05/10/2012 15:30
Been a big week!
Yesterday evening I weighed in at 197 lbs...there is my 100lb mark! I have to say, while it's exciting, breaking into the 100's was much more exciting to me. Still...it's HUGE and I'm happy. This morning the scale said 196lbs! So two big goals in one week...just WOW!! Life at 297lbs was miserable compared to life at 196lbs!!
After weeks of my weight just holding a pound up or down, it's great to see such great drops! I feel I should have been seeing these drops more on a daily basis, but it's ok. At least it finally happened and proved all my hard work was worth it. I'm now only 26 lbs away from my initial goal of 170lbs. THAT is amazing to me!
I've had several people mention to me that no wonder my loss was so easy since I have a lap band. They better think again... quite honestly, I'm grateful for this lap band, but I've busted my butt to make the weight come off and I've done it with hard work and educating myself on what is right and wrong for me nutritionally. I should have been able to do it without this tool, but I didn't. The lap band is a tool, and like any other tool it can be used improperly. I encourage people to try it out when you are at your last resort, but only if you are serious. You can't puree mac and cheese and qualify that as nutritional! LOL (Yes, I know people who have done that and then wondered why they're not losing?) The lap band allowed me to get off the weight rollercoaster long enough to get a grip on myself and do things right. Aside from that, it has been all me and I'm pretty proud of it! I know that right now, if they were to take it out, I would still maintain this lifestyle. That is a good feeling!
Anyway, I am a happy lady today. Just wanted to say how much my quality of life has improved. It is worth any amount of work to feel this good!
You guys keep working at it too - stay focused and happy for what you are doing for yourself! :)
05/09/2012 16:04
Whoop! There it is! :) :)
I am so 
excited to be able to say I've finally dropped below 200lbs! 
So many times I've dreamed of that moment...it WAS as good as I've dreamed! LOL I got home from work yesterday afternoon and decided to weigh myself. I got on the scale and saw 198.6lbs. I was in disbelief...LMAO. So I got off and got on again - same number. I was so danged excited I called my oldest daughter downstairs and stood on the scale so I could make her look at the numbers too! Needless to say, it was a happy night in my house and I'm still smiling big today.
I recently shared my weight with my family and the guy I'm seeing. That's not something I've ever done before because I was so embarassed about it, but once I got to about 220lbs, it helped me to stay on task and more accountable. To be able to call them last night and share something so monumental was AWESOME!! It's also a great thing to be able to say it on here. So to those of you who are always so supportive and encouraging, THANK YOU!!!
I can't wait until my official weigh in at the doctors office on the 25th. I may just have to take myself up there to "borrow" his Tanita scale so I can see the break down! LOL
I'm still reeling over reaching this goal, but I have another big one right on it's heels. In 1.6lbs more I will have lost 100lbs! OMG! That's my youngest child! LMAO That might have to be a FB status! LMAO!!
Last night I got a solid reminder of why I'm not ever going back to my old habits. I was in Wal Mart and saw a beautiful young lady, quite large, who was pawing through the large box of $1 candy saying something to her friend like "Well I am a big girl so that's my excuse over why I can eat more than you!" I remember making those same excuses and eating the candy or extra large fries because I just wanted to stuff my face. I loved to eat. I still have that rare mental battle every now and then that makes me want just one more serving of this or that, but thank God for this surgery and the inability to have what I want all the time. I know what happens if I do gorge myself - it's painful and so WRONG for me now. Even more, the craving doesn't last. The mental improvement that has come along with this weight loss has given me the ability to not fall prey to binging and eating just because of this or that. I finally feel like I have control over myself and a nasty food addiction. Thank God!! Now, don't go thinking I don't steal a hershy kiss every blue moon...LOL! But isn't it great that me eating a hershy kiss has easily replaced me eating a whole candy bar? :)
OK...enough talking...LOL! You guys have a great day and hope you are all able to stick to it!! :)
05/07/2012 16:18
Oh SO Close! LOL
One pound. Just one more pound! LOL Really??? I behaved this weekend, God. What would one more measly little pound for me to lose possibly have hurt? LMBO
Okay... on the flip side? ONE MORE POUND TO GO TO ONEDERLAND! WOOOOOHOOOOOO!! I'm so happy!
