As much as this pains me to say, I am going to say it and get it over with. I am still in the rut. I thought I was out of it, but I'm really not. Yesterday I went over my calories by a few. Today I am on my way to going over. I thought I had a pretty sensible lunch, which I did, but then I ate an oatmeal raisin cookie, and that wasn't enough so I ate a peanut butter cookie. I am so mad. I didn't walk last night either. I spent most of the evening looking for the cord to my digital camera. It has been MIA for a while now. I tore the den up looking for it with no luck. Then, last night I was hanging up some clothes in my DD's room and noticed a black cord on top of her television. Sure enough, it was the one to my camera. That was my excuse not to walk. Tonight I don't have one, and if I don't walk, I am going to be upset with myself. I have to get this junk food diet out of the way so I can make some progress. I am likely not going to be down to 215 by Halloween but I will survive this. One day at a time!
I haven't been doing so good. I continue to be lazy and also continue to eat like crap. I have decided to start anew, again. So I lost the last battle, or did I? I may have learned something. I actually learn something each go round. I learned this time that I can't get up in the middle of the night to eat cottage cheese, pepperoni, and cheez its LOL. How weird is that? You would think that I was pregnant, but there is absolutely no chance of that happening after I got the big snip snip after having Corinne. YEAH ME!! HEHE. Anyhow, I am going to walk tonight. Probably just 4 laps, but we'll see. It will atleast be that much. I am also not going to eat up my calories on pure crap such as cake, cookies....etc. I am going to do right. I will be 215 by Halloween! GAME ON!
But I did maintain. I am the same weight I was last week so that is a good thing. I haven't been eating good and have gotten in no exercise since this weekend. It is so cold here and was rainy earlier in the week. Not like a little rain will hurt me. I am going to start today doing better though. So far so good.
Without doing too much damage..... I think. I may have been a little over my max calories of 1620 per day by a little bit but hey, that's better than 2400 calories a day isn't it? I don't think I lost anything this weekend but I didn't try to hard either. I did walk 4 laps (60 minutes) on Sunday and then I rode the bike pulling my 5 1/2 year old and 6 month old about 1.15 mile. Not too bad. That bike is a killer when I pull the girls like that. It is good to get out though. I do enjoy it. Gives me time to clear my mind and makes me feel better.
Now, I am happy that I finally ate all of the Blue Bunny no sugar added low fat strawberry ice cream. It was so so good, but I ate so so much of it. It is like 110 calories per 1/2 cup serving. I ate most of it too. I am so proud. At least I didn't eat the chocolate cake that I got for DH's birthday. It was 320 calories per serving. Just wasn't worth it to me. A big fat greasy burger would be worth it to me. Man I am so hungry right now. I guess I will eat another turkey wrap from Subway for lunch. I have had one nearly every day for lunch since the week before last. It does keep me filled up for the most part and I like them so it doesn't bother me. I have had trouble with late night snacking here lately. Guess I am going to have to put a lock on the fridge LOL. H0pe all has a great day and that you too survived the weekend!
Well, I just weighed in, and I must say that I am pleased. Of course I wanted to lose more, but any loss is a loss, and I have lost all that I gained back in those couple of months I was not doing so well. I am down to 218.4. I looked at the lowest weight I had on here and it was 218.5. I am 1 ounce less. I am so excited. Only 3.4 more pounds to lose before Halloween. I really can't believe it. I think a lot of what helped was having the mini goal. I mean, I do want to be below 200 and all, but I wanted something I could reach and then we will continue to go down down down. My next goal will be 199. I can feel it now.
I didn't get to exercise last night. It was my DH's birthday. I had planned on cooking something for him and then going for a walk later. Well, he locked his keys in his pickup at Cameron (the college he goes to). I had to drive all the way there (30 minutes there) so I decided we would all go out and eat for his birthday. We ate at Outback. It really wasn't as good as it usually is. I really wanted a dessert but praise the Lord, the waiter rang our ticket up before we were able to order. I did go home and have 1 cup of Blue Bunny no sugar added strawberry. It is really good, and heck, I'll take 220 calories from ice cream any day. I stilled stayed within range, having 1420 calories so I did well, aside from no exercise. Good luck to you all today!
has past, and I did what I was supposed to. Can you believe that?? I stayed within calorie range, drank my water, and walked for about an hour. I want to get on the scales and get an idea of what Friday is going to say, but I don't want to get discouraged. If all this is doing nothing other than helping me to be more healthy then so be it. It really took a lot to stay out of the refrigerator last night. I would open it, peek around, grab something, and then put it back. I know I did that at least 4 or 5 times. I am so glad I put it back. Really nothing good can come of late night refrigerator shopping. I have a bad habit of waking up in the middle of the night and grazing. So far so good the past two weeks. I think I might be partly asleep when I do it. Who knows? Good luck to everyone today on making good choices!
