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| Start weight: | 284.00lb |
| Current weight: | 222.00lb |
| Goal weight: | 230.00lb |
| Lost to date: | 62.00lb |
| Remaining: | -8.00lb |
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In my last blog I mentioned that I am now wearing smaller, non 20 sized clothing. Specifically, it's something of a fitted sweater I found on sale. It's....clingy. Which is something I haven't worn in years. Loose clothing was preferred.
Which brought me to my discovery today: I have great boobs! I forgot about them!
I may have to go buy more of these sweaters in different colors....
Tears of joy, that is!
I started out at a 43.2 BMI. Today? I'm still in the "obese" range, but not by much more. I'm at a 33.9, and need to get down to a 30 before I can be considered for a kidney transplant.
Also...I am comfortably in clothing that no longer starts with a 2! As in I am now wearing less than a size 20. Wow. I haven't been there in ages. This is such a wonderful feeling!
I'm at a bit of a standstill in the weight department. I need to get moving, going, lose it. My future does depend on it. Now I just need to get my body and brain to sync and get it done.
I've joined a weight loss group on one of my forums. I hope this helps me get it done.
Food was good. Now it's repulsive to me again. I guess I'm going to be feeling icky and worn out and weak again for awhile. I hope it passes soon. I truly hate feeling this way.
it took awhile, but I think I broke through my plateau. I just hope I keep going down. My life literally depends on it.
I've hit a bit of a plateau for now, but I definitely have incentive to keep going.
I talked to the dialysis center director yesterday about a transplant. The doctor hasn't referred me to the transplant list yet because of my weight. The BMI requirements are 26 or below for women to receive a transplant.
The basic thoughts behind being that way about it is this: Why give someone who isn't going to try to be as healthy as possible a second chance at life?
So if someone is a smoker, they need to not be. If someone has heart issues, they need to be fixed. If someone is overweight, they need to take care of it. And the list for "healthy" goes on and on. All transplant recipients go through an extremely extensive physical and mental checkup prior to the operation.
I started out at a 43.2 BMI. I am currently a 36.2. I need to get down to 171 or lower to be at or below a 26.
The bad news is I have a long way to go. The good news is I've come a long way. I just need to keep trucking along.
Oh well. I've gained 3 pounds. Life goes on, right?
Eventually it'll go away, and I'll be lighter again. Before this, I was definitely not ok with my weight roller-coastering. But now I realize it's ok, that it's actually normal. I guess as long as I don't gain all of it back I'll be ok. A few pounds I can handle.
Thank you for your support and comments. And a special thank you for the kidney offer. The comments and support mean a lot to me. It helps make me realize I'm not alone, that I can win this battle.
I don't know that I'll ever be "ideal" weight or have an ideal body...in fact I'm certain about the body....having 2 kids has taken a toll on it. My boobs and abdomen will likely never recover to my perky taut teen self. But the kids are well worth a not so perfect body. As much as I'd love to have Fergie's body, it seems like it'd be an awful lot of upkeep on it. So I'll just have to be happy with what I was given, and I do know I'm on the road to happiness in my self image.
I think the toughest thing up until now was take it day by day. I was too eager to see the end result, and as a result of that I overate and got even heavier. It was depressing seeing only 1/2 pound or so come off every 7 days. I know now I didn't apply myself very well then, and failure in weight loss was going to be a norm until I changed my attitude.
Even if I get a kidney right this minute, I will not be returning to my over-indulging self. I know now what it takes to see the weight come off, and although I would slow down on the weight loss, I would still do it. I want to be healthy, see my kids grow, have fun in life.
Thanks for reading. I look forward to reading some inspiring stories in everyone's blog.
Until next time....
First off, thank you for visiting. I want to chronicle my weight loss through this blog.
On August 4th of this year my kidneys failed. Well, I should actually say my kidney failed since one of the two hasn't worked in years. Anyways I went in to the hospital weighing an embarrassing 284 pounds. Since then I have had little to no appetite. Food doesn't smell or taste good. Things I used to enjoy no longer appeal to me.
I go in for dialysis 3 times a week...every Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday. It's not the most fun experience ever, but it isn't nearly as bad as one would think, either. Eventually I will get a transplant.
To date, I have lost 44 pounds. Some of it is fluid weight, but at this point, I think most of it is actual weight. My kidney doctor wants me to lose weight before I can get a transplant. I hope this is meeting his criteria so far.
My husband and kids are extremely supportive. I love them so much! They are my life, my reason for everything in my life.
Well that's my past 2 months in a nutshell. Until next time....
