Changing Me Forever

Sorry I haven't been here

Thursday, November 2, 2006 00:04:01

I haven't been here but I haven't left JC either. I am down a little over 30 lbs now. Life is good. My doctor is much happier with my blood work. I am much happier with it. Cutting out so much of the fat has sure helped. I am not sick all the time. I feel like I have a life. I saw some friends over the weekend and they couldn't tell me enough how much better I looked and that looked like I felt so much better. HEY I DO...
Nothing taste as good as feeling great feels. Comments(3)

I am a bad bad girl

Monday, October 30, 2006 23:01:00

yep I am a bad girl. I haven't been posting. But life has been a little wild and crazy for me lately. However I have been good as far as my JC has gone. I have stuck to that and my weight is going down on a slow and steady pace. I am down to 263.2 and my starting wt was 287.4. I can't complain about this.
I thank everyone that has been so sweet to post on my blog.

The other day I decided to make a list of 10 things that have changed since I started this program.
So here is my list.
1. I feel so much better and in control of my life.
2. Clothes that have not fit me in over 5 years are now fitting and some are even getting to big.
3. I can do things that I haven't been able to do in a long time. Like walk around at the Balloon Fiesta and I didn't even go last year because I knew I couldn't handle it.
4. I don't have to move my car sit at all anymore, not to get in or out.
5. I can now take a tub bath again. I had to stop because of the pain of trying to get out of the tub was really bad on my knee. But I can do it know...woo hoo..I really missed that.
6. I fit in a movie theater seat without being pinched on my hips.
7. I have learned to go out and eat and not over eat.
8. It is easier to get up out of a chair. I don't groan as I am getting up.
9. My husband said he can now wrap his arms around me.
I didn't even realize he couldn't but he was very happy when he could.
10. I have grown to believe I CAN DO THIS. I know I will reach my goal. Comments(3)

WI day and I am really happy

Friday, December 8, 2006 23:02:19

Today was the best WI ever.
I was so excited when my JCC told me I had lost 4.2 lbs.
For a total of 19.4.
It never fails to amaze me how well this program works.
I feel better, I have more energy than I have had in years.
I am really just enjoying my life so much more.
I can't imagine not doing this now. Comments(9)

Shame on me

Friday, December 8, 2006 23:00:20

I totally forgot to come post my loss last week.
I knew it wasn't going to be a good as other weeks but it was a loss.
And for that I am happy. I lost 0.8 lb. My next WI is Wednesday.
I will never be able to express in words how happy I am that I discovered Jenny Craig. I feel like I am finally in control of my life and my weight. I know one day in the future I will be saying. I DID IT. I have reached my goal.
This week I rejoined my old gym and have started taking water aerobics and I am using the bike. I hope in a few months I will be up to joining some of the other classes. However I am taking it all one day at a time. Life is good. Comments(3)

One Full Month

Thursday, December 7, 2006 22:09:22

Well I have been on Jenny Craig now for one full month.
I am so excited and so ready to stay on this program.
I lost another 3 lbs for a total of 14.4 lbs and 7.25 inches off my body. This really has been a great month.
To celebrate my one full month I had a pedicure.
Only .6 lbs left to go to my first mini goal of 15 lbs. Comments(6)

WI Day

Thursday, December 7, 2006 22:02:21

I had my WI today for another -2 lbs a total now of 11.4.
I just can't get over how good most of the food is. How easy it has been. I am even totally enjoying the walking.
One more week and it will be exactly 1 month.
Usually by this time I am thinking of ways to quit.
I am not this time for sure. Comments(7)

The Day before WI

Thursday, December 7, 2006 22:01:14

Why is it, that the day before WI always seems so hard.
I know I will go WI, not like when I joined WW and I could just say I didn't want to sit in a meeting so I would run in and weigh and leave. With JC, I know my counselor is going to talk to me about how my week has gone and I do enjoy the one on one.
Also because I bought a life time membership to JC I really feel committed to go. It would be way to much money to blow.
But I dread the day before WI much more than I do WI day.
I hope I will begin to get over that. Perhaps I should just start doing something special on Tuesdays so I don't think so much about it. Even tho I know I have been on program. I haven't cheated, I am always afraid I will have gained. Sometimes I wonder how I can eat so much and not gain. When before I ate very little and gained or stayed fat all the time. I know I had my body in starvation mode, and that is why I wasn't losing.
My goodness, I think I am beginning to see I do have an eating disorder. Its not that I love to eat, its that I hate to eat. So why am I not extremely thin??? Before JC, I would not eat all day long, and then at night I would have dinner and then snack on stuff during the evening. My body hung on to every bite. Learning to eat on a schedule has not been easy for me. Sunday I just couldn't make myself eat. I finally forced myself to eat lunch, it tasted good but I had to choke it down. (for those reading this I apologize for the rambling, but I am just letting my thoughts flow to see where it was going). Looking back on my life before JC and even Sunday, I realize I may need to discuss this with someone. And I think as I write this I know why I have done this to myself. It started as a teenager, when I would get up alone to go to school, I would get my lunch money and go to the corner store and buy a honey bun and a Pepsi, and then I couldn't eat lunch because I had no money.
So I would come home from school and have a sandwich then dinner a few hours later. I started a path then that here I am at 54 and I am still on it. There was a lot of guilt in what I was doing. First my mother thought I was eating lunch. Second, I wasn't suppose to be going into the store. I knew if I was caught I would be in so much trouble. Wow you never realize where your problems start until you start working hard at them.
Then suddenly you uncover a secret that was so buried you forgot it.. I guess this is what you might call a breakthrough. Comments(2)

I won I won I won

Thursday, December 7, 2006 23:09:03

I WON, I WON , I WON!!!!!!
Tonight I faces one of my biggest battles.
I knew I had to face it. I knew that I had to have a plan and it better be a good one.
I went to a party. Once a month a group of friends of ours gets together and everyone brings food. It isn't a dinner its doesn't start until after 7 so everyone brings goodies.
And we sat around and talk for hours and hours.
Its fun. However I was determined not to indulge. So I made sure all day long that I was satisfied with each of my 3 meals.
This morning I went to the grocery story and bought lots of fresh veggies and I created a beautiful veggie tray and took it to the party.
I had a wonderful time. I never bothered to get a plate, I took a napkin, a few pieces of veggies and later I had a few grapes.
Besides my diet soda, that was it. I spent my time far away from the food, I laughed and talked with good friends. To be honest until I got into my car to go home, it didn't dawn on me that I hadn't even missed the food.
I came home feeling really pleased that I had a plan and it worked.
So that is my win for this week.
I now know I can go to a party and it doesn't have to be about food.
And my friends being the great support team they are, none of them tried to get me to eat anything or had anything negative to say.
Life is good,

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WI Day

Thursday, December 7, 2006 23:05:20

Oh I was dancing around JC today.
I lost 2 more lbs making a total of 9.4 since I started 16 days ago.
I was so so so happy. Next week I get measured again.
I would have never thought I would be excited about that.
But I am.
I am so happy I joined Jenny, Comments(3)

Sunday last day of my 2nd week

Thursday, December 7, 2006 23:02:19

Hi everyone and thank you for reading my blog.
Well I am on my last day of my 2nd week on JC.
I have gone for 2 weeks without cheating.
I still feel great about Jenny Craig. I have added a sub lingual B12 and a B complex to my vitamins because I started getting shaky and a friend suggested I give it a try ..it helped right away.
I have been walking at least 5 times a week for at least 30 mins on my tread mill.
As I said before I am very happy with my program.
My next WI is Wednesday morning. I will post how that went.
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