I have blogged about my dad in the past but for those who missed it. My dad was a police officer killed in the line of duty. The reason I am writing this blog is...the man who killed him and another officer is up for parole again. On a 20 year sentence hes eligible after 4. How sad is that. This is the 2nd year we have had to oppose his parole. Our families should not be made to suffer and relive this. If you would like to help our families, there is a way to help. Click here! The inmate name is Brian Nelson. His SCDC # is 00292367. I know this isnt the easiest way to do it but I figured it could reach a lot of people. We need all the signatures we can get! So send to your friends, family, whoever you think would sign
For those of you who would like to read, I havent shared this with many, my dad, You can read the story. My family and I have missed out on so much with my dad. I hurt because I think that my kids never got to know their pop pop. They tell the stars at night, hi pop pop...i love you, pop pop..Its not fair that they missed out on how wonderful he is. I missed him walking me down the aisle, I missed him at the birth of my kids..Its not fair to hurt this much, and for the man who killed him to be free to roam the streets. This was not his first accident either, this was like his 5th. YES! a repeat offender..and nothing was ever done. They say time heals all wounds. So far this is the 5th year coming and it hasnt healed yet.
I got a mailing from the COPS organization (concerns of police survivors) and it listed my dad and gene (other officer) 5 year rememberance. And I broke down all over again.
Sorry this blog isnt about dieting or weight loss. But its a concern of mine...(((hugs to all))) and thank you in advance.
hello all my EP buddies! I have not forgotten about you! Things have been nutso here. Kids, husband, work. Trying to fit it all in.
So, the other day I went to a clothing store, picked out a pair of pants, my hub questioned my decision. I thought he was questioning me liking the pants...I told him no more comments. We got home, I tried the pants on..and they fell off...They were pants from my old size..my husband says with a smirk on his face. Thats what I was trying to tell you in the store. Oy, the days you just want to kick them. Work is going well, I am learning to gain self control again. I work with a couple lazy people and where as before i would just say what I thought. It has then hit me, maybe I shouldnt say what first comes to my mind. I would hate to know i hurt someone if that is the best job they can do. (although I know its not) The boys are doing well. I have started doing preschool work with them. Circle this color, X these items, trace and writing alphabet, blah blah blah..I think it takes its toll on me more than them. lol..but im loving it.
I was reading and replying to blogs when i realized one of my favorite movies was on...My Big Fat Greek Wedding...if you have never seen it...you probably wont get my title. Basics, the father thinks putting windex on EVERYTHING will make it better.
I have been having a horrible day. It was my payday. My first check from my new job...*holds envelope eagerly...opens it up..WTF?? They didnt record almost 30 hours of work I had done. And my paycheck was crap. I spoke to the manager..ohhh, it will be on next weeks check.. Um, next week doesnt pay the bills due today. The bill would have been paid but we took that money, to buy me black pants, and black shoes which are mandatory for the job. So logically thinking...it balances out...my check comes the last day its due...WRONGGGG...they mess my check up. So after crying most of the day thinking my hard work has gone to waste, and that I somehow put my family at risk (by bill not being paid) because selfish me needed shoes. I then, sat here with my bottle of water and said...ya know...F it....and thats when it hit me.. Put a little windex on it. Whatever in my world makes things better just do it. That use to be eating a pint of ice cream and chasing it with reese cups...But no more!! I find myself wondering, I took my copeing habit away, what do I use now??
So, whatever it takes in your world for you to cope..."put a little windex on it" Replace the old habit with some new "windex"
This week has been full. I dont know how to explain it, I have posted previously about ruts. My husband and I are the 2 most boring people on the face of the planet. I dont think its that we dont love each other, or that we are unhappy..I think its that we have become content in the fact we are always here for each other. We revolve around the kids, and when time permits, we think of ourselves. Our routine is set, he comes home hes tired so i play on the computer. Well, it finally hit me that we are living more like roommates than husband and wife. So we are working on trying to get our spark back. I dont know if any of you other married people have been there? I seriously could continue forever on how much i want to fix this but im sure you get the point. Advice, solutions, observations? I went to Fredericks (lingere store) to get some added "spice" to our lives. The sales lady said..."I dont think we have anything to fit your shape" pretty much just saying that im fat. I said look, I lost 40 lbs, and if you had shit to fit me then, you have shit to me now. Sorry for the language but its true. I did get some lingerie but i didnt buy it from her. That biyotchhhh is not getting a sales commission from me.
We got the kids their halloween costumes and if I did it right, you should be able to see them below. The 2 year old is dumbo, and the 3 year old is a spider, and every time he puts the costume on..he sings itsy bitsy spider. They look ohhh so cute.
The ups and downs have had me wanting to eat. But I havent as a matter of fact the opposite, I just dont eat. I have been working and liking it so far. Some of the people are pretty annoying but thats everywhere you go. And I get paid weekly so I guess I can sacrifice! At work you cant have liquid on the floor unless medically necessary by a dr so I think im going to get a drs note. How middle school?? I just need to keep up my water intake. When I dont drink like im supposed to...i notice the difference with UTI's. Oh the fun...
So if any of you have tips on how to spark a marriage or observations from your own..let me know?
