. We as humans find it easier to say I cant..instead of saying I will...I will conquer. I will be the best me. Negativity is always easier than finding something positive to say in situations. well I am digging myself out of this hole....I cant do it anymore.
You may ask..why all the ranting...but it makes perfect sense to me. Its time for a change. Time to think of what ruts we are stuck in and get out...Dont choose to stay in a common place for fear of trying.
I hope you all have a great day! Keep smiling, Keep your head up. PS. I think TOM is on the way, because I am ready to knock a little kid over if they had chocolate. My poor kids better watch out! I can see the news headline now...TOM makes mother crazed as she tramples her young for chocolate...lovely thought, huh?
Hope this blog finds you all well today! My husband left for work really early this morning and he woke me in the process. Dont ask me why, but I started watching The Biggest Loser! Something one of the trainers said..Kinda kicked me in the gut. (in a good way)
He said (loosely, not a direct quote) That we need Empowerment. You need to enable yourself to take back the power from the food and love yourself.
Me being the Nerdo that I am..went and looked up the term Empowerment...
Empowerment...1. to give authority 2. Enable 3. Promote self actualization.
We are all on the journey to give ourselves back the power. I think we all need to find that self love. I know some of you say.. Oh, I love myself...But the real question is...Are you happy with yourself, and love yourself? I am sure most of us can answer NO. Thats where the empowerment comes in...Giving ourselves the authority and ability to love ourselves and to take back our happiness!
Ok enough of the deep thinking Gail. Here is the fun Gail.. I told my son today...I love you baby...he said I not baby..My name is Peyton..(gotta love 3 year olds). Anyway...the song I wanted to post is...LL Cool J's Mama said knock you out! (no im not going to knock him out but boy do I feel like it sometimes!)
I hope you all have a terrific day! And do something for you today!
Does running up and down the stairs to punish my children count as cardio??
I think because I get my heart rate going....it should count.
If that question is any indication as to how my day is going. lol. I decided maybe I should join a gym, it will let me exercise and the kids get out to play in the gym daycare. Lol, its a matter of swaying the husband to spend the money! He doesnt think its necessary...I think my sanity is necessary..lol I called around to gyms, and normally my children are quiet when I am on the phone. Oh no! Not today...every second...someones world was ending...The guy said we have a daycare..(pause) and with yours we might can install barbwire to keep them in. Made me feel like suchhhh the awesome mom...I know that has no bearing on what type of mother I am..but it made me feel like a heel!
Happy thought of today is..I tried a new recipe last night... brown rice, vegetables, low fat soup, low fat cheese, with chicken sprinkled with lemon pepper, and baked...EVERYONE loved it! It was such the hit!! Its amazing for us to find something we all like..and plus is it was low fat!
Ok, so all I can say is the devil made me do it...After fighting with myself over the weighing in issue...and deciding I wouldnt weigh myself until officially at the drs appointments. A friend of mine raved about my strong will power, and how she couldnt do it, and its killing her for me not to..blah blah blah. I was at walmart with my family and here I journey down the aisle with the scales. I was just browsing..and out of no where...someone had taken a damn scale out of a box and placed it on the floor...It was screaming. COME TO ME! So I did...(I would have refrained if there wasnt one out) Anyway...the scale says I am down 14 lbs...14 lbs in 20 days. That just rocked my face...I couldnt stop smiling! I even think I began to do that John Travolta late 70's strut. lol...
All of this led me to go down the fitness aisle, and plan my dvd assualt...lol..yoga booty ballet, tae bo, walk away the pounds. can we say..im hoping to be a piroquetting, kick boxing, lean machine!
I hope you all have a great day..and remember to smile!
wow...I was sitting here looking at my calendar...and I have been on this lifestyle change for 20 days now. It doesnt seem that long. It seems LONGER! lol....Then I thought about the things that I have changed in the last 20 days, and felt a little sense of accomplishment...Out of those 20 days, I have had 1 cup of tea, and 1 sprite!!! That is HUGE! I am southern..I love me some sweet tea! My outlook on things has changed. I dont think, I cant. I think..I WILL....Just the emotional change in the last 20 days I think outweighs the physical changes!
Lol...I got the new Family Circle Magazine in today...The topics on front are walking work-outs, stress relievers etc..and there it is a bigggg picture of a strawberry shortcake...To me that is counter productive to their articles inside...why not provide a low fat cake, or something beneficial?? I dunno...but the picture makes me want to lick the cover and say forget the weight loss section.
I hope you all have a great weekend and a wonderful mothers day!
hmmm..what is on my mind today...I would have to say a couple things...armpit funk, eating right, old friends...blah blah blah!
For start, armpit funk..I dunno what it is..my I have this spot under my armpit, that is inflammed, irritated, itches. I dont know what it is, all I know is..it hurts...The type of person I am..wont go to the dr until my arm is falling off and then thats questionable.
Eating right...We went grocery shopping today and I made a list, and we stuck with it!! No bad foods, no junk! I planned all the foods the next two weeks around good healthy stuff..hub can eat it or go hungry...either way..he loses weight and so do I!!! We are trying a new recipe tonight, and I cant wait...its something exciting!
