Today has been a day of sadness and reflection. For those that dont know...I am from Charleston South Carolina. You may or may not have heard about the fire here, that claimed 9 of our firemen. This horrific event, took place just one street over from my house. (a large street) If you want to check it out, www.live5news.com They had a procession today, that was 300 plus fire trucks from around the nation. The boys and I made signs and took flags near the site, to show our love and support. It amazes me the outpouring of the people here. Actually around the nation...Just when you think the world is bad..It takes something like this to bring people together. My heart hurts for the families that lost their husbands, fathers, brothers, sons etc. Loss is never easy, especially at this magnitude. I am so thankful to the men and women who serve us every day. Whether it be police, fire, army, navy, air force, marines. It takes special people to do those jobs, and special people to be their families. If any of you are service..i thank you.
Ok, so I havent fallen off the face of the earth. I have just been super busy! Thank you to those that have emailed to check on me. It maked me feel special.
I updated my graph to show my weight loss. I am down 18 lbs pretty much in a month and a half. 3 weeks without meds since my TOM was late, I didnt want to do harm incase of pregnancy. So 18 is a good number for me. The scales at walmart said 23 but I will take the 18.
The week has been filled with my sons 2nd birthday party,(we waited for my mother inlaw to come down), water parks, shopping, tons of activities and I am worn out! EXHAUSTED! It is amazing how going all the time can overcome you.
I cant wait to catch up with you all on your blogs! I have missed you. Its hard to read up and post with "eyes" over your shoulder. dang nosey people! But I am back and raring to go..hope to hear from you all soon.
Helloooooo Ladies! I have not been able to get into my blog. This is the first time I have been able to since my last post. So, where do I begin. The good, the bad, and the wowzers thats ugly.
lol...Well, I dunno what order I would consider the last several days of my life. Hubs back is still kinked, and he's a grump! The boys went to the dr and they have "severe colds", after $40 for the visit, $40 for cough meds, and $30 on hair cuts before the dr appt. I dont even want to spend another dime on the kids until Prom (which is like 15 years away...fat chance, and yes, Im a mom that doesnt like her kids to be ratty in public) By the way, there is a lady at the barber shop that scares the crud out of Pey. I told her no thanks for her services but eh, hub agreed. Peyton kicked and screamed, and she took a patch out of his hair. She tried to blend it but you can see the uneveness. Never again
TOM decided to rear its ugly head. This has been the worst TOM ever. The first since dieting. I got light headed, started puking, yea...that bad. Although thru it all, Im thankful its here..now the bloat feeling can go away! Lol..I have avoided the scale for 2 weeks now and when I took the kids to the dr, I said let me step on their scale...OMG, their scale said I gained 6 lbs. I was like WTF, no way..I was down all day...then later that day...TOM. I dunno if you can carry 6 lbs extra because of TOM..but I am claiming it...There is no way, I have gained 6 lbs. lol..I would think after a couple months of no TOM, it could possibly have that effect. Who knows!
I have missed you all!! I hope the diet gods have been good to you all...(yes of course the diet god is a man...it wouldnt be so difficult if a woman...DUH!)
Hiya Ladies! Hope you are all well. It has been a week here! Hub pulled his muscles in his lower back at work, so hes home on pain meds and pretty much adds to the child count. The kids have these horrible coughs, with low fevers that have kept me up until 5 am almost every morning...Its this barking, seal kinda cough. Call the pediatrician...oh we can take one today or both Friday. So friday it is! Hopefully they will give the boys some kryptonite or some thing to knock them out!! So I can rest! The degree of whine in this house is off the charts at the moment. lol.
I was supposed to have a moms night out dinner tonight, but with hub ailing, and kids being kids...I dont know how thats going to work. Bring the germs to new people and their kids? lol, I might end up on a Wanted Poster! lol...
ok sorry to cut this short, the boys are snotty and coughing on each other, while fighting over toys..so I have to go referee...Be good and have a great day!
Helloooooo, my good people! Tis' I the slacker! I have been slack with posting the last several days. I dont know exactly why I have been slack...just that I have been. No excuses.
Word of the day is...Arrogance: a feeling or impression of superiority, manifested in an overbearing manner or presumptious claims.
As I have been reading the blogs, I have noticed that a lot of us have something in common. Someone in our lives that feels they are superior to us. Whether it be, a coworker, weight loss buddy, friend/family. I have come to realize the people with the lofty thoughts of themselves are usually insecure in their being, so they feel the need to "one up" someone else. Arrogance isnt necessarily a bad thing, but its keeping it in check is the hard part.
The reason for this word today is: I have a friend that has decided, she needs to go on a diet with me. Every time we chat, I feel like poop about myself. And it shouldnt be that way. This is a typical conversation.
HER: How is weight loss going? ME: its good thanks. HER: how much have you lost? ME: I dont know, I havent weighed in almost 2 weeks. HER: Oh, well I have lost 25 lbs. ME: way to go! HER: What foods have you been eating? ME: usually a piece of raisin bread for breakfast and orange. HER: OMG, you are eating bread, that contains flour, you should stay away from products that contain flour, I cant believe you are actually eating bread. ME: My dr said I still need to eat some fat with the meds. HER: OMG, why dont you actually try doing it without meds, thats the way im doing it, you will just put all your weight back on. Meds are bad for you. Nothing is going to help you like the gym and watching what you eat. End conversation because I just stopped responding.
Why do we allow people to do this to us? Why do we let others make us feel like we arent good enough? The answer for this. I do not know, but it has to stop. There has to come a point when we stand up and say...I AM THE BEST ME, IM DOING THIS FOR ME, YOU DO FOR YOU, I DO FOR ME! Do we cut people like the above out of our lives, do we carry on normal and continue to recieve the who ha we get from them? I personally have had enough. I need to start speaking up for myself.