Hiya!!! I am glad to say that I have started work FINALLY. So far all I have been doing is training but it gives me time away and its a paycheck. My husband has been with the kids for 2 days while I work and I think I could qualify my house as natural disaster. My husbands thought is...give into them to avoid the hassle of fussing or them screaming....WRONG. Today has been a battle with the kids! "dont jump on the furniture" "no dont touch mommys picture frames" Everything they have learned in the last 2-3 years seems to have gone out the window. Funny how that happens. I get home from work and hub is like OMG! so and so did this...and while trying to hide laughter..im like noooo, thats a new one! When in actuality its things i deal with everyday from the boys and when it happens to me, his answer is "it cant be that bad"
I must admit..I have been slack in the dieting department. Not that im indulging...its that im not eating. I eat like once a day and I know that is bad for me. I need to get back on track. Just with the changes of work and then coming home to clean up after the men folk, who feels like eating. I promised myself next week, I was taking healthy snacks to work and try to pack a lunch that is far better than vending machine crap.
I hope you are all doing well...i miss you...Keep me in your thoughts because I want to lick an electrical outlet to get a vacation from the wreck I have been cleaning!
Ok, so I hate when things mess with me. I am trying to post on the Phentermine site like I have in the past and they have changed the format. It will not let me do anything. Are any of you on the Phentermine site and can explain this to me sense it seems like an act of congress to get some actual help on that site! This site seriously is making me want to eat just out of frustration.
Nothing much is happening in my world except the kids getting bigger and louder. lol, As sad as it seems, Im looking forward to the day I can go potty and not have little eyes questioning what Im doing.
I am doing great where portion control goes. And as far as water in take...The area Im lacking is the exercise. Lately, the kids have been on go all day and night. Waking at 4 am and running until 11-12 at night. Dont ask me what has gotten into them. But they exhaust me!! After being up with them half the night...who has the energy to fat blast with billy blanks...Not I said the cow.
Lol, if you look up the definition of slacker...you would find a picture of me! I have been a bad EPer. I have decided I would do 2 weeks on, 2 weeks off of the phentermine. I just dont want to become too dependant upon it. I wont have it the rest of my life and I have to learn to do without it. So, I have been going it alone. I havent done too bad...my biggest splurge was 2 pieces of chucke cheese pizza..and needless to say..my body rejected that mess!
My week has been fun filled. I go to my first day of work, and the ASSistant manager didnt add me to the system, and of course I go in and the Manager on duty..knows nothing of me, and the system is updating so I couldnt start. Then it was come back Wed. no, come back thursday. NOW..its come back on tuesday again. I swear...no wonder they have helped wanted signs posted. And to top it off..my brother inlaw, and sister were trying to put their boat in the water..my bil slipped, his wedding ring, caught a cleat where the anchor was..and literally severed his finger almost off...They made it to the ER...they sewed it up, and referred him out to a surgeon...come to find out..he severed the artery, nerves and tendons..after putting it all back together, they wonder about it ever functioning again. So say a prayer. With his pre operation blood work..they also said they found him diabetic. And as most know...Diabetes is rough when trying to heal.
It is so nice to just sit here and be, one kid is sleeping, the other is showing me his matchbox cars. Agh the peace and quiet. I hope all of you have a great week..
Well, I have sunk to an all time low....no longer do I race to the scale aisle in walmart...I now walk into the pet store and step on the dog scale. I mean what the heck! That is problems. Although the dog scale says 5 lbs different than the drs.
I have traded one obsession for another...food versus bingo. I joined an online bingo league...and it is such a great group of people. Supportive, funny...and I get to play bingo. Yes, Im only 30 with the soul of a granny. My husband laughs at me. Instead of eating, i turn to bingo..it keeps my hands busy..so it works
I start my new job officially tomorrow...Oy, to be on a schedule and then come home to take care of children. And clean after hub. I hope he falls into the routine well, and realizes I cant do it all. It makes me nervous. We have fallen into the well organized routine before so I hope its easy transitioning again.
I dont know if I told you all, but my mom bought me and the boys a new pup...Her name is Fergie..she is a mini daschund. and is just adorable.
Lol...you know its been awhile when you come back and EP has changed everything around. Just kidding. My family and I took a little mini vacation to the beach. We are surrounded by coast, yet went to another beach. We had lots of fun. My 3 year old has tried to learn to swim and actually does well at it. Only regret I can say is that I splurged, ate what I wanted, but in moderation. No overboard. Its not even a regret...its just that side of me that says. You are 3 lbs away from Onederland...what the heck are you thinking?
I cant believe I am sitting that close to Onederland. Lol, every time I read Onederland..I sing...Your bodys a wonderlanddddd. Yea i know Cheesyyyy...but what can I say. Im excited. My dr said since I am doing so well on the medication, I dont have to be seen for 3 months...which puts a damper on my graph because I only post official results. But, imagine that grand dip next time I go to the dr. I start work on Monday so the movement from that, and exercising..should help me shrink. I am excited for actually taking a picture of the family and not being the fatty that I was. Just for whim I put my hubs pants on...(hes a skinny ass) and they were not far from buttoning...hub said omg if you can wear those, I am going on a diet myself. I said THANKS!....
I hope you are all well...Im going to try to post a new picture. Be good
Hiya all...Today was weigh in...I was 203. So that makes 36 lbs gone since I started. I am so excited yet SOOOOO sad that I missed Onederland. Makes me think, hmmm if I didnt do this or that, I might have made it..But, I am almost there, and I am so excited!!! Onederland evades me!!! dang it. Dr said I am doing so well on my own, that he doesnt want to see me for another 3 months. woohooo imagine what I will be at that time??
As far as the pup situation, well he kind of took care of it himself. His previous owner didnt bother getting him shots, he got very sick, and a vet tech friend took him in, and she said they put him down he was so ill. Such a shame to see an 8 week old pup put down, because of someones lack of care of him (and no it wasnt my fault, we had him 2 days)
I hope all is well...I promise to catch up with all of you this week. I miss you!!