Had a great weekend. I've enjoyed myself boating and playing out on the water with friends and my kids pretty much all weekend. I love my life now - I actually wore a bathing suit with NO COVER or tee shirt to hide me!! This is monumental. HUGE. I like it! I like the fact that I could climb back up into this big boat with ease and no assistance. The simple things that please me now...LOL. It's just awesome! :)
Saturday I went to a tea with my girls for a while. I ran into a man I worked with for five years and he seriously didn't recognize me. He had a conversation with me and finally after about two hours realized he was thinking I was someone else the whole time! LMBO I guess I do look different, but that different?? LOL
Anyway, I hope this sets the great pace for my summer. I'm determined to be gloriously tanned, happy and 30lbs lighter by the end of it!!! :D And...I'm still going to go parasailing! It's going to happen soon!
I've been a bit remiss in my gym workouts this last week and a half since my daughter had knee surgery, but I've still done smaller workouts at home. I hope to have my routine back to normal this week. She gets her stitches out today, thank goodness! Last week was also filled with end of the year awards banquets and stuff like that so it took my whole week up with all their activities. One more concert to go to for band on Tuesday and we'll be finished! Whoop!
04/22/2012 02:47
Onederland, Ho!! :)
Well, I've finally started dropping again and I'm pleased to see the scale move. I actually saw 203.6 on the scale this morning, but I'm thinking I'm a bit dehydrated so I'm not counting it yet! LOL I've been kind of sick and not drinking as much as I normally do. Now tomorrow if I see it you can bet it's going to be on here! LOL
I weighed in officially with the doctor yesterday to get the 204.5lbs. I'm getting so close to onederland! I pray the last few pounds can get on off me!! :) I had a good appointment and I've been asked to speak to others in May regarding my decision about surgery and how it's gone for me. I also got all the paperwork together and some pics for me to share my story on the doctor's online website and some other one as well. I'm honestly a little nervous about it, but I've known for some time and I should not be. I'm just still struggling a little with the "inner fat girl" part of me. I wonder if that will ever get easier?
I met with the plastic surgeon yesterday and he was a jackass. I was so disappointed. Don't get me wrong, he answered most of my questions, but he didn't bother to answer the important ones. He was most concerned that I hadn't reached my goal weight - 34lbs to go. He wants me to come back in four months to discuss my surgery if I've met my goal. Then he will take a look...nice. Oh! And when I asked to see some examples of his work, he told me what to google - but just generically. Not actually his work. I'm not impressed and I can only say if he really wanted my business, which would probably be two surgeries, he would have listened more and offered more input to what I was asking. I will not be going back to him. Period. I've already had another two plastic surgeons recommended to me so I will be checking them out soon. Oh...and according to this doctor he can't really even try to get the insurance company to approve anything but excess skin removal, but wouldn't discuss the difference in cost with me either. Again, I'll say JACKASS! Grrr.
Oh well, I'm going to be quite happy some time in the near future - reaching onederland, reaching 100lbs lost shortly after that, being so close to 170lbs which is kind of what I have in mind as my first goal...it's all gonna be good. I've got all sorts of stuff looking up personally, I'm just thrilled. ;)
I hope you are all doing well!
04/01/2012 15:50
Cooper River Bridge Run 2012, Chas. SC 44,000 People
I'm still reeling this morning...OMG! I can only tell you being in it was a thrill! So I had to share again! :)
03/27/2012 19:06
Inches LOST!!! WOO
I'm all excited after measuring in yesterday. I've lost a total of 14 more inches in the last two months. I'm quite pleased with those results and will keep working on those parts of me that I feel need it most. ...which would be all of me! LOL
Losing off my waist and hips was the most awesome part for me - 4 inches each! I'm so freaking excited.