Old friends...It is so amazing when we lose touch with people, and out of the blue..they are re introduced to our lives! A girl I grew up with and I had lost touch, we were so close we went to college together as roommates! Our first year, she left and I didnt hear from her again...Today I get an email and its HER! I about fell in the floor...Its amazing how life brings people together! Its exciting being reconnected!
Thank you all for giving me work out recommendations! I think the most popular were walk away the pounds, and Billy Blanks. So I guess, I have my choices! I was listening to a cd and it made me think of all of us chasing our goals! If you have time check out Ryan Shupe and the Rubberband...Dream Big...or if our good friend who does the song of the day will select it *coughTatumsmomcough*...I think we can all get a little something out of it... Basic jist is...when you dream, dream bigggg! Better days are sure to come! It seriously moves me to tears while listening to it..thinking of my struggles, thinking of my children, and my hopes for them.. so check it out!!
I find it difficult a lot of days to get the boys dressed, get the stroller out, fight to strap them in...(God knows little boys dont like to be tied down! ) and get out the door for my walk. So if any of you can recommend work out dvds, or programs you can do at home...I would forever be obliged! I have the old sweatin to the oldies videos but I must say...Richards getting a bit old. I am looking for something fun and exciting! I need it!
My next thought is...Omg! I hate eating the same foods over and over again...So ideas on lowfat dinners...all recipes welcomed!
I was thinking last night...I dont know if it was because I was sick and bored...but Americans have a holiday for everything. Presidents day, Mothers, fathers, halloween, etc the list could go on. I think there should be "Hug a fluffy day" Yes folks..that means show the fluffy people or former fluffy people some love. lol.celebrate the fact that we have changed or are changing! Just because we love ourselves. So Im sending all you fluffies or former fluffies some love! (((Hugs))) We have come so far!
Have a terrific day! Keep smiling...and keep Owning your weight loss!
Yes, the title says it all...I jinxed myself...I thought I was free and clear but nope...the last 2 days I have been in bed sick! I caught the stomach bug! Dang kids and husband! I am so nauseous, its not even funny!
It makes weight loss easy...but its not the way I wanted to lose the weight! Although, I have heard a couple days off the phentermine will help me not become so immune to it! So far, 2 days without it and Im not hungry. So depending on how I feel tomorrow...I may start it again.
My husband has been more than wonderful the last 2 days with the kids....he has let me stay in bed, and hes cooked, cleaned, done laundry, and yes...my kids are still alive. Although the baby (who is almost 2) is having mommy withdrawls..he sees me and just wants me to hold him and love on him..but I cant. If they were to get sick again....I would run away to a tropical island and hope the buzzards would get me...(if there are buzzards on a trop island)
Alright, I am heading back to bed...but the urge to blog was so great...i HAD to!!
It has been 2 days since I have posted. I know what you are thinking...no, I didnt get sick. Amazingly enough, the virus is gone and somehow by golly...I managed not to get it! Thank God! I had a friend come down from NC for 2 days and we decided to get out and get ourselves going!!! We decided that we would make it a girls day. I left the husband and kids home, and I took a mental health day...lol..(aka retail therapy)
First, my friend wanted to get a manicure/pedicure. I said eh, you know I hate feet so I will just go with you and be your support. Somehow before we left the place...I was talked into getting my toenails french manicured! Yes, after I about swallowed my tongue, and had a couple anxiety attacks. My toes were beautiful. lol, Imagine my big 239 lb butt, yanking and jerking my foot away from this "twig" I would say she was not even 100 lbs. lol One good kick and I could have sent her flying across the nail place. But i maintained. We then went to target..and at the same time, my friend and I decided...oooohhhh brownies sound good. As we stood there contemplating what kind we wanted..we decided we couldnt eat that garbage (she is losing weight too) YAYYY US! 2 days of shopping and making ourselves pretty...is enough for me. I kinda missed my mommy world.
My weight loss is still going well...only thing lacking is the water. I am trying to build myself back up to drinking lots of water. Taking care of the family when they were sick, put the water drinking on the back burner! But no more! Sickness be gone...Water be here.! Yea, I know what great english! lol...
Oddly as this sounds, I missed reading all the blogs this weekend, I kept wondering how you were all doing. Whose losing, how they are losing...etc! Yes, I am going to need EP anon, if this keeps it up. But you all are just so wonderful, its hard not wanting to push you forward or check up on you! Ok, this is long enough...you all be good...take care...Keep your head up and smile.
The boys are napping, the husband is napping and Im here with my thoughts. Lucky you all!
So far today, no puking! Can we say Thank God! The boys are getting back to their normal selves...if they were ever normal to begin with. They have the antagonizing, and taunting each other back. The 3 year old has the tantrums back. And the little guy has his NO back (his new favorite word, that he smirks while saying).
I am determined that today is going to be a much better day for me. I NEED to drink my water, and I NEED to take in some food. I am really excited to be seeing results, I got out of the shower, and looked at my stomach and I was like wow. To the untrained eye that doesnt look at my body every day...It wouldnt appear to be that big of a difference..but to me. Its noticeable. And thats all that matters. I hope you all are well. Hugs
I am so nauseous, its not even funny!