Hiya Ladies! Hope you are all well. It has been a week here! Hub pulled his muscles in his lower back at work, so hes home on pain meds and pretty much adds to the child count. The kids have these horrible coughs, with low fevers that have kept me up until 5 am almost every morning...Its this barking, seal kinda cough. Call the pediatrician...oh we can take one today or both Friday. So friday it is! Hopefully they will give the boys some kryptonite or some thing to knock them out!! So I can rest! The degree of whine in this house is off the charts at the moment. lol.
I was supposed to have a moms night out dinner tonight, but with hub ailing, and kids being kids...I dont know how thats going to work. Bring the germs to new people and their kids? lol, I might end up on a Wanted Poster! lol...
ok sorry to cut this short, the boys are snotty and coughing on each other, while fighting over toys..so I have to go referee...Be good and have a great day!
Helloooooo, my good people! Tis' I the slacker! I have been slack with posting the last several days. I dont know exactly why I have been slack...just that I have been. No excuses.
Word of the day is...Arrogance: a feeling or impression of superiority, manifested in an overbearing manner or presumptious claims.
As I have been reading the blogs, I have noticed that a lot of us have something in common. Someone in our lives that feels they are superior to us. Whether it be, a coworker, weight loss buddy, friend/family. I have come to realize the people with the lofty thoughts of themselves are usually insecure in their being, so they feel the need to "one up" someone else. Arrogance isnt necessarily a bad thing, but its keeping it in check is the hard part.
The reason for this word today is: I have a friend that has decided, she needs to go on a diet with me. Every time we chat, I feel like poop about myself. And it shouldnt be that way. This is a typical conversation.
HER: How is weight loss going? ME: its good thanks. HER: how much have you lost? ME: I dont know, I havent weighed in almost 2 weeks. HER: Oh, well I have lost 25 lbs. ME: way to go! HER: What foods have you been eating? ME: usually a piece of raisin bread for breakfast and orange. HER: OMG, you are eating bread, that contains flour, you should stay away from products that contain flour, I cant believe you are actually eating bread. ME: My dr said I still need to eat some fat with the meds. HER: OMG, why dont you actually try doing it without meds, thats the way im doing it, you will just put all your weight back on. Meds are bad for you. Nothing is going to help you like the gym and watching what you eat. End conversation because I just stopped responding.
Why do we allow people to do this to us? Why do we let others make us feel like we arent good enough? The answer for this. I do not know, but it has to stop. There has to come a point when we stand up and say...I AM THE BEST ME, IM DOING THIS FOR ME, YOU DO FOR YOU, I DO FOR ME! Do we cut people like the above out of our lives, do we carry on normal and continue to recieve the who ha we get from them? I personally have had enough. I need to start speaking up for myself.
Can we fully be healthy, and the best we can be, with people like this in our lives? Can we full appreciate our struggles and our weaknesses when we have someone throwing them in our face all the time?
I hope you all have a great day. Congrats on working out, congrats on the weight loss! I have missed you all!
Ever have one of those days, where you have lots to say but cant figure out how to put it into words? Well today is the day for me. Yes, I Gail...am really at a loss for words. Well how to express them.
My mind is muddled today, and honestly...i dont feel like doing much. I have named today..."my forget the weight loss today, enjoy the day and eat what i want to get it out of my system" day. Hub is making meatloaf for dinner, and I must say...I taught him well. So, if hes cooking..why not enjoy it?
I get these really down days, followed by many good days. When I get down, it feels like I have been kicked in the gut, and just want to be...to do nothing, to be nothing. My hormones out of whack might have something to do with it...damn TOM!!! Who knows. Anxiety overwhelms me...I dont want to be alone, I just feel jittery, like waiting for the shoe to fall. Makes sense? Probably not in everyone else world..but its typical for mine.