That's where my excitement ends though...lol. Can't jump for joy because it would hurt too much! LOL I had a great session with the trainer last night and I am FEELING it today! That's ok...that means I know it's working!
I didn't monitor my food intake 100% this weekend, but still did well eating. I found 100 calorie brown cows and MAN I LOVE THEM! LOL One little popsicle can make me so happy! LOL I'm back to monitoring my food since Sunday, like a good girl. LOL (In my defense, I was surrounded by delectible food and didn't eat anything but some stinking green beans at this big gala we had Friday night! I'm kind of proud of myself!)
OK...gotta get back to work, but hope you are all doing well and have had a great weekend.
03/23/2012 13:48
Bloodwork results!
I almost forgot the best news ever this week!!
In June my cholesterol was 179. As of last week it is 146!
In June my Triglycerides were 217. As of last week they are 68!! WOOO HOOO!!
03/23/2012 13:46
1st Goal is CLOSE!!
Good morning everyone! I'm elated this week to see the scale moving after working so hard on myself lately. Seems like the weight always creeps down, but I'm finally showing some loss that I wanted to see! I am just counting down the pounds to finally get to a weight that is under 200! Only 9 more pounds to go! I CAN'T WAIT!!
This week I've been really diligent about writing down my activity and food in my log. I've planned some meals out ahead of time as well as snacks. Usually I just have a "supply" of what I know I can have and just choose from it randomly, but for some reason I feel more in control when I plan what I will have from that supply. I don't think I've gone over my caloric intake when not logging food, but feeling more in charge and well planned has given me more motivation. I've also been able to see where I'm falling under what I should have been eating - believe it or not that is a problem I've had! LOL The other day I ate a lot of stuff, but only had 900 calories. This was a day at the gym in spin and I should have had 1200 calories. Also, I fell short on protein. So anyway, logging is keeping me more aware of not getting enough in and for me this can be a big culprit for maintaining rather than losing. I'd have never believed it if I didn't experience it myself.
Monday evening I meet with the trainer again...finally get to measure in and see what my inches lost are. I don't expect them to be as big as last time, but I do expect some high numbers. Nothing else would explain me losing the size in pants because there sure has not been that much weight lost til lately.
A thought occured to me... When I was nearly 300lbs it was nothing to see a loss of 3 or more pounds per week. Now, as I near my goal, it is so much harder. Each pound off requires so much more effort! But today...I officially have 38.8lbs left to get to my for real goal. At least the goal I've set for now as my for real goal...lol. When I get to 170lbs, I'll reassess and see what happens then. But if I get to 170lbs, get this blob of fat removed from my gut, then I should be close to 160lbs. For my build and stature, I don't think I need to be much less. Again...I'll just have to see.
On a funny note...I've had LOTS more men hitting on me lately. Not that I've ever had a ton of men hitting on me...lol. But seriously it's happening frequently and I'm not all that comfortable with it if I tell the truth! I've had two more men at work ask me just how much more weight I planned on losing because I didn't "Need to lose much more"? That actually cracked me up! Some men like a woman with a "little" meat on her bones is the answer I get! Well guys, I still have nearly 40lbs of "meat" to lose! LOL
Best part yet is I'm super excited to see myself in some great dresses lately. Of course there is a spanx involved as well...how could there not be? LOL Something has to hold up the jelly roll belly! ;) I'm so looking forward to the day when I have a flat stomach!
Well...I have a big weekend ahead and I'm looking forward to it. We have a huge party tonight as a kick off for the golf tournament and I've got a fabulous little dress to wear! (OH HOW GOOD IT FEELS TO SAY THAT!!) Then tomorrow is the golf tournament - work, work and more work. Saturday night is date night...not sure what we are going to do yet, but I think he should take me near the beach! LOL I feel the need for some crashing waves to be within my hearing very soon...relaxing and peaceful!
I hope you all have a blessed weekend and that you are losing big!! I'm ending this week and considering it a success!
