I have NEVER been able to do what I did, but I did it and I feel great.
I've been known to have secret rendevous with sweets and I'm not talking candy, well unless it was chocolate. But I am the pastry/bakery QUEEN BEE. It seems like every birthday or every celebration would lead me back to old habits. Eat it, whord it and hide it. But today was different and here's why.
I was on the phone with my dh when I heard him say, "go ahead and eat it (talking to the boys) because SHE doesn't want to see it." Hey, *someone* is finally listening to me. So the...dare I say it...cake is on the table when I get home, not because it was that obvious, but because I was looking for it...I knew it was in there somewhere.
After my usual mad dash to the bathroom, I came back down to confront my worst enemy...chocolate cake.
I was a predator circling its prey fresh after the hunt. I poked and prodded a little. The I tore of its skin (the foil) and lightly swiped it tasting the icing. A sick sense of pleasure came over me when I realized that I wasn't a predator.
I calmly put the skin back over my prey and ever so gently pushed it to the bottom of the garbage.
I am so excited, the "old" me would've had a field day with that, but I've been working way too hard to let that cake defeat me on this day.
Thanks for sharing in this victory with me.
Posted By: Tawanda
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05/25/2007 21:48
Hooray!
I am so proud of you! It is always such a great feeling to turn down something that normally would have made us eat and eat and eat! Keep up the great work!
That is a great victory! You should be so proud of yourself! The way you vividly described this experience was wonderful! You should write books, especially children's books!
it always makes you feel good when you realize there is life after cake. lol. i have the same relationship with food, i love it! it is hard to retrain yourself, to allow yourself to say no and decide that you deserve better. i noticed that you have not posted in a while. i am slacking in that dept. too. keep up the great work!
I'm glad you are still working your program. I had lost the vision with my knee injury. This week was my first week working out. I have to get back use to portion control.
You look fabulous! I'm just starting out, but you have given me an example of what it will feel like as these pounds melt off. I WILL feel better. I'll look MUCH better. I can't wait. A 5K run? HUH? You go, girl. I'm definitely saving you as a friend because I'd love to see your progress, and encourage you on, and hope that you will do the same!