Today has been an overall nice day! We got up and decided to take the boys to the park. Got a shower, and put on a pair of pants that I have not worn since before my son was born (3 years) I was sooo excited! I came downstairs and asked my hub, Are these too tight? He answered YES! I said what? they are too tight? (disheartened) he said no..I thought you asked if they looked ok? Just shows you how much hubs really listen! lol..
I have been saying for a week or better..that I feel Tomish. I wish that beast would get here. I feel so bloated and crampy. The bloated belly does nothing for the self esteem. I keep cursing and mumbling about TOM. I have lost 23 lbs in a month, so I think my body is in shock, which is delaying it. I dunno..I wish I had answers and didnt feel this way! But I will live!
Also, being on the Phentermine...I have been so constipated! I know Too Much Information..but Its a part of life. This doesnt help the bloat situation!
This morning I woke early and decided..hmm, its quiet lets do the fat blastin cardio dvd. I located a sports bra that I have had since light came into existance. And I think I got more work out trying to get that piece of spandex over my bosom! Where the heck do you buy big busted sports bras? If i jumpin jack, I risk concussion!
Back to the dvd, I worked things I didnt know existed on my body! I did ok with the work out..but afterwards..I got really light headed and flush. Then, I yacked..Yes Billy Blanks made me puke! What the heck??
I am so proud of you all! Keep up the great work!! I am so glad I found you all!
Endurance: 1. the ability to withstand hardship or adversity, the ability to sustain a prolonged stressful effort or activity 2. the act of enduring or suffering
I have been trying to find an inspiring word, something to motivate me or to correspond to how I am feeling. I picked endurance. It takes guts to jump into something..especially whole heartedly. Leaping into the unknown is scarey. Dieting is scarey, difficult, and invokes fears...but we are all here doing it. We are all "suffering" in our own sense. I was thinking of situations that I lack endurance, and those situations where I muster all the courage in the world and it the adversity head on.
My mom saw a picture of my husband and said wow, hes getting love handles. The man has never struggled with weight a day in his life...(gag) My husband then insists that hes going on a diet. He pleads with me not to let him buy junk food, and yummy snacks. Not an hour later, we took my mom to costcos...first thing my hub sees is the huge boxes of reese cups. And says...please let me be bad. I NEED those! I said Nope! no can do. My mom turns to me in horror, like I am such a bad wife for not allowing him a snack. I then proceed to explain to her our previous conversation...then she sticks the reeses in the cart, and bought them! UGH! This is where it gets to endurance...Those damn things are staring at me every where in this house. Hub has them in the freezer, in the fridge, on the snack counter. It takes all my power to not dive in! I need those things out of this house! Its like a stand off..me versus the chocolate..which will last longer?
And for those of you who have been following the Potty training adventures of Peyton...Now that he has the poo thing down, he continues to wet my bathroom floor. I dont know what it is with little boys and seeing how far they can pee..but I need the "endurance" to out last this kid! I first realized he was doing it when I walked in the bathroom not long after him and my foot was soaked. Needless to say I was not a happy momma! So if you are praying people, say your prayers for me because hes gonna be the death of me!
Woohoooo...And Im back!! I know you were probably saying Ding dong the witch is dead..but nope...evil doesnt die! So kidding..I am not evil! Headache is gone...After 15 hours of sleep!
So I got up this morning and did Billy Blanks "Fat Blasting Cardio" and I have never felt so uncoordinated in my life! I can keep up until he does the "cardio time" which is like double time! and then i get lost..lol..but i keep moving! I wanted to cry like a little kid! Went to get a shower and my legs were shaking and my arms felt like rubber bands...I guess that means it works? Lol, I worked muscles and things i didnt even know i owned. The old saying goes Shake it or Fake it...well I was shakin and breakin... lol bustin my arse that is!! lol..
