Well I called my Dr. office last night and was informed that my Dr. has moved... to MY town!!! I'm so happy. I used to drive 20 minutes to see him and now it's only going to be like 5. The only part that sucks is that when I get pregnant again (which hopefully will be this week) I'll have to transfer my files back to the other office. But oh well. So anyway I called last night and I have to call again this morning so they can hopefully get me in this afternoon. It might be a waiste of my time, but I'd rather have that than have something wrong and not know about it.
I did terrible yesterday. I didn't work out in the morning. I had an omelette, banana and coffee for breakfast (389 calories). Lunch was my normal salad and a lean pocket (360 calories). And then I bombed out at dinner. 3 Buffalo Chicken tenders, a mushroom room cheese burger and half the fries. I did resist getting ice cream though so I'm proud of that. Then I was exhausted so I didn't work out. We were in bed watching TV at 6. That's just pathetic. I did manage to stay away until 7:30 though.
Today is so so. I got up and did my sculpting video. That's the good part, the bad part is that I forgot my salad dressing for my salad. Ug. Now I have to decide what I'm going to do about that.
Well yesterday went great until I got out of work and was informed that we are going to my mother's for dinner. Her DF makes this amazing roast thing, but it has a stick of butter in each pan. I ended up eating two salt potatoes and I don't know how much meat, and a salad. I didn't over eat though, I felt satisfied when I finished.
I didn't get to work out last night cause we went to my mom's for dinner and I didn't work out this morning cause it was after 10 when I went to bed last night and I just wasn't functioning this morning at 4:30. Heck I'm still barely functioning and I've been up for 3 hours.
So on to the title. There are two things it pertains to. !, how did I do it when I was in college. I would be up until 1am working on projects and what not and then be up for class at 8. That means I had to be up by 7. How did I do it? Then there is the weight issue. How did I do it before. I've lost several pounds several times and I can't seem to remember how I did it. Obviously exercise, but I'm doing that now. I also eat lots of veggies every day. My lunch always consists of a large salad, 1 cup lettuce, and a 1/4 cup each of carrots, green peppers, mushrooms and cucumbers. A whole romano tomato (or equivalent) and onions, topped off with 2T of low cal dressing. Then I have a lean pocket or something like it. For breakfast I normally have at least one serving of veggies in an omelette or oat meal and a few pieces of fruit. I guess it's dinner that kills me, but I'm still eating less than I was before, even if it is the same foods at dinner time. I just don't get it! I suppose my water in take could be better but I normally have at least 70oz a day.
To get myself back on track, I just don't know what my problem is. I do know that I need to start planning breakfast meals for camp along with lunch and dinner.
I've gotten up the last two mornings and done my 20 minute TJ and last night when I got home from work I did the Lower Body TJ. I know my dinner wasn't that great, hot sausage patties, but even with working out I'm buring more calories than I was before so I should lose some weight right? Well I haven't, I'm back up to 184 and I just don't know what to do. I don't want to give up but it seems like I'm not sticking to anything. I let life get in the way all the time. I want to say I'm going to stop letting it, but right now I don't know if I can. I've been feeling like crap the last few days. Really tired and nauseous in the evenings. And head aches that come and go all day. It's starting to drive me crazy. All I want to do is lay in bed!
Camp was pretty good over the weekend, I spent a lot of hours cleaning, but I shouldn't have to do it again all summer and that's nice to know! And I'm really excited because we are getting a hot water heater this weekend so I'll finally be able to use my shower! (Don't worry the camp ground has public showers, I don't go the whole weekend without showering).
So I guess that sums things up for me right now. Still working out and getting no where. I eat on plan for at least two meals, but don't over eat at dinner either. I don't know where things are going to go from here, but I know I'm going to keep working out while I try to come up with a plan.
But that's ok cause I still have already gotten 2600 steps in and it's not even 8:30. So last night I ended up with 11575 steps, and $300 worth of groceries. Did the price of everything go up?!?! I did good and stayed up til 9:30 making marinades and sauces to take to camp with us this weekend, that way I don't have to take all the ingredients with me and try and make it there. So when I went to bed I was exhausted. DH was texting me all night. He hates his job. The kids he is working with have no respect and are uncontrolable. I think he's going to quit and it makes me want to cry, we really need the money, but I don't want him to be miserable every time I see him so if he hates it then he should quit. Of course the same doesn't apply to me, but whatever.
