01/18/2011 13:14
feeling better
well yesterday was good, ate fruit for breakfast and lunch, took the dog for a good walk, then had a vegetable curry, yogurt and remained healthy all day...feels good.
today i've had a busy morning been for another 2 mile training run, get me.
have lost a pund this week so it's all positive at the moment. cannot get to my weighwatchers meeting tonight as i'm on lates this week, but i got weighed this morning and lost a pound which is amazing considering how bad it went at the beginning of the week and weekend. i just lucked out but that isn't going to happen this week. i will continue with my detox weeks until friday when i will have to eat some more because i'm giving blood in the evening and i really do not want to have to lay on the 'fainters' bed for about an hour 
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01/16/2011 16:45
getting better?
today has been better so far...
i have been really busy again, got up packed the other half off fishing, cleaned the carpets nthen went for a run, it has been at least 11 weeks since i last went, it didn't go bad, only a 2 mile route, i took duke our dog with me, he introduced me to a little bit of speed work when he saw a cat and decided to chase it, he is such a stereotype 
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will do the 2 mile route for a week or so then up the distance, there is a big difference between 2 miles and 10k (6.2 miles)
whilst running well jogging or even fast walking if you like i had the radio on i heard a song and related to the lyric 'change the voices in your head to make them like you instead' i liked that, i need to do that some more.
my eating hasn't been brilliant but i'm feeling really positive, i have been food shopping and am ready for an alcohol free, detox week (made easier due to that fact i am on lates all week)
i know it is earlier days but i am enjoying this blog it has made me think more about what i am doing.
right i'm off to don my raincoat and go meet OH in the pub
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01/15/2011 22:39
well that didn't work..
one of my very rare weekends off....i got up really early to pick up my other half's worm for fishing, went to see him on the beach the took the dog for a run. i then set about the housework, there was a lot to do then i got a call from other half asking for another rod, i was really annoyed, it was lunchtime i'd only had a cereal bar so i had a trip to the shop and then went a bit silly, it wasn't a binge it was overeating.
i think this is all behaviour that i have learned and when not completely focused and 'in the zone' i slip back into it. i need to learn how not to behave like this.
so anyway i got the house done and it feels really good.
more effort required i think.
the money i have spent on overeating and bingeing must now run into the thousands, it's stupid!!
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01/14/2011 23:42
the story so far...
i was always really active and i have always been concerned about my weight. at school i was convinced i was fat but really wasn't i was always about 9 stone i played a lot of sport this continued through college, then an operation stopped my hockey playing.
my weight stayed down then i moved aged 19-20 to the other end of the country with my then boyfriend, after a couple of years the weight started to climb up when i changed to an office job, i wasn't happy in the relationship and we drank a lot socially. I smoked at the time and did very little exercise. I went to WW whilst there weighing in at 11stone 5lb. I think I lost a bit of weight then but i cannot really remember.
we split up and my weight didn't improve, it was now that my eating started to get out of control, i started to binge and eat in private a lot.
i then got a new job which required moving back up north and required a certain level of fitness when i went for the medical i was about 10 and a half stone, then i went on a residential course, which i loved was brilliant, i was swimming most mornings and running a short distance a few nights a week and in 15 weeks i was down to 9 stone 5lb and had lost 6% body fat.
I did okay for a while, kept it down and my eating under control. i got into a new relationship (thethis one i'm still in after about 8 years) and we were really active together for a long time.
i remember being 10 stone 8lb and being mortified about my weight, it makes me laugh now.
we took up cycling and did loads, too much in 2006 and that winter we stopped cycling and all exercise, that with the fact we stopped going out dancing on weekend and the office job i started in 2005 the weight started to sneek on and on and on.
all that time i kept trying, i have been a member of weightwatchers about 30 times in the past 20 years and i am not kidding either having also tried every crash diet and weightloss tracking site going. i became desperate as my eating was out of control and my weight kept going up...i went through a stage where i would diet, lose between 7-10lb then put it all back on and more besides.
i tried one session of hypnotherapy, paid for expensive gym memberships which i didn't use, bought expensive gadgets but still my eating remained out of control and i couldn't get started on exercise again.
last year at the beginning of september i rejoined weightwatchers but online this time it worked for me i lost 25lb getting down to 11 stone at my lowest, then they brought out the new plan which i didn't take any time to try and other events such as my other half breaking his ankle and the large amount of snow meant that the running stopped so did the diet...i relaxed over christmas and now weigh 11 stone 9lb again.
went back to ww meetings 04/01/2011 with all good intentions, that week didn't happen i lost 1/2lb but that was probably down to clothing as i spent the best part of the week binge eating on a daily basis, this week i managed one day within points.... finally the reason i am starting this blog:
* i feel my control slipping and despite the gain I am still 16lb, i do not want to gain this weight again
* i want to lose more weight and achieve my goal of 9 stone this year
* i want to fight my demons and improve my relationship with food
* want to take better care of myself rather than everyone else all the time
* i want to improve my fitness...i have agreed to help raise some money for a charity on behalf of a colleague from work, her son is disabled and she has received support from this charity. I have signed up to run 3 x 10k, this first in May, next in June and last in July.
Before the snow the training had been going well but now i have to get back into it, regain focus and get a grip of this overeating.
I weigh in on a tuesday evening, i stayed within my points on Wednesday then have been really naughty on Thursday and today. I cannot put my finger on why and don't intend to try tonight because i am tired,it has been a stressful day at work but this is another reason for this blog, to examine my behaviour good and bad. so my plan for the rest of the weekend (weekend off, yey but will be very busy)
Saturday, have fruit in daytime and normal tea, fresh fish in breachcrumbs and chips i think.
i have to go for other halfs bait in the morning, take the dog down to see him on the beach then go get breakfast butties for him and his friends. come home clean house from top to bottom and garden, walk the dog, clean the car inside and out, go food shopping, relax ahhhhh then free for whatever on sunday, but will make some food for the week.
next week is lates week which means a busy time but i intend a detox week, lots of fruit and vegetable, no pop (at least try..i think i am addicted to low cal fizzy drinks) and no alcohol monday to friday.
wish me luck i'll be back
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