My mom hadnt seen me in about 3 weeks...and finally saw me yesterday and was like omg you look great. And this is a direct quote so dont be offended "Gail, your ass doesnt look near as big, and your hips arent bulgey" Gotta love honesty of family! We had gone to walmart and I made her guard the aisle as I used one of their scales (no i didnt open a box) it said I was down 23 lbs. I about fell in the floor! 23 lbs...I havent been this skinny since my mom shot me out the birth canal!
It has been a solid week of my precious peyton actually using the potty fully. Only 1 accident. YAYYY pey and YAYYY me! We appealed to his sense of what he could get out of it. And the bribery of the week, is hot wheels cars...thank god they are cheap. Lol, He is an inventive little chit, He puts a foot on each side of the potty and crouches. Hey, whatever gets the business done.
Thanks for listening to me ramble!! I have missed you guys! Be god...and have a great weekend!
Just a brief summary...I have suffered from daily headaches for about 5 years now. Many trips to neuros, drs, etc...they finally sent to for a sleep study. In a 6 hour period of sleep, my limbs legs and fine muscles in them moved 371 times. So pretty much non stop. I always complained I would only get 3 hours sleep, I felt like poo..Well the legs are what made me not sleep. My body wasnt shutting itself off. So after the dr gave me sleep meds and no headaches..AMAZING for me. I dont recall a time when I didnt have a head..
You might be asking where I am going with this. Last night, I had thought I had taken my sleep meds. So I couldnt just take another and pray I wake up...needless to say about 3 am, when I was wide awake, I realized I must not have taken it. So today I am suffering from a horrid headache. Its amazing how bad you feel after you have felt good for so long (about a month now).
Oh, and to rid myself of guilt..I ate 2 cheese sticks thinking it might get rid of my headache..they tasted great.
I hope you all have a terrific day...I am thinking of you..and I am heading to bed! be good
Love, Cheese stick chicky ps. cheese sticks are fried!
Can you say....I put on a bathing suit for the first time in over 4 years! Yes, Shamu was stranded on the beach! No, on the serious side...I was very surprised that the bathing suit fit! And all except for The Twin Peaks..which I call Mount Everbreast. It didnt look too shabby! Hub is facing a crazy 2 weeks at work, so we took the day and headed to the beach. Packed a picnic, toys and spent a couple hours as a family!
We got to the beach, and I thought...omggggg, I am going to be the biggest girl out here! And once I started having fun with my kids....it didnt matter. I was just a mom enjoying the smiles and laughter. For once, my weight just didnt matter!
On the way home from the beach, I got the bright idea...lets to shish kabobs for dinner...hub and I made beef and chicken kabobs with red, yellow, and orange peppers and mushrooms. we marinated the meat in lemon and orange juice..gave it a nice summery taste! I was impressed the way it turned out..And not very fattening. Woohooo!!!
I hope you all have a great day!!! I am thinking of each of you!
Well...it is official...I am old...my baby turns 2 today! And hes long entered those terrible 2's...lol..I amazingly enough finally got my 3 year old to go poo on the potty...and by golly, the 2 year old birthday boy, takes off his diaper full of poo..and YES THEY FINGER PAINTED IN IT! I have never been so grossed out in my life. I am reassured that all kids have done things like this! blah!
So needless to say...birthday boy and his accomplice got punished.!
As far as my diet goes, I have been slack in the water department. I just cant seem to get my intake up! I am feeling TOMish...and wish that brat would get here so I wouldnt feel and look so bloated. The vicious cycle of being a woman! My food intake has been good...single servings, small portions, lean foods, etc...but I am finding myself wanting to snack later at night. I dont know what it is. This is will be my first TOM while dieting, so I am hoping that is the cause for wanting to snack. Who knows! But I am keeping my head up. God knows my weight didnt just to this big overnight.!!!
I am sooo proud of all of you for working so hard!!! Keep it up. You inspire me! I see the weight loss that you guys are posting and Im chomping at the bit to add mine!!! June 20th cant get here soon enough!! (official weigh in) Have a great weekend!!
