This week has been full. I dont know how to explain it, I have posted previously about ruts. My husband and I are the 2 most boring people on the face of the planet. I dont think its that we dont love each other, or that we are unhappy..I think its that we have become content in the fact we are always here for each other. We revolve around the kids, and when time permits, we think of ourselves. Our routine is set, he comes home hes tired so i play on the computer. Well, it finally hit me that we are living more like roommates than husband and wife. So we are working on trying to get our spark back. I dont know if any of you other married people have been there? I seriously could continue forever on how much i want to fix this but im sure you get the point. Advice, solutions, observations? I went to Fredericks (lingere store) to get some added "spice" to our lives. The sales lady said..."I dont think we have anything to fit your shape" pretty much just saying that im fat. I said look, I lost 40 lbs, and if you had shit to fit me then, you have shit to me now. Sorry for the language but its true. I did get some lingerie but i didnt buy it from her. That biyotchhhh is not getting a sales commission from me.
We got the kids their halloween costumes and if I did it right, you should be able to see them below. The 2 year old is dumbo, and the 3 year old is a spider, and every time he puts the costume on..he sings itsy bitsy spider. They look ohhh so cute.
The ups and downs have had me wanting to eat. But I havent as a matter of fact the opposite, I just dont eat. I have been working and liking it so far. Some of the people are pretty annoying but thats everywhere you go. And I get paid weekly so I guess I can sacrifice! At work you cant have liquid on the floor unless medically necessary by a dr so I think im going to get a drs note. How middle school?? I just need to keep up my water intake. When I dont drink like im supposed to...i notice the difference with UTI's. Oh the fun...
So if any of you have tips on how to spark a marriage or observations from your own..let me know?
Hiya!!! I am glad to say that I have started work FINALLY. So far all I have been doing is training but it gives me time away and its a paycheck. My husband has been with the kids for 2 days while I work and I think I could qualify my house as natural disaster. My husbands thought is...give into them to avoid the hassle of fussing or them screaming....WRONG. Today has been a battle with the kids! "dont jump on the furniture" "no dont touch mommys picture frames" Everything they have learned in the last 2-3 years seems to have gone out the window. Funny how that happens. I get home from work and hub is like OMG! so and so did this...and while trying to hide laughter..im like noooo, thats a new one! When in actuality its things i deal with everyday from the boys and when it happens to me, his answer is "it cant be that bad"
I must admit..I have been slack in the dieting department. Not that im indulging...its that im not eating. I eat like once a day and I know that is bad for me. I need to get back on track. Just with the changes of work and then coming home to clean up after the men folk, who feels like eating. I promised myself next week, I was taking healthy snacks to work and try to pack a lunch that is far better than vending machine crap.
I hope you are all doing well...i miss you...Keep me in your thoughts because I want to lick an electrical outlet to get a vacation from the wreck I have been cleaning!
Ok, so I hate when things mess with me. I am trying to post on the Phentermine site like I have in the past and they have changed the format. It will not let me do anything. Are any of you on the Phentermine site and can explain this to me sense it seems like an act of congress to get some actual help on that site! This site seriously is making me want to eat just out of frustration.
Nothing much is happening in my world except the kids getting bigger and louder. lol, As sad as it seems, Im looking forward to the day I can go potty and not have little eyes questioning what Im doing.
I am doing great where portion control goes. And as far as water in take...The area Im lacking is the exercise. Lately, the kids have been on go all day and night. Waking at 4 am and running until 11-12 at night. Dont ask me what has gotten into them. But they exhaust me!! After being up with them half the night...who has the energy to fat blast with billy blanks...Not I said the cow.
Lol, if you look up the definition of slacker...you would find a picture of me! I have been a bad EPer. I have decided I would do 2 weeks on, 2 weeks off of the phentermine. I just dont want to become too dependant upon it. I wont have it the rest of my life and I have to learn to do without it. So, I have been going it alone. I havent done too bad...my biggest splurge was 2 pieces of chucke cheese pizza..and needless to say..my body rejected that mess!
My week has been fun filled. I go to my first day of work, and the ASSistant manager didnt add me to the system, and of course I go in and the Manager on duty..knows nothing of me, and the system is updating so I couldnt start. Then it was come back Wed. no, come back thursday. NOW..its come back on tuesday again. I swear...no wonder they have helped wanted signs posted. And to top it off..my brother inlaw, and sister were trying to put their boat in the water..my bil slipped, his wedding ring, caught a cleat where the anchor was..and literally severed his finger almost off...They made it to the ER...they sewed it up, and referred him out to a surgeon...come to find out..he severed the artery, nerves and tendons..after putting it all back together, they wonder about it ever functioning again. So say a prayer. With his pre operation blood work..they also said they found him diabetic. And as most know...Diabetes is rough when trying to heal.
It is so nice to just sit here and be, one kid is sleeping, the other is showing me his matchbox cars. Agh the peace and quiet. I hope all of you have a great week..
Well, I have sunk to an all time low....no longer do I race to the scale aisle in walmart...I now walk into the pet store and step on the dog scale. I mean what the heck! That is problems. Although the dog scale says 5 lbs different than the drs.
