:)

 

Food Today:

 

1 cup of Special K Advantage with bonsoy milk- 140 cals

1 mini  pumpkin, fetta and leek quiche 330 cals

small serve of pineapple 20 cals approx

2 vegetarian patties with stir fry veg and satay sauce 600 cals approx

Total 1060 : -)

 

 

Exercise:

40 minute bike ride

30 minutes pilates

40 minute walk  on the beach including running up and down 230 very steep steps

I am happy with my food and exercise today! I have a cold at the moment so I think this has been a great effort!

Now all I have to do is keep it up!

How it feels to be overweight

I want to write a post on how I feel when I am overweight. So when I am healthy I can look back and feel proud at the emotional changes that will occur.

I feel sad. I feel awkward. I feel ugly. I feel uncomfortable in my own body. I feel anxious. I feel depressed.

I have let myself go. I didn't weight myself for months as I didn't have scales. I ate whatever I wanted and didn't exercise at all. I was feeling my clothes getting tighter but I convinced myself that I wasn't that bad.

I bought scales a few weeks ago. Hoped on, and was in shock. I thought I was about 63 kg as that is the heaviest I normally get. I couldn't believe it when I read 67 kg. I got an unopened packet of sugar and plonked that on the scales thinking that they must be malfuntioning. It was a 3 kg bag of sugar. The scales read 3 kg excalty.

I cryed. I was shattered.

This journey I am taking is not only going to be a physical transformation but also a mind and soul cleansing process.

Summer is 110 days away. I want to be fit, healthy, toned and glowing by then. Not covered in pimples, bloated, logged with cellulite and gunk. I want to be clean and healthy.

I am doing some form of excersise EVERYDAY as this is a lifestyle change. Not something I stop doing beause it is the weekend.

I am walking up mountains, running up stairs, walking on the beach, running on the waterfront footpath, doing the 30 day shred dvd, doing pilates, kickboxing, bike riding, kayaking and on those days when I have every excuse not to go outside (rain, swooping bird season and hot, humid days) I will have my cross trainer set up in air conditioned comfort in front of the TV at home.

I have NO excuse.

I will eat healthy, low calorie meals. I will be permitted 1200 calories per pay. 3 meals of 400 cals each. Mainly vegetarian food that is low is salt, saturated fat and simple carbs and rich in protein, nutrients and fibre.

I live in an area with an abundance of locally grown organic foods. My town has the highest life expectancy in australia for women as it is such a healthy environment, there is a constant flow of older people out and about staying fit.

I am not joining a gym as that is costly and I can do it without one.

I am sick of putting processed junk into my body. This body deserve more. It has been good to me and I don't want to abuse it any more.

I want to look hot.

I want men to take second glances at me, something they no longer do.

I want to feel fabulous, inside and out.

I want to have confidence.

I want to be happy.

 

 

Fat again

Well over a year later, I'm fatter than ever.

 

Goal is to change my habits and be sexy for a bikini this summer.

 

I'm classed as overweight now. For the first time in my life.

 

Shame on me.

 

I have the power to change this.

 

I will change this.

 

xoxo

New post at last!

Big thanks to sparkly_star for the nudge to post again!
I have been so busy! I am going well with the eating and pretty good with exercise... I think I may be around 59kg now. Will weigh myself tomorrow morning and do measurements too. I know that all my clothes are fitting me much better now and I'm feeling really happy about that!
I have been doing pilates a few days a week as my only exercise mainly due to the fact I have had a tummy bug and 2 colds in the past 2 weeks! I have also been helping out at a school which keeps me on my feet all day.
I am in love!!
It all feels so right and I have never been happier.
Oh almost forgot...

I was in a car crash!!!

It was very scary. Almost hit a pole but landed in the bushes. I'm fine but the car, not so much. It was defiantly a wake up call to how fragile life is. Thank goodness my little boy wasn't in the car.

Well I'm going to start my daily food and exercise posts again as it was great motivation!!

Mr Lover and I are going down to Sydney for the June long weekend and are staying in the walsh bay suite at the Sebel pier one. SOooooooooo flash! We are going to do the harbour bridge climb and just eat, drink and be merry all weekend. Oh and do some shopping of course
So I want to be looking all sexy for him, so hopefuly I can tone up a little in the next few weeks...Not that i'm not sexy now. Hahahahaha.

Ok now for my food and exercise section....

Exercise:
I did a 40 minute run at Avoca Beach today, I walked up some killer stairs! I thought I was going to spew and roll back down the hill! It was pure torture!!! The whole run was hilly so I feel great right now!!

I'm about to do my dumbbell workout now whisch is about 20 minutes of weights and a few Pilates moves...

Food:

Will do the food entry tonight when I have finished eating...

Ciao!

About the boy...

