Lazy Saturday
I had good intentions for today. I was going to walk my pups after breakfast and start cleaning my room. Instead, I have been hanging out with my pups in the living room watching Live Earth on Bravo, VH1 Soul, MTV Hits, and the movie Walk the Line all day while eating every so often. -sigh- It is so ugly, cold, gray, windy, and I can see fog up further in the hills. So much for it being summer over here! It feels more like a normal fall/winter instead! This kind of weather makes me feel lazy to do nothing! :0(
I spoke to my sister on the phone a few hours ago. She is in San Diego with one of my least favorite people (her boyfriend). While talking to her, I started crying for the first time in awhile. A lot has been going on this year in my family from my sister's illness to the situation between my parents and my first steps into trying to lose weight. It is a lot to handle right now. Sometimes I just want to hide under a rock and forget all that goes on in my life. This year has been another tough year for me, but I'm trying to turn it around by trying to lose some weight before I turn 30. That is a milestone in itself!
I'm just going to relax the rest of the day. I felt so sad after I got off the phone with my sister. I did snack and eat some leftover hot wings from KFC (I know...tomorrow is a new day to lay off the fried food...) which somewhat made me feel better. I used to eat much, much more when I used to be depressed. I say I've done better now that I'm more conscious of what I eat. Thank God for 100 calorie packs (although I've had like 3 different kinds so far today!). We'll see what tomorrow brings...