Can we fully be healthy, and the best we can be, with people like this in our lives? Can we full appreciate our struggles and our weaknesses when we have someone throwing them in our face all the time?
I hope you all have a great day. Congrats on working out, congrats on the weight loss! I have missed you all!
Ever have one of those days, where you have lots to say but cant figure out how to put it into words? Well today is the day for me. Yes, I Gail...am really at a loss for words. Well how to express them.
My mind is muddled today, and honestly...i dont feel like doing much. I have named today..."my forget the weight loss today, enjoy the day and eat what i want to get it out of my system" day. Hub is making meatloaf for dinner, and I must say...I taught him well. So, if hes cooking..why not enjoy it?
I get these really down days, followed by many good days. When I get down, it feels like I have been kicked in the gut, and just want to be...to do nothing, to be nothing. My hormones out of whack might have something to do with it...damn TOM!!! Who knows. Anxiety overwhelms me...I dont want to be alone, I just feel jittery, like waiting for the shoe to fall. Makes sense? Probably not in everyone else world..but its typical for mine.
Today has been an overall nice day! We got up and decided to take the boys to the park. Got a shower, and put on a pair of pants that I have not worn since before my son was born (3 years) I was sooo excited! I came downstairs and asked my hub, Are these too tight? He answered YES! I said what? they are too tight? (disheartened) he said no..I thought you asked if they looked ok? Just shows you how much hubs really listen! lol..
I have been saying for a week or better..that I feel Tomish. I wish that beast would get here. I feel so bloated and crampy. The bloated belly does nothing for the self esteem. I keep cursing and mumbling about TOM. I have lost 23 lbs in a month, so I think my body is in shock, which is delaying it. I dunno..I wish I had answers and didnt feel this way! But I will live!
Also, being on the Phentermine...I have been so constipated! I know Too Much Information..but Its a part of life. This doesnt help the bloat situation!
This morning I woke early and decided..hmm, its quiet lets do the fat blastin cardio dvd. I located a sports bra that I have had since light came into existance. And I think I got more work out trying to get that piece of spandex over my bosom! Where the heck do you buy big busted sports bras? If i jumpin jack, I risk concussion!
Back to the dvd, I worked things I didnt know existed on my body! I did ok with the work out..but afterwards..I got really light headed and flush. Then, I yacked..Yes Billy Blanks made me puke! What the heck??
I am so proud of you all! Keep up the great work!! I am so glad I found you all!
Endurance: 1. the ability to withstand hardship or adversity, the ability to sustain a prolonged stressful effort or activity 2. the act of enduring or suffering
I have been trying to find an inspiring word, something to motivate me or to correspond to how I am feeling. I picked endurance. It takes guts to jump into something..especially whole heartedly. Leaping into the unknown is scarey. Dieting is scarey, difficult, and invokes fears...but we are all here doing it. We are all "suffering" in our own sense. I was thinking of situations that I lack endurance, and those situations where I muster all the courage in the world and it the adversity head on.
My mom saw a picture of my husband and said wow, hes getting love handles. The man has never struggled with weight a day in his life...(gag) My husband then insists that hes going on a diet. He pleads with me not to let him buy junk food, and yummy snacks. Not an hour later, we took my mom to costcos...first thing my hub sees is the huge boxes of reese cups. And says...please let me be bad. I NEED those! I said Nope! no can do. My mom turns to me in horror, like I am such a bad wife for not allowing him a snack. I then proceed to explain to her our previous conversation...then she sticks the reeses in the cart, and bought them! UGH! This is where it gets to endurance...Those damn things are staring at me every where in this house. Hub has them in the freezer, in the fridge, on the snack counter. It takes all my power to not dive in! I need those things out of this house! Its like a stand off..me versus the chocolate..which will last longer?
And for those of you who have been following the Potty training adventures of Peyton...Now that he has the poo thing down, he continues to wet my bathroom floor. I dont know what it is with little boys and seeing how far they can pee..but I need the "endurance" to out last this kid! I first realized he was doing it when I walked in the bathroom not long after him and my foot was soaked. Needless to say I was not a happy momma! So if you are praying people, say your prayers for me because hes gonna be the death of me!
Woohoooo...And Im back!! I know you were probably saying Ding dong the witch is dead..but nope...evil doesnt die! So kidding..I am not evil! Headache is gone...After 15 hours of sleep!
So I got up this morning and did Billy Blanks "Fat Blasting Cardio" and I have never felt so uncoordinated in my life! I can keep up until he does the "cardio time" which is like double time! and then i get lost..lol..but i keep moving! I wanted to cry like a little kid! Went to get a shower and my legs were shaking and my arms felt like rubber bands...I guess that means it works? Lol, I worked muscles and things i didnt even know i owned. The old saying goes Shake it or Fake it...well I was shakin and breakin... lol bustin my arse that is!! lol..
My mom hadnt seen me in about 3 weeks...and finally saw me yesterday and was like omg you look great. And this is a direct quote so dont be offended "Gail, your ass doesnt look near as big, and your hips arent bulgey" Gotta love honesty of family! We had gone to walmart and I made her guard the aisle as I used one of their scales (no i didnt open a box) it said I was down 23 lbs. I about fell in the floor! 23 lbs...I havent been this skinny since my mom shot me out the birth canal!
It has been a solid week of my precious peyton actually using the potty fully. Only 1 accident. YAYYY pey and YAYYY me! We appealed to his sense of what he could get out of it. And the bribery of the week, is hot wheels cars...thank god they are cheap. Lol, He is an inventive little chit, He puts a foot on each side of the potty and crouches. Hey, whatever gets the business done.
Thanks for listening to me ramble!! I have missed you guys! Be god...and have a great weekend!
