A different approach
I've finally come to my senses and crawled out of the food fog I've been in for over a month.
I still have 8 boxes of Opti-fast, so why not use them? Today I had a shake for breakfast, an apple for snack, a shake for lunch, a plum for a snack, and I'm just about to make a "healthy" dinner of less than 400 calories. That will put me right around 1,000 Kcal for the day. I hope that isn't too low. It's nowhere near the 440 calories I was intaking while on the Optifast program, but I'm not under doctor supervision now and I would NOT try doing it on my own. I just need some help getting my eating habits under control while I make a concerted effort to establish an exercise routine.
I have been waiting to return to work to start all this because summer is just a killer. I'm home all-day/everyday during summer and food is right there and I eat when I get bored. And I discovered that it is physically impossible to keep so busy you never think about food. Oh, sure, you could do one or two days in a row, but that is not a practical lifestyle. Being back at work today and only taking what I should be eating, I really felt empowered, dietarily. (is that a word? it is for me! 
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Food is only one part. The second part is exercise. So this morning I got up at - gulp - 5.15 and did 30 minutes on my Nordic Trak. Hubby and I have thought up a system to get me some exercise while he showers and he takes daughter #3 to school while I shower. It's worked for one day, so far. Haha I may do the NT every other day and the off days, do some free weights after a short evening walk.
Writing all this down should stand as a reminder to me and help keep me on track. Will I goof up? Oh, you can bet the farm on that one, baby! Am I going to give up? NO WAY. I want to fit easier into the new clothes I've been buying over the past ten months. I won't buy bigger sizes, even if I could afford it.
Oh, and I looked up the booster classes at Positive Choice and selected two a month to attend. Hopefully some outside accountability will help!