I am going to re-vamp by Healthy Habits a little.  Matter of fact, I will probably fine tune it as the days progress. 

Simple things however, like changing the meat intake to maybe 15 ounces per week and adding "the other white meat" pork tenderloin along with the fish, chicken and turkey.  Letting the 15 ounces be consumed in any quantities during the week just so it does not pass the 15 OUNCES.

A few other things will be re-defined also, however, I will re-post it when I get more things adjusted.

Since November 30th I have released 3 lbs. 4 ounces YAY .  Maybe some of it was fluid but I really think some of it was fat.....it got pissed off and decided to take leave since I wasn't feeding it ANYMORE!!

My eating has been on program but I didn't get to walk today like I had planned but I did manage a few minutes on the Jack Lalane stepper this morning and that thing will have you breathing hard within 2 minutes flat.

CONFESSION....I have a terrible trait....one I am not proud of.  I can go from loving, sweet, compassionate Charlotte to fuming, ranting, raving rude BITCH in 5 seconds flat!!!!!!!!  .  I hate that trait in myself and I will be honest.....I wouldn't put up with ME for more than about 30 minutes before I would put ME out of my misery.  Everyone please have compassion for my husband.   TO MAKE MATTERS worse......I would rather walk on a bed of coals than to say I am sorry and confess it was my fault.......THERE...you have met my dark side.  I seriously need your prayers!!

Me

Two days down and many more to go toward my healthy eating habits....  I FEEL so good just from eating good clean, healthy foods for these past days.  No sluggish feelings.....

Did manage some walking today along with house cleaning....down on my knees scrubbing the bathroom and kitchen floors cleaning.  If things go as planned tomorrow I will do the carpets and that is a major "movement" job.

Out of here for a good nights rest so I can get an early start on another healthy day.  Blessings to each of you for happiness.  Chargail

I faced my mountain and found that actually it was only a molehill that my mind had led me to believe was an impassable molehill.

My husband just finished using the word "awkward" and that is what I just knew the situation was going to be, never ever be a person that looks for the worst in every situation!! 

There has been a lot of love, hugging, talking, understanding going on in our little home at Allatoona Lake in Georgia this holiday.  Tears have been shed and love has conquered all fears and doubts.  I have been able to LOOK beyond the "trans" transformation with my heart and not my eyes and all I can see is my "grandchild" that I have known and loved for 25+ years.  Yes, the voice is deeper, hair shorter, breast missing but the heart and soul is the same as always.

Food wise I am afraid I transgressed back into the habits of old....eating way too much food.  Today has been much improved and I have food plans for the next 4 days that are very healthy.  At least we did not cook tons of food that would be around as "fatty leftovers" for days.

Tomorrow begins a new day in many ways for me.  It will be the 1st day of Advent and what better day to begin a new day for many things.

I hope everyone had a blessed, happy and healthy Thanksgiving holiday.  We all have so much to thank God for.

Blessings to each of you for health, happiness, wealth and peace in your lives.  Chargail 

I am beginning to think I have found that comfort we all seek in our foods .  It is not as comforting as it "professes to be".  Don't be lured in by the demon laced beckoning finger that we see on tv, store ads, magazines, etc......it really does not give the comfort we seek......it is actually pain disguised as comfort.

Tomorrow ushers in a NEW PHASE in my life.  For the first time I get to "see" my granddaughter turned grandson.  This grandchild is coming to visit for Thanksgiving and will be with us for 3 or 4 days.  I am really struggling here and I know that after everything is over with I will look back and say......why did I think it would be so hard???  With every e-mail or every phone conversation we have exchanged over the last couple of weeks there has been so much EXCITEMENT about coming to see us. 

This child has the same HEART, SOUL AND LOVE as always.  I am the one apparently that has CHANGED.  I came with a "dyed in the wool" image of how things are meant to be.....and this upsets my apple cart something fierce....don't upset my little world.....I am a LIBRA, everything needs to be in balance.

Enough Chargail as life does go on!!!!!!!!!!!

Now, do you see the emotions behind my eating????

Blessings to each of you and I pray for safety to each of you traveling.  May your holiday be filled with health, happiness, peace of mind and love.  Chargail

I am beginning to think that my body has reached a shape and weight that it is complacent with and this sort of frightens me.  ENTERS my warped dysfunctional mental image. 

I am not a LOT overweight, however, I am overweight for my height and age by about 6 pounds on the upper end of the scale.  I am eating right, exercising, drinking water, etc., but it seems to never get below the 144 mark anymore.  When I am at the 144 weight then I am only 2 pounds overweight according to the doctors weight chart.

I grew up with a WARPED image of people and weight.  You were meant to be skinny, everyone should be skinny, it not, then you were fatally fat.  My whole family judged each other by their weight.  In case I haven't mentioned my family is somewhat dysfunctional.  Most people probably don't perceive us as being that but believe me in the privacy of our gatherings (9 of siblings) we can be quite the dictionaries delight of "dysfunctional".

So now, this warped image sees me as being fat, even to the point that I don't think I could face any of my siblings at this weight for fear of being ridiculed about being a butterball.  NOW, I am adding to my own dysfunction or at least that is what I am reading as I type this. 

Where am I going with this??????????? I don't have the slightest idea.  Maybe I will stop right here and let this sink in.  Maybe I can get some insight from re-reading what I just wrote above. 

Much to my fear, I think I am once again seeing myself through the eyes of my siblings and I HATE that.......I don't even associate with them anymore simply because of the fact that everytime I was around any of them I came away feeling like I had lost an inch or two from my statue.  I love them dearly, however, I can only love them when I am not around them.  We each had this tendency to build our own image up by pushing another's image down.  WARPED dysfunctional individuals.