Ok this hunk of spunk I'm falling for is simply gorgeous. He has the most beautiful blue eyes I have ever seen, a  fabulous big cheeky smile, a smokin' body(he goes to the gym every day) and his ass is the finest thing I have ever layed my hands on! He is an incredible kisser and has some serious talent behind closed doors. When we slept together for the first time the other night it was the best sex I have ever had. He was gentle but firm, kissed me tenderly, touched me softly and made me realise what all the fuss is over a certain thing a guy does with his mouth... AND it went for about 2 hours! After years of awful sex, he has proved that it really is an incredible thing 
But the most important thing is he is such a wonderful guy on the inside aswell. He is absolutely hilarious, thoughtful, kind, sweet, attentive, a gentleman and very intelligent.
We "get" each other. We feel like we have known each other for years and nothing is awkward. He is 5 years older than me but we feel like we are on the same wavelength. We went to the movies together yesterday and he brang a hand picked daisy with him. Was soooo cute! He told me to do the "he loves me, he loves me not" thing and when I got home I did that and it ended with "he loves me". No one has been sweet like that with me before. He is also very respectful of me being a mother and my responsibilities. He is just fabulous! He also makes me feel good about myself. My ex made me feel like a fat heffer and destoyed my self confidence but Mr Lover is building it back very quickly. He brang food over the other night when we had a dvd night, which is a good sign according to my mum because thats what dad did when they were dating. He brang a tub of weiss mango and cream which is my favorite! He didn't know this though. Time goes far too quickly when he is around. He gives me butterflies in my belly and my cheeks hurt from smiling so much after being with him.  I could ramble on and on but I have to get ready to see him again tonight! YAY!

Ciao!!

I THINK IM FALLING IN LOVE!!!

Yup I think I might be falling in LURVE!!!
LA LA LA LA LUV! Its helping my lose weight too because I am love sick! hehehehehe.
BYEEEEEE!

21/04/2007

I went well with eating today. Only problem was I didn't eat enough. I went to a monster truck thing tonight and it was quite good. I was offered chocolate and lollies but resisted.
As I was in a rush to get there, I didnt even up eating dinner.I went for a 30 minute walk this morning.

I ate:

• Jalna yogurt with muslie (300 cals)
• 1 small lamb souvlaki wrap (250 cals)
• 1 banana
  
• bite of Dagwood dog
• tiny handful of popcorn
• 1 lollie

So yeah not enough.
It isnt good because it slows my metabolism down.
Ohwell.

Ciao.

20/04/2007-Weigh in!!

I just weighed myself.
I am now..












61 kg!!!!!!


I'm so happy!
I also feel its been done the healthy way, I am also gaining some great muscle definition and I have not been starving myself at all. I am concentrating more on being happier, not on how much I'm losing. I am not yo-yo dieting. This is a lifestyle change and I'm feeling really positive right now! It's great

Ciao.

19/04/2007

I didn't post yesterday as I was determined to get to bed before 10 pm and guess what? I did!!! YAY! I woke up at 7 am without an alarm feeling happy and content. Great start to the day I say!

I did well yesterday with eating and exercise.Can't remember everything I ate but It was really quite good. I also went for a 50 min walk on the beach in soft sand then did a 35 min pilates session at home, followed by about 15 mins of stretching.

That is the other thing I have been working on improving, flexibility. I can't touch my toes whilst standing upright. I want to be flexi!  I have been stretching for the last few days and have already noticed a big difference whilst doing the sitting down touching toes thing( Reaching for the toes on straight outstretched leg 1 whilst leg 2 is bended and the foot of leg 2 is pressing against the thigh on leg 1) Sounds confusing but really isn't! Anyway I could barely touch my toes while doing this stretch last week and after just 3 days of stretching I can reach about 10 cm past my toes!! I'm slowly getting closer to reaching my toes while standing up. Will be a great day when that happens!!

My food today has been pretty good.
I consumed:

• 100g of Jalna yogurt with muslie (150 cals)
• 1 piece of rye bread with a small amount of avocado and salt (100 cals)
• omlette made with 2 eggs, peas, capsicum and ketcup manis(thick soy sauce) (200 cals)
  
• 1 piece of rye brad with olive oil spread(tastes like butter) and natural peanut butter(100 cals)
• 3 grape mentos(30 cals)
• 1 1/2 cups of pasta made with pasta spirals, leanest beef mince,healthy tomato pasta sauce and sprinkled with about 10g of grated colby cheese ( 450 cals)
• tablespoon of Jalna yogurt (30 cals)
• 2 raw macadamias (20 cals)
• small decaf coffee with lite milk and 1 tsp sugar (70 cals)
• slither of low fat carrot cake (50 cals)

So all up it was about 1200 cals.

I did a dancing/ weights session for 35 minutes today plus about 15 mins of stretching. The dancing/weights got my pulse racing and I was getting quite sweaty (I'm not a sweaty person, takes quite alot to get it going)
So yeah feeling fairly happy!
Will weight myself tomorrow morning.
Am planning on going for an early morning run tomorrow.
Another benefit of exercise and healthy eating is my anxiety and mild depression has eased. I feel brighter, happier, more patient, calmer and positive.

Well that is all.
Ciao.

17/04/2007

I went fairly well today with eating, I had:

• 2 scrambled eggs
• tablespoon of yogurt with tablespoon of muslie
• small tin of baked beans
• fruit salad with dollop of yogurt
• 2 chicken sausages with vegies and fried potatoes
• handful of cashew/almond mix
• a heap of ovaltine in a glass with a small amount of milk
• a handful of small organic corn chips

I also went for an exhausting 50 min bike ride today. Went up lots of hills and felt pooped by the end. I have a headache tonight from over-heating. Ah well, at least I will go to bed earlier because of it. Also did about 15 minutes of weights.
Ok I'm off to shower, then to bed.
Ciao.