So to the title again. I was going to get up to work out this morning, but decided that instead I wanted to get every thing around for going to camp tonight, that way when we get out of work all we have to do is run home and grab the stuff in the fridge and the dogs. We may actually be there by 6:30 rather than 8. So I even packed the car with everything I could. That's how I have so many steps already, and I'll get a whole bunch more when we unpack the car at camp. Today is going tbe so slow, I just know it.
That's what I'm dealing with right now. DH has to work from 2 to 11 tonight so last night he decided he need to stay up until at least 11 so that he was prepared for tonight. I completely understand that and I hated going in to bed without him at 8:30, but I had to. I still have to get up in the morning. Well from 9:30 to 11:30 I must have woke up 5 times. Finally at 11:30 I went out to make sure he hasn't fallen asleep on the couch (he's done that before) He hadn't and he was getting ready to come to bed. I finally fell asleep for good around 11:45. That means that when my alarm went off at 4:30 this morning there was no way I was getting out of bed to work out. I hit snooze until 5:20 and then finally decided I needed to get in the shower. I won't be working out tonight because I have to go grocery shopping, then when I get home I'll be preparing as much of the meals for this weekend as possible. We are going to our camp for the first time this season and there's always a lot of prep work. So at least I should get a lot of steps in today.
My eating has been pretty good, most of the day I stay low on calories and only eat when I'm actually hungry, then at dinner I don't actually count my calories. Last night we went to the Chinese buffet. I tried to stick to the rice and veggies but I did have a few sweet and sour chicken and an egg roll. At least I limit myself to one plate now and I didn't leave feeling like I should be rolling out the door.
I'm so excited for this weekend, but I'm nervous about staying at our camp by myself while he's working. I know I should be sleeping then and I'll already be asleep when he leaves, but we're out in the middle of no where and the only camp next to ours has an old man that can't hear anything. I'll get used to it, but it'll be strange this weekend.
Hope everyone is having a good week, it's almost over!
So I'm working from 8 to 5 today rather than 7 to 4 and I got up a little later than normal, but it was still more time for me to do my work out than normal so I did my 40 minute TJ. I was feeling weak when I finished, but that's the point! I'm feeling pretty good now, I just hope that I don't get run down in the middle of the day. I should probably go to the doctors and talk to them about feeling so tired all the time.
I ate pretty well yesterday. For Breakfast I had an english muffin with sugar free blacberry jam and a sugar free pudding snack. Lunch was my left over sheperd's pie and dinner was 1 and a half slices of stromboli and 3 chicken wings. I also had 2 beers. The point is I didn't over do it. I was a little low on water in take, but I'm trying to get better with that. I've already got 24 oz down today, and after I finish my coffee I'll start on my next bottle!
My new plan is to stop stressing about this so much. I'm so worked up about counting calories and reaching my goals that when I don't I get down on myself and want to give up. I'm just going to let things happen. I'm going to watch what I eat and make sure it's healthy, I'm going to exercise, because it feels good, not because if I don't I might not lose that one lb.
My husband is going to start working nights here in the next week and dinner is the only time we are giong to have together so it's going to be a good home cooked meal where we sit at the table and enjoy it. I'm kind of nervous about this and I think this extra stress is one of the reasons I've decided on my new approach to weight loss. I'm also gonna stop stressing so much about having a Baby. Of course we will still try there too but I have other things to look forward to now. We will be getting a house soon and that should be enough to make me happy for the time being.
I know it wasn't completely weight related but there isn't much going on there. I've been eating what I want, but watchinig portion sizes. I didn't get up and exercise this morning because the thought of lifting my arm to turn off the alarm was enough to make me feel exhausted and I've been getting sleepy at work so I decided to get the extra sleep.
No I didn't fall all the way off ladies. I didn't blog yesterday just cause I wasn't in the mood to write things out. I'm feeling better, don't quite have the motivation I need because I already feel defeated by this weekend, but I am back down to 182 since Wednesday. If I can be there on Monday I'll be ok.
