One day at a time

I have learned in life that I need to take it one day at a time.

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  • Name: CHD Mom of 2
  • City: Travelers Rest
  • Region: South Carolina
  • Country: United States

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Why is this so hard to do?

Okay, so I am not a breakfast eater and a lot of the times I am not a lunch eater.  I know that you have to eat to keep your metabolism up.  So I went and bought some protein powder drinks to replace what I "should" be eating for breakfast and sometimes lunch. It really is not that great, yet I am trying my best to get the caloires and protein in that I need.
 
I have to say that with having 4 others to cook for or go out to eat with, I have been good.  We went to "Jack in the box" last night and I ordered the Chicken fajita in a pita wrap.  It came with curly frys, why I have NO idea, and I did not eat them!  Yay meee..LOL  I still feel awful though. I have been taking the Adipex diet pills that my doctor put me on for a week now. Everyone says "it will give you energy".  It does not give me anything.  Of course since I am home-schooling my three teenage kids and taking care of my daughter who is disabled. i guess I use that energy up too fast. LOL
 
I know I need to exercise, even if it is to my walking video, yet I am too tired.  How do I get the energy to even do that? I get so tired around 7:00 I can not stand it most days, yet I do not get in the bed until 11:00 or after depending on how my daughter is.  My husband does help out a good bit, yet for some reason the kids always come to me not him.  I suppose it is because I am the one home all the time since he works swing shifts. He does help get our daughter ready for bed , etc but when he goes to sleep he is out.  I have a baby monitor beside my bed and have to keep an ear out for her saturation monitor and c-pap. So, do I "really" sleep? I doubt it and I do know that not getting enough rest can make it even harder to lose weight. I just do not know what to do. I am not making any exuses at all, I just need to make myself, push myself, what ever it takes to make the person inside of me come out. How do others manage who have a lot on them as well? I told my Mom that if I could go away for a month or two I know I could do it..But I would miss my kids and husband too much. So, I suppose I am asking~ do you have any ideas? I am open to advice as I know I can not try to lose weight alone.  

Following the road until a turn appears....

On this day 8 years ago we were told that our daughter had a congenital heart defect.  I have allowed the hurt, fear, anger and sadness to over take my body in the way of eating.  I have allowed myself to gain weight and put my health at risk. I am a mother of four with one being disabled and needing 24/7 care.  This time in my life I have come to realize that the past is the past and I need to keep my eye on the future.  I need to gain control and focus on who I want to be.  I know that I am a child of God and that HE wants the best of me, so I need to honor his request.  Losing weight is hard yet putting it on is so simple. Why is that? Who knows, yet I have done it. With the late night eating after all the kids have gone to bed..  No eating during the daybecause I try to get things done when I can therefore mputting my metabolism to a zero.  Losing weight is not all about exercise it is about a mindset that you have to put yourself into.  You have to keep telling yourself that you can do it.  You have to keep asking yourself, are you really hungry or just bored?  I made a promise to myself at the begining of this year that I am going to change!  I am going to get myself where I want to be in weight, spiritually as well as emotionally.  Is it a lot to take on at one time.  Yes, yet that is why I vow to take it "One day at a time".  In addition to losing weight I need to stop smoking and have started taking steps toward that. I will over come all my obsticles.  When? No true date can be given, yet I know it will happen.  I have to continue on this road and when the time comes to turn left or right, I will follow that road until another turn appears.