| Height: | 160.0cm |
| Start weight: | 145.00lb |
| Current weight: | 182.20lb |
| Goal weight: | 125.00lb |
| Lost to date: | -37.20lb |
| Remaining: | 57.20lb |
| 25 |
| May '12 |
| < | May | > | ||||
| S | M | T | W | T | F | S |
| 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | ||
| 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 |
| 13 | 14 | 15 | 16 | 17 | 18 | 19 |
| 20 | 21 | 22 | 23 | 24 | 25 | 26 |
| 27 | 28 | 29 | 30 | 31 | ||
Don't you just love it when meals you think are going to be incredibly high in calories turn out to be quite the opposite?
Dinner tonight was grilled chicken with corn on the cob and a green salad and that left me plenty of room for three roasted marshmallows. Yes, I am a happy person!
Even room left for hot chocolate and yogurt. mmmmmm
HUZZAH! Down five pounds. I bet most of that is water loss or something. I don't expect to have a five pound loss every week, but wouldn't that be nice? When I did WW years ago I would have losses of 0.25 pounds and that was horribly discouraging. But I noticed that the weeks I exercised at least 3-4 times AND drank my water, I lost more.
I have the urge to celebrate with a special snack or something, but I can't. Gotta stop using food as a reward or something special. It's just sustenance.
Time for a healthy breakfast - All-bran Buds and a banana.
Just updated my graph to reflect what my weight has done in the last year. I need the visualisation of how far I've come, to keep me going on those days I feel very defeatest and self-loathing.
Realising that the secret weapon is WATER. And gum. And veggies. But mostly water. I remember from my first or second Opti-fast group meeting that we lose fat through our liver and one way to clean out the liver is urination. Yep, we can literally "pee away the fat". Giggle.
I was going to stick a link in here, but I have no idea how to do it on this blog. Oh well, the price of being older.
I'm finding about.com to be very helpful for alot of things: low-fat cooking and exercise are my two favorites. I was going to go walking today, but the temp is already in the 90s and it's not noon yet. I think I'll wait till this evening and Nordic Trak.
I wonder just how accurate the EP food log choices are? One of family fav meals is stack-a-dinner, and figuring out one serving, with 1/2 cup of rice, only came to 265 calories. That CAN'T be right. I'm going to check my Positive Choice food bible and double check.
Doing better today. Over 2 litres of water, one glass of strawberry milk (albeit weak on the strawberry) with dinner, AND room for yogurt tonight. Yippee.
Stack-a-dinner:
Browned hamburger mixed with gravy
Long grain rice
Peas
Assemble: 1/2 cup rice, spoon over meat/gravy mix and top with 1/2 peas. Just basic cooking that makes my family happy.
Preview:
Wednesdays are my weigh-in day, but shhhhhhhh, I took a peak this morning. Giggle. Lots of Giggle. Can't wait till Wed!!! 
Oh, I'm going to hurt for this one:
35 minutes on the Nordic Trak
Total of:
2 miles
400calories burned
But right now I feel like a million bucks 
And I think I'm going to skip the ritual pm snackies.....Huzzah for exercise
(this is Friday, not Saturday night)
Another wall of denial hit with the trebuchet of reality.
I was so certain that the reason I was gaining weight was all because of my sedentary lifestyle. Oh sure, I wasn't eating perfectly, but I couldn't be consuming enough calories to make a big difference.
WRONG
After having a great-feeling day yesterday, I was very conscious of my eating today, and put it ALL into the food log. (I've been known to accidentally leave off a little thing here and there - hey, if it's not written down, it doesn't count right? Uh-huh. But I digress) I just finished supper and I've had 1450 stinkin' calories already. I want to eat somewhere between 1100 to 1300 calories per day. Does this mean I don't get my evening-ritual homemade hot chocolate (95cal) or my Yoplait yogurt w/All-Bran fakey crust apple pie thing (183 cal) tonight?
Sigh.
I guess I can have 0cal herbal tea and just the plain yogurt for 100cal. Or should I have the hot chocy and nothing else for 95cal.
Deeper sigh. I thought this was going to be easier.
I wonder how long until my tummy gets used to feeling full on less food/more water?
Heavy sigh.
Better meal planning for tomorrow.
The day is going well. Drinking my water, staying on food-task. Did a little walking (re: shopping) this morning, but taking a longer walk this evening.
Getting back the "I love being in control of my life" feeling I had when I was on Opti-Fast. Huzzah! I didn't realize how out of control I had become, until today.
The problems began when I started telling myself I didn't have to be perfect everyday, and that this was a "not-perfect" day. Then I started having more and more imperfect days, and before I knew it, I put on ten pounds. And was adding one pound every WEEK. That caused my self-esteem to spiral down and I was right back to the "who cares, I'm eating anyway cuz I'm doomed to diet failure" attitude. Thankfully I caught it before I was back to where I started, weight-wise. I can thank my RenFaire buddies, Ladybird and Nimue for the call to dietary action. Thanks, girls.
Just goes to show that I will have to be vigilant - FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. So I'd better start dealing with it now, and accept that my life is forever smaller meals, more water, and life-saving daily exercise.
But boy, I miss being lazy.
And I still believe that cheesecake is NOT the enemy.
How pathetic - my glutes are sore this morning and all I did was walk 30 minutes last night. Sheesh. I don't need exercise, do I?!
Plan for today is more fruit/veggies and taking TWO water bottles while out shopping.
The apples on our trees are coming ripe, so huzzah for summertime apples. (varieties are Anna and Dorset Golden)
Let's go back a year. OH-MY-GOSH! I just realized it is EXACTLY a year. I began Opti-fast through the local Kaiser's Positive Choice Centre. I weighed 197 pounds. Yes, I am 52 pounds lighter today, but six months ago I weighed 133. My weight is NOT going in the proper direction. Why? Several reasons.
