Time to step it up

Ok...even though I weighed in 2 pounds lighter this week, I still feel like I haven't put my "all" into this journey. I have been playing it way too safe. Today, it's time to get the exercise in. I have this love/hate relationship with exercise. I HATE getting started but LOVE it once I get into the routine of it. I know how good I feel once I get into a routine with it. Because I already know this, you would think that I would just get back right into it KNOWING how good I feel when I do exercise. Ummm....yeah.

I also need to drink more water. I am already in th habit of drinking of at least 32 oz, but it's just not enough.

No more messing around and playing it safe. No more of just being "ok" with this, or I'll just end up getting "ok" results.

I'm back

from vacation that is ;) I didn't do too bad eating wise, but I think I over did it on the alcohol.  Which would explain my gain. Oh well...time to get back on track!

We drove to upstate NY to visit friends. It's a 600 mile trip and worth every mile. It helps that my girls are good travelers. Route 86 from Erie, PA to Binghamton, NY is highly recommended if you ever visit NY. Just BEAUTIFUL!

Sooner or Later

Well, my middle daughter just turned 13. For some reason, she triggered a memory that I had way back in my mind. I don't know if it was her age, her innocence, or what but it took me back to my pre-teen years. In 1979, I was about 9 or 10 years old. It really was a great era to be a kid. I remember back to this one movie that I could vaguely remember, but there were a few scenes in the movie that really stuck in my memory. If any of you were around your early teens during this time, I am sure you may remember this movie. (I think most of you on F&F are too young to even know about this movie.) Anyway...this movie is called "Sooner or Later" and it's about a 13 yr old girl who lies about her age to get the attention of an older boy who is 17 and a "rock star". Well, there is a scene in the movie where she gets her heart broken and is sitting at her kitchen table binge eating an entire chocolate cake, crying her eyes out. That scene has stuck with me all these years. At the age of 9/10, I could totally relate to Jessie's behavior. That wasn't the only scene where she used food to deal with her feelings. Right before that scene, she was on a date with Michael and had ordered an OBSCENE amount of food at the movie theatre because she was so nervous about "messing around" with Michael and was feeling the guilt of not telling him the truth. But, even knowing that the entire movie was a young love story, it was the food scenes that stuck with me. I was overweight at age 9/10. Puberty got the best of me and I learned very bad habits by using food to deal with my feelings as a young pre-teen. This is how Jessie dealt with her feelings too. I think if Jessie was a real life character, I bet she would be struggling with her weight just like all of us here. It kind of makes you more aware for your own young teen. It brings in a different perspective and realization that our eating habits stem from when we are children. No wonder there are so many teens out there with eating disorders. But, for some of us who overeat, we never got that chance back then to have someone intervene and teach us how to deal with our feelings withOUT food. I have taught my 13 yr old to journal her feelings instead of feeding them. I just hope she continues her life to deal with whatever she is going through with a pen instead of a fork.

Anyway...if you have never seen this movie....I HIGHLY recommend it if you have a young preteen/teen. If you can get past the "cheesyness of the 70's" movie era, the movie has a GREAT message and it brings back all those feelings we had when we were that age. You can rent it through Netflix. I bought the movie for my daughter as a birthday present.

I can't stop eating!

UGH! AF is due ANY day and I am just sitting here eating whatever I can get my hands on because NOTHING is satisfying! It all started healthy like baby carrots dipped in red roasted pepper hummus. Then I cut up a cucumber with a drizzle of italian dressing. Then I moved on to some taco bean dip w/ whole grain tortilla chips. I STILL wanted to eat! So, when I went to the grocery store to get a few things I was out of (gee...I wonder why), I decided to buy a PIECE of cake from the bakery isle as they sell single servings (well...let's just say it's ONE HUGE square). So...I figured...what the heck...I'll eat it, be done with it...problem solved, right? It's gotta be better than buying a whole cake right?

I feel like I am about to puke and burst at the seams. I should have just gone straight to the store, bought the damn cake and made it worth it.

Nuff said.

Ok..maybe that wasn't such a great idea afterall

Made the cake....it's delish...

I can eat the entire pan...not good.

This would be something I could make to take somewhere, have my serving and leave it. This cannot be left in the house.

At least I have my 1 point WW ice cream bars. They have been very satisfying at 1 serving.

Cake w/ Diet Pop

Ok...I have not made this but have known about it for years. I think I will be giving this a try as everyone raves about it.

Simple, cheap, and it's only 2 ingredients.