I have traded one obsession for another...food versus bingo. I joined an online bingo league...and it is such a great group of people. Supportive, funny...and I get to play bingo. Yes, Im only 30 with the soul of a granny. My husband laughs at me. Instead of eating, i turn to bingo..it keeps my hands busy..so it works
I start my new job officially tomorrow...Oy, to be on a schedule and then come home to take care of children. And clean after hub. I hope he falls into the routine well, and realizes I cant do it all. It makes me nervous. We have fallen into the well organized routine before so I hope its easy transitioning again.
I dont know if I told you all, but my mom bought me and the boys a new pup...Her name is Fergie..she is a mini daschund. and is just adorable.
Lol...you know its been awhile when you come back and EP has changed everything around. Just kidding. My family and I took a little mini vacation to the beach. We are surrounded by coast, yet went to another beach. We had lots of fun. My 3 year old has tried to learn to swim and actually does well at it. Only regret I can say is that I splurged, ate what I wanted, but in moderation. No overboard. Its not even a regret...its just that side of me that says. You are 3 lbs away from Onederland...what the heck are you thinking?
I cant believe I am sitting that close to Onederland. Lol, every time I read Onederland..I sing...Your bodys a wonderlanddddd. Yea i know Cheesyyyy...but what can I say. Im excited. My dr said since I am doing so well on the medication, I dont have to be seen for 3 months...which puts a damper on my graph because I only post official results. But, imagine that grand dip next time I go to the dr. I start work on Monday so the movement from that, and exercising..should help me shrink. I am excited for actually taking a picture of the family and not being the fatty that I was. Just for whim I put my hubs pants on...(hes a skinny ass) and they were not far from buttoning...hub said omg if you can wear those, I am going on a diet myself. I said THANKS!....
I hope you are all well...Im going to try to post a new picture. Be good
Hiya all...Today was weigh in...I was 203. So that makes 36 lbs gone since I started. I am so excited yet SOOOOO sad that I missed Onederland. Makes me think, hmmm if I didnt do this or that, I might have made it..But, I am almost there, and I am so excited!!! Onederland evades me!!! dang it. Dr said I am doing so well on my own, that he doesnt want to see me for another 3 months. woohooo imagine what I will be at that time??
As far as the pup situation, well he kind of took care of it himself. His previous owner didnt bother getting him shots, he got very sick, and a vet tech friend took him in, and she said they put him down he was so ill. Such a shame to see an 8 week old pup put down, because of someones lack of care of him (and no it wasnt my fault, we had him 2 days)
I hope all is well...I promise to catch up with all of you this week. I miss you!!
Where shall i begin this? The last couple days have been filled with mixed emotions...Hub got me a puppy for our anniversary. Well that dog turned out to be pit bull. So we declined and somehow managed to get an 8 week old lab. While I love the dog, I love my children more. So far the kids are terrified of him, only because he jumps, lunges and nips at their faces. And that scares the bajeezs out of me. I know its typical puppy behavior. But the kids BEG for us to put him in the cage. And its not fair to the dog to be left there. So Im torn. I just dont know what to do. Hub says give it a couple months, and the kids will adjust. But at what cost? Will they forever fear dogs? Will he actually nip to the point of hurting? I just dont know.
I go to the weight dr on Friday now. I am excited. For all nosy purposes, I have stepped on scales and it says I am 4-5 lbs away from 200. I hope I reach 200 by Friday. I am so stinkin excited. I am still excited for what I have lost.
So today is just another one of those mom days. Grumpy kids, 1 puking...the list could go on. I am so excited my Anniversary is on the 16th..and this is the smallest I have been in awhile. We arent doing anything for our anniversary....the finances arent there until later...but hey...as long as we have each other..thats all we need. I am excited beyond means, I have a job interview on Friday. I cant wait...I love being at home with my boys, but I need the adult interaction. I also have my follow up drs appt on the 20th to see how much I have lost. I cant wait.. This is going to be a big 2 weeks for me..and im ready to hit them head on. I just want to go to the drs and WOW him.
I hope you all have a great week!!! keep smiling and keep your eyes on the goal!!
It has been a busy last couple of days. One of my best friends in high school and I had lost touch when we went to college. Well, we found each other again. She has a 2 1/2 year old and a 1 year old. Great ages to play with my boys...so we had a play date. It was so much fun to be with others. Its so amazing how we found each other, just when we both needed a friend.
Ok, for those that arent observant, I posted new pics on my profile. Please do not laugh. I just wanted to show my improvements body wise. I am starting to like who I am becoming. Its been a long time since I have liked myself. The pants in that picture are a size 24 (god bless) and I tried them on the other day, just for jollies..and started to walk, and they fell completely to my hips....bypassed the camel hump that most of you know as a rear. I couldnt believe it. We went to Old Navy the other day...and they had capri's on sale for 3 bucks. The only size they had relatively close to what I am now is a 16. Ya know buy them to give me something to work for. I got home, tried them on...and they fit...they were SNUG..but they fit...now my goal is to get into them and breathe. Its wonderful the little things that can make you feel good.
I hope you all have a terrific week...I miss you. And to Tatumsmom....pssttttt...I need a song of the day. We havent seen one in awhile..I know you are busy...so i will just keep checking. ((hugs))
