06/24/2009 18:37
This is a rant that you don't need to read
Day 100 of 141 Days
41 Days Remain
Please don't feel the need to respond or even read this. This is me venting in about the only way that I can. I am hoping to work some things out and I usually do it internally...never externally. But, I can feel my insides churning in ways that are not good and I thought I would give this a try.
I am a little out of sorts.
I am stressed out about the many things going on with our potential foster parenting.
I am having a hard time with the heat and humidity. Which is drastically affecting my desire to exercise among other things.
We got the back window of our suburban shot out two days ago, so that was another bill we didn't need.
We can't get the gutter guy to replace our gutters that he said he would over three weeks ago. And they damaged the old gutters further when they roofed the house. He has bought the supplies and put them on our account at the home improvement store, but we don't have new gutters. Obviously we had to pay the bill. We've been having huge rainstorms at night and been out in the lightening trying to keep water from going in the basement. His latest promise is that he will be here this weekend. Three weeks ago, we asked him if he just didn't want to do it to let us know, so we could do it ourselves. We were getting ready to go buy supplies to do it, when we got the invoice from the store showing he has purchased the supplies in our name. Ugh!
TOM is getting more and more ferociously painful.
And my diet has been just awful. The scale shows it.
Am I giving up? No! NO! NO! I can't do that. I just need to get ahold of myself. I need to get some things accomplished and I am sure that will pick me back up. I am the kind that when I start to feel overwhelmed I start to get paralyzed and very grouchy.
Another thing that is really bugging me is that for 17+ years I have been supporting my DH with his car fetish. I have had a desire for a classic fun car for just me for a long, long time. He never seems to take me seriously because it is never a car that has his interest, so I get blown off. I found my perfect car on ebay and kept mentioning it and giving heavy suggestions. Well, he did at least bid on it for me, but he didn't want it as bad as I did and put a cap on what he wanted to spend. We didn't get it. We lost it by a little over 300 dollars. I am trying to be a trooper, but I am sick to my stomach. We have owned over 25+ vechicles in our 17 years. I have always been supportive. This was such a unique car and the boys were in love with it too. I know my feelings are selfish and irresponsible, but the ugly truth is they are still there. 
I really need to pray about this and get my priorities straight.
I really need to pray about this and get my priorities straight.Sorry about this ranting post. I just thought that maybe if I wrote about it, I could get a better grasp on myself.
I am off to see if I can get something accomplished today beside running the boys to all of their activities. I've already planted some flowers and weeded some of the gardens this morning, but it is already getting miserable. Maybe I can get some sewing done. I enjoy it designing custom clothes for Ds4 if I just can get myself to sit down and do it.
