16/04/2007

Well its been a week since my last post.
A brief glimpse of the past week is alot of food.
Though nothing too extreme. I have excuses for eating the junk but really there is no excuse.
I believe in not denying myself, I never could. I love food and it is a joy of life. I just need to get some self control. Easier said than done though.
My latest plan is to run 3-5 days a week, do weights every second day. Do pilates 2-3 times per week. Dance for 30 mins every now and then. Eat three main meals per day, about 5 hours apart, consisting of about 400- 500 cals in each meal. Drink plenty of water. Go to bed before 10pm.
I also want to restrict my computer use to an hour each night after my son has gone to bed. Anyway it is now 12:54 am and I'm tired and must sleep!
Ciao.

09/04/2007

Well I'm feeling fat today.
I went ok with eating. kinda.
I had:

• Yogurt with banana and muslie
• 70% cocoa lindor ball
• mini choc egg
• coffee
• small portion of lean sliced lamb
• 3 thin slices of organic white baguette with butter
• 1/2 Banana
• 3 slices roast beef with roast sweet potato, roast potato and peas.
• mini chupa chup

I had about 5 glasses of water.
It was rainy this morning then turned sunny in the arvo.
I have pms.
I didn't exercise.
I went to bed about 1:30 last night.
It's my birthday tomorrow so I don't think I will be too healthy tomorrow.
Going to get up for a run early tomorrow morning.
That is all.

Ciao

08/04/2007

I went better today with my eating.
I controlled myself when my parents brought some luscious caramel slice and brownies over, I had a tiny slither of each about 1 cm wide and 5 cm long, I really enjoyed it and I felt satisfied with the small portions.
I didn't exercise today once again because it was raining and I have had a sore neck and headache all day.
I had about 4 cups of water today.
I went to bed about 12:30 last night.
here is my food diary:

• Jalna yogurt with 1/2 a banana and muslie
• Omlette made with 2 eggs, capsicum, peas and soy sauce.
• tiny slither of brownie
• tiny slither of caramel slice
• 2 small thin slices of yummy organic white bread with butter
• macaroni bake
• some watermelon
• about 30 grams lidnt milk chocolate

so yeah, not perfect but better than yesterday. Tomorrow I hope to be even better and do some exercise too.

I really want to join a new gym. I am currently a member of one but don't enjoy going there because the facilities are rather crap. My membership ends in just over a month so have been looking at a new one that just opened. Its brand new, each piece of equipment has its own LCD TV with a good selection of channels, a spin bike room, great weights set up. It just has a great vibe and great facilities and is only an extra $2.50 a week more than what I'm paying at my current gym. I just need negotiate the joining fee which is normally $150.00 and get it down to about $50 as thats all I can afford. Will haggle them sometime this week.
It's my birthday on Tuesday! yay! I think I will just go chopping with my mum in Sydney.
I get my 3 stitches out on Wednesday from the suspect mole they cut off me. Hopefully it's not a bad mole! fingers crossed for that!
Well that is all.

Ciao

07/04/2007

Just a quick post because I'm really tired.

I ate:

• 50 grams of white chocolate.
•  Jalna yogurt with muslie and banana
• 3 Taco's with beans, sour cream, cheese, salad and avocado
• 2 small pieces of choc coated licorice
• 3 mini chupa chups
• 5 rice cake thins
• orange
• 5 dates
• 420g tin of creamed rice
• about 8 tiny cheetos things
• big bowl of pumpkin soup
• about 6 very small pieces of home made turkish garlic bread
• a few sticks of carrots with a pesto dip

• small serve of apple and berry crumble with 1 scoop ice cream
  

I am so disappointed at myself. No wonder I'm fat!!
I binge eat and really lose any self control.
I was quite down today. Had a cry but the night ended well as I went to my friends house and had a great laugh and good conversation.
 It was rainy and cold today.
I had about 4 cups of water.
No exercise.
Went to bed at 3 am last night.
Oh well, will hopefully do better tomorrow!
Ciao

First Post-06/04/2007

I am sick of feeling fat.
I barely have any clothes left that fit .
I don't want to meet new people or go outside because I feel disgusting.
I became single recently after a 3 year relationship ended and gained a few kg's from comfort eating.
I am a binge eater and find it hard to control myself.
I take an either all or nothing approach and I want to regain balance to my eating.
I have a 4 year old son and I want to be able to take him too the park without worrying about how fat I look.
I want to have to confidence to meet new friends and maybe a new boyfriend.
I will be happy at 55 kg but the ultimate would be 50-52 kg.
I know I can do this!!