Find your favorite cake mix in a box and add a 12 oz can of diet pop (or soda.....depending what part of the country your from  ) Mix well and bake as directed. That's it!

Now, from what I have read about this is...for a 9x13 pan, cut into 12 slice servings=3pts a piece. Or 24 cupcakes=1.5 pts. Make sure you read the label on the cake mix as different brands and flavors may vary in points.

You can also get creative with this....

• Orange Cake~diet cream soda
• Orange Cake~diet Mt. Dew
• Cherry Chip Cake~diet cream soda
• Chocolate Cake~diet Cherry soda
• White Cake~diet Peach Soda
• Spice Cake~diet Lemon Lime or Sprite/7-up
• Marble Cake~diet Cream Soda

As you can see...the possibilities are endless. I am making this tonight! I will report back and give you all my review

Meh

Today has been a very crummy day, eating wise. The only thing I can think of is maybe I'm PMSing a few days early. I only eat this way a week before AF. Up until today I have done VERY well with eating. Even with my water. It's been great! I have been feeling awesome the past few days because I am actually putting good foods inside my body and staying hydrated. Then today...BAM...out of no where I want cakes, cookies, chips, chocolate. UGH! I haven't even had it in my house! So....I know it's not withdrawls because I haven't had the crap around since the cookie incident.

So...here's the plan Stan....tonight...I am looking up and researching for really good point friendly substitutes. I already have one that Kelly posted on F&F. THAT was good! If you haven't tried it, I highly recommend it. It takes away that "sweet" tooth craving and if it's hot outside...it's very refreshing! It's a Choco-Banana Smoothie and VERY delish!

On a mission....if I find some really good ones ( I will test them first)..and if they are a hit..I will share them

Schedule

Today was a pretty good day overall. Very productive...cleaned the kitchen from top to bottom. Tomorrow I will mop and hopefully under all this flab on my arms, I will feel some muscles being used. I even completed my water challenge today...go me! You can tell when you haven't been drinking enough water because you have to go pee every 10 mins. It was actually very annoying but at least I know it's only temporary until my body adjusts. I was going to go for a walk with my 5 yr old but we ran out of time. It was getting dark outside and realized it was getting past her bedtime and needed to get her in the shower. I need to make out a schedule for myself because once September gets here and I go back to school and the kids are back in school, the only way for this weight loss is going to work is to have some kind of schedule. That's the thing about summer...our house is TOTALLY off schedule and it makes it hard to fit in things like exercise. So.....I think tomorrow I will be making out a schedule and see how it goes. Tomorrow is weigh-in day. I don't think I have lost any...I am sure I have gained, but I am being accountable. Tomorrow is a new day and a new week

I have no excuse

I mean...I *could* have a million excuses into why I haven't been sticking to plan but excuses are like assholes, everyone has one. So, lets just say, today I got back on track and hope for a "lucky" weigh-in on Monday.

I did get myself a paper journal to write out my food list and points. I find it much easier than online journaling (foodlists)...so I will stick to the blog for my thoughts and paper log my food, water, and "lack of exercise"...yeah..that's an entire blog entry in itself...LOL

I am making myself accountable right now. Anyone want to kick me in my ass, go ahead..I give you permission to do so.

Anyone want a pre-teen?

I have to remember to copy this blog entry because the other night I lost my entire blog entry and well....I wasn't a happy camper! But...I feel the need to write tonight.

Today was just one of those stressful days. I don't know why. I should be really happy but I'm not. You know you are having a bad day when your best friend and her husband come over to visit and you tell them that today is not a good day to visit because I was in a bad mood, and tell them to come back another day. They are probably thinking to themselves...what the HECK is up her ASS today? Yes...it was one of THOSE days.

I am having trouble with my almost 13 yr old in 3 weeks..*need I say more?* Her OCD is getting under my skin so bad...then you add on to her typical 13 yr old *wish you would just start your period already* attitude that I am ready to run away. I kid you not. I told her I was going to send her to live with her dad today if the attitude didn't change. OMG! PLEASE...the middle school called and wants there DRAMA QUEEN BACK! grrrrrr

So....yeah...well...today I guess I did well with my eating..as much as I could considering. I do remember grabbing a couple of those cookies her dad sent with her home from last Tuesday. With the day I had today, I am surprised they were still there. Oh well...I accounted for them and that is that. Better luck next time to resist.

Tomorrow is going to get really interesting though. The 17 yr old and her boyfriend come over. God I HOPE SHE leaves the drama at her dad's house. If not...I am moving to Guam.