I did pretty good with eating yesterday. Breakfast was a grapefruit, shredded wheat and coffee. Lunch was a Lean Pocket Sub and a large salad. Then dinner was Meatloaf and mashed potatoes and corn. I over did the calories at dinner, but I stopped eating when I was full so that's good.
I've been doing good with exercise. Yesterday was my 20 minute TJ and today was Lower body TJ. Let me tell you it was weird this morning when my legs felt weak walking down the stairs cause the workout was so good!
I'm glad it's friday and I get to see a lot of friends I haven't seen in a while tomorrow! I'm going to enjoy myself and no worry about things. If I gain oh well, I had a good time and Monday will be a new start of a healthy me!
I'm feeling really down and like I'm pressuring myself for nothing. I've been on this diet for 9 weeks as of Monday and this morning my weight is the same as it was the day I started. 9 weeks of hard work and nothing to show for it! I really am crying because I feel like there is nothing I can. I've been down to 177, but some how I always get back up to 184. I know the problem is not being home all the time. We like to go do things on the weekend with other people and lots of times there's drinking involved. Why do I have to give up having a few beers with my friends? And then there's the nights that we just order something or go out because we either don't have the food or it's going to be 9 before something healthy is cooked.
I've done this before I don't know why I can't do it again? I'm just so depressed. 9 weeks and nothing to show for it!!! I know it's my own fault, but it seems like there is always something in the way! Like yesterday when I couldn't get ahold of DH to take the stuff out of the freezer (it's all we have left from my PLANNED meals). Well by the time I got ahold of him there wasn't time for it to defrost and cook it before 8pm. I hate eating that late and I wanted to work, but he was too tired to cook so we ended up going to the chinese buffet. I was OK with that. I had crab legs with some butter, but only 3 so I was ok with that. I can home and did my Turbo sculpt so I was honestly ok, but then I decided to have popcorn and do you think I opted for the healthy one, no I ate the Pour Over Cheddar kind. It was only 250 calories, but still I didn't need it and there was a healthier option. Why can't I do this? And now this weekend I have my clambake coming up and I'm going to see a bunch of people I went to college with and I'm embarassed! I'm not bigger, but I don't feel good about myself. Plus all there is going to be to eat is clams, burgers and hot dogs. How do you eat healthy when those are your options?
Sorry for venting so long, but I'm feeling very depressed today. I started crying during my workout so this is what I did instead. Now I need to get in the shower and get ready for work!
Ok so I'm really upset now. I just wrote out this whole long post and I hit the backspace button and the internet went back a page so it's lost!
Obviously I'm down 1 lb from last Monday so I'm ok with that even though I know I had lost more during the week. I had a pretty good weekend besides feeling sick off and on and being extremely tired.
Next weekend is going to be another rough on one on the eating front as I have a clambake, but hopefully I can have great control this week and I'll come out a loser!!
I'm also really excited because we have our first Mortage loan officer appointment this afternoon. I can't wait to find out how much home we can afford!
Brandi
I really am crying because I feel like there is nothing I can. I've been down to 177, but some how I always get back up to 184. I know the problem is not being home all the time. We like to go do things on the weekend with other people and lots of times there's drinking involved. Why do I have to give up having a few beers with my friends? And then there's the nights that we just order something or go out because we either don't have the food or it's going to be 9 before something healthy is cooked. 
I know it's my own fault, but it seems like there is always something in the way! Like yesterday when I couldn't get ahold of DH to take the stuff out of the freezer (it's all we have left from my PLANNED meals). Well by the time I got ahold of him there wasn't time for it to defrost and cook it before 8pm. I hate eating that late and I wanted to work, but he was too tired to cook so we ended up going to the chinese buffet. I was OK with that. I had crab legs with some butter, but only 3 so I was ok with that. I can home and did my Turbo sculpt so I was honestly ok, but then I decided to have popcorn and do you think I opted for the healthy one, no I ate the Pour Over Cheddar kind. It was only 250 calories, but still I didn't need it and there was a healthier option. Why can't I do this? And now this weekend I have my clambake coming up and I'm going to see a bunch of people I went to college with and I'm embarassed! I'm not bigger, but I don't feel good about myself. Plus all there is going to be to eat is clams, burgers and hot dogs. How do you eat healthy when those are your options?