Feeding the soul

I've had a fairly good week for exercise and now I need to just try and through another. It's so hard to stay motivated when you scale doesn't move DOWN. I had a great meeting last night with my friends. I haven't laughed like that for so long. Too long. It uses to be a very common thing in my life, but somehow my life has become very serious. I've become too serious. I need to find that in myself again. I'm just not sure how to anymore. I do believe that weight loss is a total body, mind and soul thing and I need to work on all three

On the wagon

I'm feeling more on the wagon. Going to the gym everyday is absolutely helping. It helps that I go right after droping the kids off without going home. I find if I try to exercise at home I get distracted with all the things to do. I just need to keep going, that's the hard part.

First Blog

Well, this is the first time I've ever blogged. I wanted to write in a journal, but since I spend most of my day on the computer this is what makes more sense.

I'm the kind of person that has lost 80 pounds every year for the past 4 years. Unforunately, I'm also the kind of person that has gained about 90lbs every year for the past 4 years. Lieing to myself everytime I started my weightloss moment. Now it's to the point that I can't get excited, because I don't trust myself. I've lied too many times.

I have to get serious about this. I had a mini stroke a couple months after my 40th birthday. I have a strong family history of strokes at a young age. We also have diabetets in the family and I donated a kidney 5 years ago so, getting diabetes just isn't an option.

There are so many reasons why I need to this. So I'm looking for the extra support to help me from regaining the weight I loose. I've made some good steps this week. I've joined a gym and I'm in two support groups, one with friends and the other one is T.O.P.S. I really like this website and I'm hoping its what I need to keep ontop of this. I find as my two boys have got older 9 and 14, life just gets more stressful with less time for me.