Weigh in and all

Start Weight -230

 Weigh in / lost this week/   - 223/ 4.5

Goals weight - 175

Lost so far - 7

Hi everyone, sorry I havent blogged in a week but I was really busy at work. How is everyone doing with their weight loss? I had a really good week... down 4.5 pounds. Wooohooo. I am very proud of myself. I am trying a new weight loss plan.... I am following " I can make you thin" ... the new show on tlc. I am amazed with how easy it is and interesting.

Weigh In

Start Weight -230

 Weigh in / lost this week/   - 227.5/ 1.5

Goals weight - 175

Lost so far - 2.5

I have disowmed myself for awhile

I have not taken alot of care of myself over the last couple of weeks. I fell down and injured my leg really back and allowed that to give me the permission to eat bad.. NO more... I have had enough of this...i deserve better for myself

Ever???

I have ever had that day that you are so hungry that you could eat your arm right up to your shouldar. Well that was my day today.  I was so pickish... I couldnt stop watching the bad stuff.  I am happy to say I didnt have any junk food but it wasnt from lack of wanting it.

I think that I am going to start walking tommorrow. I have been not exercising because of my hip but I think it has been enough time since surgery and I want to get exercise back into my life.  We have a track about 30 seconds from where I work so I have no excuse. I will take it slow but I really want to do it.

Here is to a happy and healthy thrusday!!!!

Soul Searching

Sorry that I havent been around over the last little while. I  have been very busy with work and have almost no time for surfing the net and blogging. I Miss you all... I am glad to be back.

Update on me.. I have had a hard work. I have done alot of soul search and I dont like some of the things that I have discovered. I have realized that I allowed my disability and recent surgery to define who I am. My train of thought was working like this: I am hurting and limp and over weight that means I cant do my job, I cant be a good person, I just cant do anything.  And for awhile I let myself believe that. I let myself go. I didnt dress good, I didnt wear makeup... I didnt do anything.

But lucky I had a friend who helped me step back for a minute and realize what I was doing to myslelf. I wasnt giving it all I had anymore and i deserved better than that for myself. I am strong, indepedant and educated I am not beaten by my disability in fact I embrace it and I am stronger because of it.

 I will not be defeated

Need you input

Our community as "gander's Biggest Loser"  which is a local adaption of the show. Our local cable company follows us.  I have been apart of the teams to lose weight for the last two years and they want me to do it again.. I am not sure if I should. Year 1 - I lost 60 pounds ( and gained it back), Year 2- I dropped out due to my hip...

Should I do this year??????

GIving up...not any more

It seems like when I gained back the weight this time I gave up on me.  I haven't taken care of myself over the last couple of months. No hair cut, no eyebrow wax, no nothing. But NO more. No matter what size I am, I need to be proud of myself.  I am more than just my weight, I am a perso. A person who is smart, funny, beautiful.

No more self pity.  NO more!!!

Weigh IN

Start Weight -230

 Weigh in / lost - 229/ 1down

Goals weight - 175

Lost so far - 1

Woohoo... I know it is only one pound... but it is a start. I will take anything.

Weigh In

Start Weight -225

 Weigh in / lost - 230/5 up 

Goals weight - 175

Lost so far - 0

Instead of losing weight... I gained 5 pounds to be at my high of 230 pounds. That is just not good enough, I have to learn to deal with my emotional instead of eating through them.  This weigh in is from sunday, January 27/2008. I will weigh in on Saturday morning for now on.

How are you all doing with this weight loss struggle??????

update on me

Sorry I haven't been around over the last little while, I had alot going on.

Let me bring you up to date;

• Its been 2 months since my hip replacement surgery. I am healing alot slower than I had planned. I thought that give me two weeks and I will be back to my normal life. But that didnt happen. I am still sore and in pain and its eight weeks later.
• I have been feeling sorry for myself and I used food to make it all better. I know that that is the wrong thing to do but that is the way I dealt with it. bordeem is the worse for me, because when I am bored, food becomes an obsession
• I saw my doctor a couple of days ago and he cleared me for work. I am so glad because I needed my life to get back to normal financially and weight loss wise. When I work, eating helathy is second nature. Well, financially I am dirty poor. I dont make enough money on EI to be able to survive.
• When I saw the doctor, he told me that my pathology is back from the surgery and they found more cancer cells. My doctor believes that the pathology is wrong, and what they thought was cancer cells is the material from my hip breaking down.  Until told otherwise, I will believe the pathology. Luckily my course of treatment is the same whether I have the cancer or not. They took care of that during my surgery.  I have been doing alot of research and what scares me is that when you get a reoccurance of cancer of any kind it increases your chance of getting alot of different cancers, such as breat cancer, ovarian cancer, etc. So I have to keep a close eye on my body and go see a doctor if I notice anything different

Anywho, I am back, I am healthy and I can beat the battle of the bulge...who is going to join me.