Soul Searching
Sorry that I havent been around over the last little while. I have been very busy with work and have almost no time for surfing the net and blogging. I Miss you all... I am glad to be back.
Update on me.. I have had a hard work. I have done alot of soul search and I dont like some of the things that I have discovered. I have realized that I allowed my disability and recent surgery to define who I am. My train of thought was working like this: I am hurting and limp and over weight that means I cant do my job, I cant be a good person, I just cant do anything. And for awhile I let myself believe that. I let myself go. I didnt dress good, I didnt wear makeup... I didnt do anything.
But lucky I had a friend who helped me step back for a minute and realize what I was doing to myslelf. I wasnt giving it all I had anymore and i deserved better than that for myself. I am strong, indepedant and educated I am not beaten by my disability in fact I embrace it and I am stronger because of it.
I will not be defeated