Blessings for each of you and pray for me today.  Chargail

First, I have had two fairly good days of exercise and eating.  Only exception would be the 4 oreo cookies that I ate last night.  hubby is to blame because he bought a pack of them yesterday and last night everytime he started to eat one he would ask "are you sure you don't want one" and of course after he ask me that ONCE...I felt the need to have one or 4 with him.  I realize that eating 4 oreos is not THAT BAD, however, it is that bad if you have had all the foods, drinks and snacks you need for the day.

Exercise included 30 minutes of walking daily along with some hand weights, situps, reverse situps, yoga stretching and calisthetics.  OK on that front.

Second, to the title......have you ever made love on a trampoline at night with the night air being your only cover and the stars your night light???  If you haven't......let me suggest you add that to your list of things to do before you die!!   Everyone knows I am a lover of nature and that I do not like my body being inhibited by clothes, however, I do realize that under most circumstances I do have to wear clothes.  THERE is nothing like the feel of the night air being your clothes and the stars shining upon your and your lovers body and the bounce of the trampoline under you.  NOW, I don't suggest you do this if you live in a condo or apartment complex.  But I was fortunate enough to live in the country and wide open spaces or the city with a large back yard and trees for privacy.  Make this a priority in you and your lovers future.  I guarantee you will find true pleasure and happiness.

Today is our second day off and it is COLD here in the mountains of North Ga.  The next few days promise more of the same.  But, what can I say...it is almost winter.  Enjoy the moment we are in....I am getting ready to go outside and rake up some leaves and burn them and just enjoy what sunshine we have at the moment.

Blessings to everyone for much happiness in your lives.  If I could share my happiness and love for this life with you would be a pleasure for me.  Chargail

I have been totally entertained this cold sunday morning by the deer.  First, two babies were out rummaging thru the leaves looking for any left over corn kernels from yesterday.  The babies are this year babies and they have little bumps on their heads where the horns are starting to push through.

Then, a doe in heat has been running zig zag across the woods "which is my back and front yard" giving 2 bucks a run for their money.  It is hilarious as you can see the focus in these guys eyes....heads down, noses flared....trying to get some of that action.  What is really funny is watching one of them try to cut across the yard in anticipation of the direction the doe will take and then she will turn in the opposite direction, those guys have some powerful stopping gears.  KUDOS to her, she is making those boys work for the prize.

The Cloris Leachman story....I had a radio talk show when I lived in Southern Indiana back in the mid 70's and that was the reason for the interview with Cloris.   She really is delightful and is very personable.  Like so many others she has that outer "celebrity shell" that once you break through you will find a real human.

I have had a couple of days of excellent eating...no overages on the almonds or sweets.  I did have a couple of lite beers both Friday and Saturday night, NO BAD!

1/2 cup oatmeal for breakfast w/bacon bits and 1/2 english muffin w/rf peanut butter & honey

I have ate tons of veggies like collards, cabbage, rutabagas. Lots of oranges. 

The only meat has been "canned breast" made into a salad with celery, red grapes, green onions and FF mayo.  OH, and my meat substitute, which has been black beans w/garlic & onions and I even put in some wheat pasta "spaghetti" and I might add.....IT IS DELICIOUS!! 

Got some walking in yesterday along with 30 minutes of hand weight workouts.  Then about 10 minutes of yoga style stretching.

Today is another opportunity.  Blessings to each of you for warmth (cold here in NW Georgia), health, happiness and peace in your lives.  Chargail

I had mexican for lunch yesterday and it did not taste as good as I thought it would....the restaurant is a great one, however, I just mean I had been craving mexican so I indulged and it really wasn't worth the extra fat & calories.   Lesson learned!

I bought fresh collards, cabbage, rutabagas, sweet potatos, bananas and "my best loved" oranges.  I have been straying too far away from the veggies and so I bought fresh ones and cooked some of them  last night.  I plan to hit the veggie plate hard for a couple of days.

I love oranges, especially when you cut a hole is the top and squeeze and suck the juice out.....OH MY GOODNESS...such sucking pleasure.

Every time I see or think of oranges I always think of Cloris Leachman.  Quite a few years ago I did an interview with her when she was in Indiana filming a movie.  She is quite the woman that you saw on "Dancing with the Stars".  She told me how the hotel she was staying at had to agree to provide her with freshly squeezed orange juice each morning....not from just one type of orange....no!! it had to come from 4 different types!  Had they not been able to do that she would have chosen to stay else where.  Now, in case you don't know that is having CLOUT!  She is a very nice person and we had a wonderful time chatting and exchanging "boob" stories.  When I see her today and see how vibrant she is.....I wonder....is it the oranges.

Off to work and getting physical activity in.  Blessings to each of you for happiness and peace.  Chargail

We had a wonderful visit with our friends yesterday.  We went to a buffet for lunch and I consider myself a SUCCESS because I only had a small plate of mostly veggies with the exception of a small serving of roast beef.  I promise you that is not my usual way of dealing with a buffet so I am proud of my success.

They rode us all over the town and area they live in which was a real treat because they live just a few miles from the Tennessee line in northwest Georgia and I must say the leaves on the trees in those mountains were breath-taking.  They live on a mountain and the view was spectacular.  The beauty God has given us to view with our eyes is indescribable.

I did not get in as much exercise as I would have liked because it was rather chilly and at times misting rain yesterday.  However, I did really watch my food intake and that is a major improvement. 

Today will be another chance to be successful and I have already started with healthy eating this morning. 

If you have not read it already you really should check out jenny-in-london's blog.....that girl rocks with inspiration.

Blessings for a successful day everyone.  Chargail