Why is this so hard to do?
Okay, so I am not a breakfast eater and a lot of the times I am not a lunch eater. I know that you have to eat to keep your metabolism up. So I went and bought some protein powder drinks to replace what I "should" be eating for breakfast and sometimes lunch. It really is not that great, yet I am trying my best to get the caloires and protein in that I need.
I have to say that with having 4 others to cook for or go out to eat with, I have been good. We went to "Jack in the box" last night and I ordered the Chicken fajita in a pita wrap. It came with curly frys, why I have NO idea, and I did not eat them! Yay meee..LOL I still feel awful though. I have been taking the Adipex diet pills that my doctor put me on for a week now. Everyone says "it will give you energy". It does not give me anything. Of course since I am home-schooling my three teenage kids and taking care of my daughter who is disabled. i guess I use that energy up too fast. LOL
I know I need to exercise, even if it is to my walking video, yet I am too tired. How do I get the energy to even do that? I get so tired around 7:00 I can not stand it most days, yet I do not get in the bed until 11:00 or after depending on how my daughter is. My husband does help out a good bit, yet for some reason the kids always come to me not him. I suppose it is because I am the one home all the time since he works swing shifts. He does help get our daughter ready for bed , etc but when he goes to sleep he is out. I have a baby monitor beside my bed and have to keep an ear out for her saturation monitor and c-pap. So, do I "really" sleep? I doubt it and I do know that not getting enough rest can make it even harder to lose weight. I just do not know what to do. I am not making any exuses at all, I just need to make myself, push myself, what ever it takes to make the person inside of me come out. How do others manage who have a lot on them as well? I told my Mom that if I could go away for a month or two I know I could do it..But I would miss my kids and husband too much. So, I suppose I am asking~ do you have any ideas? I am open to advice as I know I can not try to lose weight alone.