HAPPY NEW YEAR
Hi everyone, HAPPY NEW YEAR! I probably should have written that yesterday, but hey, it's better late than never.
So Christmas really got to me and I'm soooo off track. My mother is still in town visiting (she's a teacher so they get more time off) and we've been going out to eat a lot lately and it's not healthy places either. I love my mother and like spending time with her, but I have to get back to doing what I was doing in 2007 to lose the weight so today I'm back on track! I just have to.
So a co-worker got married on Saturday and since the per head costs were so expensive she could only allow those co-workers with significant others to bring dates. Guess who was the only one without a date??? Oh yeah, me! It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, but I did feel a little lonely and it reminded me that I've never had a boyfriend. I'M 25 AND NEVER HAD A BOYFRIEND! I know I'm not the only one like me, but I can't help but to think it has to do with my weight. I know it's not all true because there are plenty of full-figured women who have no problems with the opposite sex, but we live in such a materialistic, visual-appeal-is-all-that-matters society that it's difficult for women like me in the dating world. Don't get me wrong I don't have low self-esteem, but I do have insecurities and can sometimes use a confidence boost. It's moments like those (the wedding) that make me feel like "the fat girl" more than ever.
I have to get out of that mentality, stat!