I took the kids to the park last night, and instead of walking the planned four laps I walked six!! It was about 3 1/2 miles or so. I really should have walked the 8 I did the other day, but I was tired and the baby quit enjoying it by the 4th lap or so LOL. I stayed within range on calories. I had about 1400 Max for the day. I think that is a little padded but I would rather it show too much than not enough. I am going to the park to walk again tonight. I hope that I have another big loss this week. I think it would just crush me to not have a loss at all after working so hard but I know that the exercise is doing good for my body. I should lose because really, I haven't lost any weight in about 2 months. I stayed about the same or gained some because, well, I just quit. I quit until I finally got the nerve up to get back on the scale. I really want to be down to 215 by Halloween. Heck, I'll take 210 hehe. I really think that I can do it. I may be there next week, who knows. My goal for Christmas, assuming I meet this inital goal will be to get to 200. Wow, that sounds so good. I wonder what size I will weat at 200. I am built really weird. I carry all of my weight in my mid section (the danger zone!!). My legs and arms are skinny. I have very althletic legs from playing sports all my life so I really look like someone who has been an alcoholic for many years with this pot belly and sticks to hold myself up LOL. I want my mid section to match the rest of me. I also wish I could lose a size or two up top but nothing is coming off of there. I have always been large up there, even when I wasn't overweight or obese but geez, give me a break, just a size or two, please?!! Anyhow, here's to another healthy day!
I have 29 days to get and keep my act together. I need to lose 6 more pounds to meet my first mini goal of 215 pounds. I can do it! I just have to keep my eyes on the prize. I walked about a mile on Saturday and ate reasonably. Sunday I cleaned for about 2 hours but ate terribly. Not necessarily carbs, it was darned hot dogs (without the bun that got me). I ate 3 hot dogs cause they were oh so good LOL. I was over on my calories needless to say, and I was still over when you add in my calories burned from cleaning the house. I guess it could have been worse, I could have baked a cake or something. I also ate pork chops that I grilled out. I need to not cook that kind of food for a long long time because I like it way too much. I am still sore from my 5 mile walk the other day, but it is not going to deter me. I'm going to be back at it tonight walking at least 4 laps. Gotta LOSE the weight! Gotta LOSE the weight!!
that I did so much better when I was on here blogging more. I drifted away when I started eating like a beast and getting lazy. I didn't want to hold myself accountable for what I was doing to myself I guess. NOW, things are going to change. They have to. I am tired of being FAT!! I don't expect or desire to be a bikini model. I would like to not have ROLLS though. That would be a nice thing.
Last night I did what I said I was going to do. I went to the park with the kids and walked. I walked 4 laps around the track that is close to 2/3 mile. It felt so good. I pushed my 6 month old in the stroller while the older 2 played at the park. One lap my 5 1/2 year old walked with me. She hurt her foot so I carried her on my shoulders for 1/4 to 1/2 a lap. It nearly killed me. The last lap I pushed the stroller and carried my 6 month old. I think I got a pretty good workout. I am so proud of myself for doing it. Mosquitos were terrible though. I sprayed us all down before leaving the house and had to reapply. They are GYNORMOUS!!
Anyhow, I am still on my quest to be 10 pounds lighter by Halloween. That will mean that I will be down to 215. I haven't seen that number in over 10 years. Geez, I have been FAT a long long time. It is easy to overlook when you don't talk about it.
God give me the strength to fight the temptation of carbs. I did so well when I was on the gestational diabetes diet (staying away from breads, pasta, potatoes etc.). I really lost weight quickly. I have to get that mindset again. If I could get myself to start checking my bloodsugar regularly again......if only. The rest of this week I will not eat any of the things mentioned above uless it is whole wheat bread. That's a start I guess. Pray for me LOL... Good luck to all you guys. May you have the strength to just say no!
I have done nothing, I mean absolutely nothing lately other than cram my face full of crap. It's like I am in an eating contest or something or I am afraid someone else is going to get it before me. Really disgusting to say the least. It's been a while since I last posted here. I guess I am kind of disappointed in myself and in another sense I am just plain embarassed. I know that I can do better than I am doing. I feel like I might be putting too much pressure on myself. It just seems like everything I do is rush rush rush anymore. Tonight I plan to go to the park and walk with the kids. No, I don't plan on it because when I do that, the plan usually changes. I am going to go to the park! No excuses this time. I want to be down to 215 by Halloween. I can do it!!! Right now I am at 225-226 so it is achievable. I hope everyone else is up and running and shedding those pounds!
